[trying41more]

i had that dream last night.. the one where i dream AF shows up.. then like a week or so later it never fails.. af will show..this is so DEPRESSING!! I want to sell ALL the baby stuff I have.. crib..strollers.. baby clothes.. etc.. and start getting use to the idea of Grace being an only child.. b/c this is never going to happen how can I be positive.. everyone I talk to.. tells me.. have faith in God and he will.. well I am starting to think GOD doesn't want me to be happy or have another baby I can not take this ne more.. I need to push the thought out of my head and forget about it. I am just tired of seeing pregnant women everytime I turn around.. and newborn babies..and like ALL of my mommy friends (outside JM) have 2 or more kids..all the moms at Gracie's school have 2.. Gracie will be 5 in 4 1/2 month.. i'll be 27.. WHY is God so hard on those of us actually trying to have a baby.. and just hand them to some moms that have no business having babies.. ( such as teenagers..like 14,15..women that have so many kids already.. and they live on food stamps.. and they just pop out another one just to get more money from the goverment..or people that brag about how they can get pregnant just drinking after their husbands.. those kinda people do not know what it feels like)

sorry for venting.. but thanks for listening..

[~*Jackie*~]

Nothing I can say will make you feel much better, so just know we're here to vent to, and we can relate. BIG HUGS.

[snsgirl336]

I'm sorry you're having a rough one... Vent away cause we've all been there!

[SavaAngel]

We all know how it is. Like Jackie said - there really isn't anything that will make it better. It isn't fair and people who don't go through this kind of thing to get pregnant do not even realize how much little things hurt us like seeing THEM pregnant and with babies. I know I didn't when I got pregnant with AJ while NTNP. I had some doubts in God awhile back too and I decided that there was a reason God wasn't giving us a baby right then and we would figure it out!

I am so sorry Jade. Good Luck - I hope it was a fluke and you really get a BFP.

[Kari_B]

Just sending you lots and lots of hugs!!! I'm so sorry sweetie!

[~Lynda~]

it is my understanding that AF isn't here yet? is that true? if so, you are still in this and you shouldn't lose hope over a dream, you have to have faith girl, and not just SAY you have faith, but really really have it!!!! I'm praying for AF not to show for you girl!!!!! remember...

FAITH is not wondering if God can, it's completely knowing he WILL!!!!

HUGS

[trying41more]

Originally Posted by ~Lynda~

it is my understanding that AF isn't here yet? is that true? if so, you are still in this and you shouldn't lose hope over a dream, you have to have faith girl, and not just SAY you have faith, but really really have it!!!! I'm praying for AF not to show for you girl!!!!! remember...

FAITH is not wondering if God can, it's completely knowing he WILL!!!!

HUGS

Af is due on sept. 4th (me and dhs 5th year anniversary) and i say thing.. b/c it never fails.. if i have a dream that af shows up.. then she always shows up.. thanks for praying for me Lynda..and thanks all you other girls to caring to reply..