[~*Jackie*~]

I know my temp doesn't usually drop until 13dpo (tomorrow), but with my temp up today and steady the last few days, I tricked myself this morning into thinking good things. I have known I was out since Wednesday when I got my usual 5-days-before-AF headache. But I got hope back this morning. I really don't have any PMS besides being cranky and a headache. I'm usually craving sweets and extremely thirsty by now. BUT, alas, the FRER says one pink line. BOO.

We are trying one more natural cycle-since it is so soon after surgery- my next RE appointment will be around CD 24 of next cycle and we should have a plan in place for my November cycle. i'm assuming IUI with some sort of drug (I refuse to do anymore Clomid). I'm so exhausted from all of this!

[Christine-MA]

Ugh! I've been watching your chart the last few days. I almost posted a thread yesterday but figured you'd test when you were ready. Sorry about the BFN

[ChristinaR]

So sorry Jackie (((HUGS)))

I saw your temp was up this morning and was hoping and praying.

[~*Jackie*~]

Thanks for thinking of me, ladies. I was hoping and praying, too. I know I'm "not out til the witch shows", but I think 12dpo is plenty of time to get a BFP. I'll wait for my temp to drop tomorrow or Sunday and the witch to ruin my week and bring me some exciting endo pain to start out next week. I'm so scared of AF.

[aogilvie]

"I tricked myself into thinking good thoughts" is a perfect line because its exactly what happens. I do it all the time. I try and try to not work myself up, but somehow it always happens and my hopefulness peaks through and before you know it I've convinced myself "maybe this time". And then AF comes and its all over for another month. Sorry. Keep your chin up

[SavaAngel]

I tricked myself this month too. AF is cruel. I am sorry she is on her way to you too! She hasn't arrived here yet - still spotting.

[~*Jackie*~]

Thanks, ladies..

Christina- update your chart so I can obsess with you on what your body is doing!

Ana- I'm the same way... When I get my hopes up, I'm happier but get absolutely crushed when the end of the cycle hits. When I stay pessimistic, I am cranky and sad and miserable all the time, but way less disappointed and shocked at the end of a cycle. There's really not a happy medium for me. BOO!!

[jenisuzy]

I havent found that happy medium myself....like you said things in the first 2ww can make you sooooo happy & optimistic and then towards the end of the 2ww when signs are showing possible BFN its crushing. I do not like the rollercoaster of emotions we have to go through ~ I wish this was just plain & simple

[~Lynda~]

jacs, i'm sorry girl!!!! i know how it is!!! totally!!! i always think, i have to think positive, but then i think, no wait, if i'm positive then the end of the cycle hurts so much more!!! I'm so sorry about the bfn! still praying af is a no-show and the second pink line is soon coming!! HUGS

[KDD]

I'm sorry for the BFN. I haven't figured out yet if it's better to be positive to try and not get my hopes up. I hope that AF is nicer to you this time.

[Ash]

Jackie, Jackie, Jackie!! UGH!!

I am so sorry! I don't even know what to say, but I HATE THIS CRAP! We all deserve our babies so much! I am hurting for you!

[~*Jackie*~]

Thanks, ladies. You always know how to make me feel better. I'm just going to try to enjoy every minute of this AF-free and pain-free weekend, and deal with the yucky stuff when it shows. HUGS right back atcha.

[snsgirl336]

I am so so sorry Jackie! I really wish that things were different for you this cycle. This is just so emotionally and physically draining! I'm thinking of you!!!!

[Kari_B]

So sorry Jackie... it just plain 'ol stinks!!!!

[Soape]

NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! I'm sooooo sorry!!!!You are right this whole thing has turned into the biggest disappointment in all of our lives. I'M PRAYING that your pain is less this time.