[Ash]

I just saw on facebook that my college BFF (the one I talked about in hideaway) is having a boy. The news came complete with ultrasound pics and at least a dozen text to me asking "WTH?" (from other friends who didn't know).

I am so bummed. Never thought I would feel this way. I guess it is a little more of a reality. At 23 months of trying, I have to ask why can people who give it zero or very little thought, be blessed with such a special gift? I guess I ask this particular question because this baby was so unplanned and at least at first unwanted...

[SavaAngel]

I ask that everyday Ashley! I am so sorry you were bombarded with that news today.

[~*Jackie*~]

I'm so sorry... I really wished we lived closer, especially during times like this. We could really use each other to lean on.

[Ash]

Thanks, ladies. Jackie, I wish we lived closer too. It's crazy how alone people dealing with infertility can feel IRL. I really don't think any of my friends understand. I was talking to one friend about it last night and she just stopped responding to me, it kind of made me feel like she thought I was being childish. I regreted opening up to her at that point. I think I will start keeping my commentary (IRL) to myself in situations like these.

[Soape]

I'm soooo sorry that you are having a hard time. I'm always right here if you ever need me. I'm praying daily for you.

[KDD]

I'm sorry Ash! It's a shame that we have to mask our feelings IRL 'cause others don't get it. I've actually hidden some of my friends updates on FB so I won't have to hear their baby updates.

[snsgirl336]

Oh man, I'm so sorry that you're having a rough time Ash. It's really not fair that any of us (or anyone else) has to deal with what we're dealing with and keep it to ourselves too. I know it's a self-preservation thing to keep it to ourselves but it's so hard! Big HUGS for you!

[Kari_B]

[aogilvie]

Ash, I'm so sorry. I feel the same way. I had a melt-down on Tuesday too. A big one. This is just about the lamest thing to have to experience and none of us deserve it. No one does. I'm so sorry for all of us!!! Crap!!!

[Christine-MA]

I'm so sorry Ash Things like this definitely don't make sense and the wrong people get hurt! I'm praying for you (all) too, all the time! And I'm sorry you're limited in who you can talk to, and I really wish my laptop wasn't broken so we could chat more!