There....I said it!!!

Ash · #1 December 14th, 2009, 07:12 PM

I am angry and bitter at people who get pregnant easily. I know that it's socially acceptable or politically correct, but it is how I feel sometimes!!

LindseyMarie · #2 December 14th, 2009, 07:27 PM

...that makes two of us!

IneedCoffee · #3 December 14th, 2009, 08:14 PM

Make it 3.

SavaAngel · #4 December 14th, 2009, 08:28 PM

Four!

I burst into tears today!

KDD · #5 December 14th, 2009, 08:32 PM

5!

I get even more upset when it's a woman who is not in a stable relationship and/or has addiction problems.

Soape · #6 December 14th, 2009, 08:43 PM

I'm sorry that all of ya'll are still waiting on your BFP's I don't think it's fair or right that each one of us have had to suffer. I'm still praying daily for each of your dreams to come true. Ash my heart is going out to you right now.

Kari_B · #7 December 15th, 2009, 04:31 AM

SIX! I am not only bitter and angry... but mostly jealous. I want so badly to have that happen for me (AND ALL OF YOU!)

Ash · #8 December 15th, 2009, 05:40 AM

Haha, I was afraid at what I might find when logging on this morning. Glad I didn't start a big fire storm.

I said that because I have a cousin who was in a horrible car accident night before last because he can't seem to quit shoving cocaine up his nose. He just got out of jail three months ago after being there for a year, and what does he leave behind?? A perfect, beautiful 3 year old daughter!! ***?? Is she not a good enough reason to stay clean?

My Mom said,"the one thing is, he adores that little girl." I very directly said, "He doesn't love her....HE doesn't love her!!!! If he loved her he wouldn't do that crap!!!!" Oh and yet, they got pregnant with her on an oops!

Anyway, thanks for letting me vent! I love you girls! Please know that there was more behind that statement than simply being bitter or angry.

♥Ashley♥ · #9 December 15th, 2009, 07:03 AM

I am in the same boat. Over the weekend (when i started to miscarry again) was the worst...we were in walmart and a pregnant teenager no older than 17 was walking around with her idiot boyfriend who had his pants down to his ankles and it just made me soooo mad, I said to DH "how can those idiots get pregnant when they dont even want to and get that little miracle that we just cant seem to make happen" the thing that makes me the most angry is that they dont realize what an amazing gift their baby is. Ughhhh.

~*Jackie*~ · #10 December 15th, 2009, 07:28 AM

I cried myself to sleep last night.... so I'm right there with you ladies right now.

aogilvie · #11 December 15th, 2009, 08:38 AM

IT ALL SUCKS!!!

~Lynda~ · #12 December 15th, 2009, 09:00 AM

oh gals, here is some of my honesty... i was just considering stepping down as co-host cause I didn't think I was doing you gals justice here. I feel like i'm not here as much anymore cause my spirit is dwindling! with every visit from AF, I get closer to letting it all just go. I feel so much the same way you all do, but the problem with me, is that there is nothing I can do to change it!! nothing and i think the whole thing can be very unfair. I especially feel for the ladies that don't have children. secondary infertility is aweful too, but i can hug my little girl every night and feel pretty blessed. so my heart goes out to each and every one of us. you gals know, if there was some way i could give you your bfp, i would in a heartbeat!!!!!!!!!! you all deserve it so much. so maybe if we have a power prayer, God will answer!! hey i'd be ok if he'd just find some way to tell me to either give up or be patient.... hugs gals!!!

SavaAngel · #13 December 15th, 2009, 03:45 PM

I agree with Lynda. I am just as sad as all of you when AF shows yet again, but I too have a little one that I can hold and cuddle. I know now that I took advantage of the miracle God blessed us with 4 years ago when we were NTNP and I question every day why we can't have another. I was sure since it was so "easy" when we weren't even trying that we wouldn't have a problem TTC again. I almost feel like everyone should go through a dose of infertility so they can understand what those who can't get pregnant go through.

Ash · #14 December 15th, 2009, 07:04 PM

HUGSSSSSS all around! I think the holidays really bring to our awareness how much this sucks. I hope not one of us have to go through another holiday without a precious LO in our arms!

Kari_B · #15 December 16th, 2009, 04:06 AM

to that!

MommaLee · #16 December 16th, 2009, 07:05 AM

I can relate.....I think my mood has gotten better since the bfp.....but I definitely remember lots of crying, sometimes at night or in the shower so DH wouldn't see me.

I remember fondly last November when our 16 year old neighbor (still in high school) was excited to hear she was pregnant.....and then her boyfriend of 2 months left and wanted nothing to do with her. On top of that, her family IS struggling financially. Sometimes I don't understand it!!!

KMH · #17 December 16th, 2009, 09:39 AM

I STILL struggle with this. My sister is 12 weeks pregnant with her second baby, and they were NTNP for both. I can't help but be insanely jealous that they were able to do it on their own...they are going on a cruise this spring while we are still paying for our IVF

People will look at us later this spring and think it is cute that sisters are pregnant together, but they will have no idea how different our stories really are.

SarieP · #18 December 16th, 2009, 05:01 PM

I'm just lurking (be TTC 3 months) and I had myself a little cry today. I found out the other day that our friends sister just got PG after 2 weeks off BCP...WTH? And today I found out that my sister's friend is 6 weeks PG. I just don't understand how it just HAPPENS for some people and then others (who want it sooooo bad) it just doesn't.

Oh and I was just watching Teen Moms and they make me want to throw up

Brandielou · #19 December 17th, 2009, 02:44 PM

I'm a little late on this one but I totally agree and bow down to you for having the guts to say it and not feel full of guilt or feel awful about saying it. Someone once told me off in a comment on my blog about I was just so mean because I was bitter. And I was, but after almost a year and no one in real life that I vent to, I feel just like you and the others girls do. Thank god for the online world! I feel so down and cried last night after talking with DH about the show I'm Pregnant and... on TLC and told him how I don't understand how we can go a whole year with no b/c, no protection and no (TMI) pulling out...just flat out completely unprotected and no baby.

That is what kills me about those girls who say they got pregnant by an Oops it was just one time or Oops I was drunk

I hope we all get our BFPs very soon so we can have an exciting new year!