what's going on with me (kinda long)

#1 January 5th, 2010, 05:16 PM

Starting yesterday around 1:30-2 pm I had this throbbing headache which progressed nicely into a migraine overnight. I had nightmares all night long and every time I woke up my head was pounding. I made the mistake once of getting up to pee and almost puked I was so dizzy and nauseous. I can't wait for these hormones to get out of my system, they are killing me!! I am spotting now and actually thought AF was here this morning, but haven't had much since then, so I expect her to show tonight. I'm sure she will bring wonderful cramps and probably another restless night.

On a positive note, DH's urologist wants to schedule an appt. to see about improving the motility of DH's sperm. Not sure why, if there's not many in there and we're doing IVF does the motility even matter?? but I'm hoping that maybe he thinks there are more in there and they just don't move. DH also talked to him about Clomid for improving his count, so we'll see how he feels about that at the appt.

We have an appt. for a phone consult with the RE on Thurs morning to find out what went wrong this IVF cycle and see what our next plan is. I won't be doing IVF again until June if thats what we're going with. It's just too much missed work and I think DH and I both need time to heal from this round physically, emotionally, financially. With summers off, it makes the most sense to try again then. But we'll see what the RE says on Thurs. about what went wrong.

I'd like to hang out here, even though we won't be technically ttc, you girls have been such a great support to me and there's no way I could just not follow your journey's just because mine is on pause! Thanks for all of your support during this IVF cycle!!

KDD · #2 January 5th, 2010, 06:45 PM

I'm sorry that this cycle didn't work. It sounds like the RE & Urologist have some good ideas for you.

SavaAngel · #3 January 5th, 2010, 09:11 PM

I am sorry this first shot with IVF didn't work. I hope you get good news from the urologist and RE! Please stay and keep us posted on how things are going with you!

~Lynda~ · #4 January 6th, 2010, 06:53 AM

hugs to you hun, and we want you to hang around!!! we'd miss you if you left us! I'm sorry the IVF cycle didn't result in a bfp! i know how badly that hurts. I hope all the hormones leave your body quickly and AF isn't too mean to you! HUGS girl, if you need to vent, please feel free to do so.

MommaLee · #5 January 6th, 2010, 07:19 AM

I'm sorry Aimee. HUGS!

~*Jackie*~ · #6 January 6th, 2010, 12:31 PM

Please hang around here.. Without my JM girls, I'd be lost. I'm again so sorry that this last cycle didn't work for you.

I am praying you will have a great talk with your RE and you'll find out some good information.

Kari_B · #7 January 6th, 2010, 05:21 PM

#8 January 6th, 2010, 05:32 PM

Well AF came right when I expected her to, which is kinda good I guess. Hopefully my body will be right back where it was before I pumped it full of hormones soon. AF has definitely brought worse cramps than usual, but I haven't taken Midol in about 7 1/2 hours and I'm not really feeling any cramps at all now. Tomorrow morning is the consult with the RE!! DH already has an appt. scheduled for 1/30 with his urologist.

Ash · #9 January 9th, 2010, 07:24 AM

Big huge

How did the RE consult go?

#10 January 9th, 2010, 07:46 AM

It was ok, he basically told us there were no major problems that caused it not to work. He said the sperm quality wasn't the greatest, but they only found 5 so they had no choice which ones they used. The embryo's probably weren't very strong and just couldn't hatch or implant. He didn't know exactly where the development stopped, but it was somewhere before implantation. He said if we tried again right away we would have a 30% chance of it working, but we are going to see Adam's dr. again and hopefully boost production and quality. We will probably be doing IVF again in June, assuming Adam's dr. thinks that's enough time to make a difference in the sperm. The RE said if we get Adam's sperm better we will probably have more like a 40-50-60% chance of it working. Which we like those odds MUCH better!

Ash · #11 January 9th, 2010, 08:00 AM

Yes, that is much better odds. I am praying that Adam's docs can figure out a good plan for you guys!

KDD · #12 January 9th, 2010, 08:36 AM

Those odds are much better. I hope that everything works out for a June IVF!

SavaAngel · #13 January 9th, 2010, 10:37 AM

I hope you can get the sperm quality up by June and get your BFP!

#14 January 9th, 2010, 11:57 AM

thanks! I am sooo hoping we can finally get things going in a positive direction, I'm getting tired of the hurdles. It seems like we get some bad news, then some good news, then some more bad news. It's a cycle I would like to end in June!

~*Jackie*~ · #15 January 9th, 2010, 05:56 PM

I'm glad the consult went ok- I really hope that things look better for your June IVF cycle!!

yarngirl · #16 January 12th, 2010, 11:47 AM

Aimee, I'm just popping in to say that I'm so sorry you are going through this and that the first IVF didn't work. I think it's a great idea to take some time off to heal both emotionally and physically. I didn't take any break between my first IVF and second IVF, and I really regret it. As soon as AF came, I started on BCP and three weeks later was stimming again. I think my egg retrievals were only 7 weeks apart. That was not enough time for me mentally. I was so depressed after the first failure, and I didn't give myself a chance to process what had happened, which I think in the end caught up with me. Take all the time you need and if you ever need anything please PM me. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.