[KDD]

Are you all as sick of TTC as I am? Do you even remember what life was like before you were TTC? Do you remember the days when you had no idea of what your "fertile days" were?

[Ash]

I am TOTALLY sick of it! I can't even think about it anymore. I honestly and starting to just flat not care about any of it.

[missy123]

I am sick of it! When I got pregnant last year we were not even trying. We had talked about having a baby but were still using protection. It was one night of not using protection and bam, we were pregnant. I wish it was that easy now.... Now I spend half of my day thinking of where I am in my cycle.

[SavaAngel]

I am sick of it. I am so sick of it that I could puke. Problem is I knew what my fertile days were before we began TTC cause we were charting to avoid. Now before AJ - that was a different story.

[~*Jackie*~]

Yup, I'm sick to death of it also. And as anxious as I am to get going with this IVF cycle to hopefully end the ttc cycle (preferably in a BFP kind of way), I am dreading the every day drives to the RE for bloodwork, ultrasounds, etc., etc.

I am sooooo sick of ttc. Mostly I am sick of the lack of success and abundance of problems. It is turning me into a very bitter and depressed person, I have never in my life cried as much as I have in the last 15 months and there is still no light at the end of the tunnel. This is just me personally, but my whole attitude about sex has changed sooooo much, it used to be fun and spontaneous. Now that we are dealing with MFI I especially hate DTD around O time, because it feels like a slap in the face. DH doesn't understand it and thinks I'm not interested in him, but I just feel like it's God being mean to me, like do it all you want, but you're not going to get what you want. UGH (today is an especially bad day for me, tomorrow my reaction will probably be totally different)

[jensma]

me definitely. We have all been at this a long time and i know that when we don't have to wait or try anymore life will get easier once again!! I don't remember a time where i didn't know where i was supposed to be in my cycle. Its a bit ridiculous!!

[KDD]

I guess it's true: ignorance is bliss! I can honestly say that once we get our BFP we are done with TTC. I want to enjoy our life with our baby and not stress about TTC a second.

[Brandielou]

I just said something similar in another post! I'm already getting to the "over it"
part and I feel like we're not even at a starting point yet!!'

[~Lynda~]

it's so hard to want something so badly that you have almost NO control over!! if you want a new house, you can save for it and know that you are working towards your dream slowly, but infertility - there is no way to control it. I'm like Aimee, I get so angry at God - and not because he won't give me another child, but more because he won't give me the peace to move on. I know so many people who have had one child and they said that's enough and they are content and living their lives. why couldn't that happen to me? why did i desire another child if only for it to be taken away from me THREE times. what is the reason for that? why why why why why? i do believe someday i'll understand it, but for now, i totally don't and it makes me so sick of the whole process. I want to be able to say, well we tried and it didn't work so we need to live our lives. but i just can't seem to get there. i've never cried as much as in the last three years either!! i try to look at it as Gods challenge to me. But I don't know what he wants of me...

[Kari_B]

I have to say that now that we are not seeking MA and not really worrying about TTC and just focusing on adoption.... things are WONDERFUL! It's so much less stressful for the both of us! I've never been happier with our decision to put MA on hold

[missy123]

I am glad that we have each other... Some days I am so at peace about TTC and other days I am angry and bitter and sad. I am glad I have others to talk to that understand my bad days and dont judge me. Thanks ladies ((hugs))

[Tammyms]

I think I am more frustrated and fed up with the outcome of every cycle than I am anything else, and the fact that my cycles can be LONG... and I miss the days when we did because we were in the mood and it was hot and passionate rather than we have to even though we're both exhausted because it's that time... ok, I think I answered that in a round about way but somewhere in there I guess I figured out I'm sick of the process!

[IneedCoffee]

I am sick of the acronyms.. ttc, cm, cd, dpo.. etc.
I am tired of being at work.. and hearing someone reference CM and thinking it means cervical mucus and not Construction Manager. I am sick of my mind being completely preoccupied with my vagina and everything within...
I just want my life back. I want my husband to roll over and love me.. and not just service me during peak times.

Ug.. yea.. I am over it too. I will continue to try.. and we will see what happens. But I wish I could just quit, and still get what we want.

[BigGrin]

I am sick to death of TTC and it's only been 6 months. Of course the fact that my EDD for my lost pregnancy was Jan 31st and it's like salt in the wound when the test comes back negative each cycle. Instead of being in the mood to have sex I am stressing because I am not sure if he will be in the mood or even worse, away at work during my fertile time.

And to think, we weren't even trying when we got pregnant the first time.

[yarngirl]

I'm sick of all of it. I can't even picture having a baby anymore. I used to always think: maybe I'll be x-months pregnant at [insert family event], or maybe my baby will be here at [insert holiday]. I don't even thik about that anymore, it would be too painful.

[KDD]

Originally Posted by yarngirl

I'm sick of all of it. I can't even picture having a baby anymore. I used to always think: maybe I'll be x-months pregnant at [insert family event], or maybe my baby will be here at [insert holiday]. I don't even thik about that anymore, it would be too painful.

I was the same way - then I couldn't enjoy the event because I wasn't pg. Now I try not to look too far into the future. I'm living in the now!

[missy123]

Originally Posted by BigGrin

I am sick to death of TTC and it's only been 6 months. Of course the fact that my EDD for my lost pregnancy was Jan 31st and it's like salt in the wound when the test comes back negative each cycle. Instead of being in the mood to have sex I am stressing because I am not sure if he will be in the mood or even worse, away at work during my fertile time.

And to think, we weren't even trying when we got pregnant the first time.

I can relate to everything you said...

[LindseyMarie]

I'm so over it. If it wasn't for the possibility of the light at the end of this, I don't know how we would keep going. I feel like TTC has sucked the life out of my love life, and just stolen my mind. I am not at all happy TTC.

I'm having a rough week.