[iamkc]

I need all the positive thoughts I can get. We've been going through some serious crap lately and today topped the cake. I'm sobbing just writing this. I've been trying so hard not to cry for so many weeks...

It's actually my sister who needs them. She's sort of like my kid...she's moved everywhere with me, has always been close to me, and to see her suffering in ANY way hurts me. I felt like I might die all day. DH left for work at 615, came back at 715 and told me to get dressed. My sister was in an accident. She drove herself to work today instead of carpooling for the 1.5 hour ride because she had a dentist appt this afternoon. It's a dangerous road and most accidents are fatal there because it's a curvy canyon and people still go way over the speed limit. Anyway, she was going 50+ and hit a pole...just slid off the road an inch or so and slush caught her. The car is totaled, and if she'd not been wearing her seatbelt, no question she'd be dead. When DH told me, I went into no feeling mode because I couldn't even fathom not having my sister. I can't even explain it. DH and her BF work together and they got the call before they went into the canyon. (I've had to stop writing this several times because it makes me physically ill to think about this.) She has a hole in her lung and broken clavicle, but her head injury is just a bruise and they were able to put a chest tube in while she was in the ER. She's going to be in the hospital for a few days, but should recover well. I'll be taking care of her as much as possible. She's ok...but I can't stop thinking about it all and the what if. I know that it does no good and I'm trying, but, of course, you can't help it when something like this happens. There are other issues involved at the perimeter with her dating this waste of a human, DH wanting to quit BECAUSE OF the BF and the drive (dangerous already, but BF is always high), and so on. We're also stressed because we have to move soon, sort of unexpectedly, but have no idea where we can go because of our area and our money situation.

And the list goes on. Please, prayers, thoughts, vibes, meditations, whatever you can give. Yes, my sister is ok and yes, our u/s went well and the baby is ok. Those are most important. But our world seems to be crumbling ever-so-slowly and I'm afraid that the stress will hurt me and the baby...and, of course, I can't bear being away from the hospital and away from my sister...and knowing her situation, etc.

OK, I'll shut up. I'm just exhausted. Sorry.

Thanks in advance and I'll try to reply soon to some stuff.

[DreamChaser]

You, your DH, your baby and your sister are in my thoughts and prayers.

[groovie]

((Hugs)) I will keep you and your family in my prayers

[barrycarrot]

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

[Daniellea22]

aw sweety im so sorry your going through this i will definately pray for all of you! im here if you want to talk

[ravensunset1980]

awww Jess ((hugs)) I'm sorry you are goign through all this. You and your family are all in my thoughts and prayers. When it rains it pours huh. Hopefully everything will turn out just fine. I'll be thinking of you girlie, and keep us updated. luv ya. ((hugs))

[rinty68]

Sorry to hear about your sis

Lots of ((((HUGS)))) To her and you.
Glad your baby is doing ok in there. Just try take it easy.
Thank god your sis had that belt on.

Sarah

I will definitely keep you all in my prayers. I know exactly the way you feel about your sister. I have three and we are all super close and it will devestitate any of us if something happens to the other.

I will pray too that some calm, peace and answers will come into your life and that all will be well.

Take care and may God be with you all. Georgia