I am sorry things are getting to you so much Kim
I think 'not actively ttc' will do wonders for you and your health though,
so that is great news. This cycle we have BD every 2-3 days and i have
not used opks etc. 21mths ttc has made me a emotional wreck so i thought
best to take some 'time out'.
Most women seem to get pg when they are not obsessing so i think there
is some value in 'chilling' now and again
Good luck and enjoy some 'me' time.
Sarah