[♥Ashley♥]

Do any of you ever feel like you'll never have a baby? (Or those with a child already...feel like you'll never have another?)

Im having such a hard day. My AF was two days "late" I got a line on a FRER and an anwer then this morning I started bleeding heavily, so I either got two very convincing evap lines...or had yet another chemical pregnancy. The thought of a baby, our own baby, is starting to feel like its just a dream. Something that will always only be something I imagine, and not real life. I feel like i'll never make it very far in a pregnancy, especially not far enough to actually deliver a full term healthy baby. Im starting to feel like its not going to be something that is part of our life. I feel like we'll be the childless couple that is always asked "When are you going to have kids?" or"Are you not going to have kids?" ... That is the most depressing thing in the world to me. I just want a baby, even now I'll settle for just ONE to give my love to. This is so horrible. If someone wants a baby, they should be able to just have one. No hurdles to overcome. No miscarriage to go through, nothing.

Ughhhh

[~*Jackie*~]

It breaks my heart that you're having such a hard time right now. I really wish there was some magic out there that could turn us into Mommies... I feel like you're feeling a LOT, and still feel that way a little- and depending on how this cycle falls for me, may very well be reality. It's really tough and none of us should have to go through this heartbreak over and over.

Sending you lots of HUGS, Ash.

[jesridge]

((hugs))

I feel that way too, a lot.

I know that we're all in different points in TTC, but I am fairly sure most of us can sympathize with that mindset of "It feels like I'm never going to have a baby of my own."

I can't even imagine myself with my own baby. I can't see getting two lines on a test, and I can't see getting a nice round tummy, either. It's horribly depressing, and sometimes I wonder if not being able to imagine it is my mind's way of telling me "haha, you'll never have it." Weird thought, but that's how it goes.

It's hard to keep your head up and press on with trying when you get so much disappointment, but what else can you do--- give up? Not an option! Strength to you, gal!


(oh my gosh that's a huge pic... sorry! i'm at work and tried to squeeze a "pick me up pic" in here, lol!

[BuckeyeGal23]

I totally feel your pain...sometimes it's just so tiring and frustrating. I wish it was easier for us...it's even more annoying when you have friends who weren't even trying to get pregnant, and they end up preggers while we are still trying. Just remember that whatever is meant to happen will happen - keep your head up and don't get too down...a positive attitude goes a long way when ttc! Sending good thoughts and baby dust your way!

[~Lynda~]

Ashley, I so know what you are saying. I agree, it should not be this horribly difficult. I really hope that your dreams of having a baby come true soon! you so deserve it girl! I'm just gonna add, that evaps on FRERs and Answer brands are very rare, and to get on on BOTH, is even more rare. So I think you had a chemical pregnancy!! HUGS girl, I need them too!!

[KDD]

I agree with everyone. I'm finding it especially hard right now as there is a couple on trial right now for child negligence. Their 16 month old daughter drank the dad's methadone and died. They didn't even call 911 until several hours after they found her dead. 2 drug addicts can have a gorgeous little girl and I can't? Where's the justice?

[SavaAngel]

I wonder that every day Ashley. I have been wondering for awhile if I just need to accept AJ as my only child.

[Ash]

Ash, I am right there with you (and with everyone else). It is so frustrating, honestly to the point that I can't even think about all of it anymore. I figure if it is meant to happen it will, if it's not then it won't. I am really starting to realize that it may never happen. As hard as that is to admit. Either way, know that you are not alone, girl.

Oh, and to the "when are you guys having a baby" comment....I politely say, "Maybe never." That usually ends the conversation before it begins. LOL

[~Lynda~]

ash, i like that comment, i'll have to remember that one!!!!

[ldovey83]

I totally have thought about that.. I haven't given up yet but sometimes I want too.. Ive had to remind myself that God allows things to happen for a reason. Sometimes as hard as it may be(I struggle with this myself) we just need to learn to Trust HIM and put it in HIS hands, and not keep pulling it out.. HUGS hun!!!!