[~Lynda~]

How are you doing girl? I think of you when I go to sleep at night and when I get up in the morning!! Praying and praying for you hun!!! UPDATE us!!!

[SavaAngel]

[KDD]

She's updated her journal in TTC #1. She tested on Friday - BFN, and is thinking of testing again on Sunday.

Good luck Jackie!! We are all rooting for you and your over-achieving embryos!

[~*Jackie*~]

Thanks for updating, Kimberley.

Yeah, I've been sort of down and out the last few days. Having a REALLY hard time with the BFNs, but my beta isn't until Thursday. I will be testing Wednesday night to prepare either way and to have DH with me to either celebrate or hold me and cry with me. I've been taking all of this really hard. I'm not giving up all hope, but everything is catching up to me, I think. So much rides on this working. The way my life pans out rides on this working. I may not ever know what it feels like to be pregnant and may never know what it's like to be a Mom (which is my biggest wish in the whole world) if this doesn't work.

With the double dosage of PIO I am on, it's making me insanely emotional and tired... I'm anxious for hopefully good news Wednesday/Thursday.

Thanks for thinking of me..

[Ash]

Always thinking of you, Jackie. I can't wait for Wednesday! I just know it will be good news.

[~*Jackie*~]

Thanks, Ash. I'm praying it's amazing news on Wednesday night. I really appreciate the thoughts and prayers. HUGS, ladies!

[~Lynda~]

meeee tooooo, i just logged on to check on you. i've been a bit busy but had to check in. i'm awaiting great news on wednesday/thursday!!!!! common bfp jacs!!!!

[SarieP]

Good Luck Jackie...we are all rooting for you!

[~*Jackie*~]

Thanks for the good thoughts! I'm getting pretty strong cramps tonight though... I'll honestly be surprised if the witch waits until after the beta to show... *sniffle*

[ChicaChels]

jackie I'm just stalking, but I had BAD cramps after my IUI and I totally thought I was out..turns out it was just Brylie snuggling in for her 37w camp out I hope that's the case for you! I want this SO BADLY for you

[NortheastWifey]

Always thinking of you, Jackie! Praying for good news for you!

[Christine-MA]

Saying a prayer for you tonight!!

[SavaAngel]

I check this thread everyday just to see if you caved again and tested! LOL! I look forward to the good news tomorrow! I hope and pray you post the good news before I leave town Friday!

[~*Jackie*~]

Thanks, girls. I'm testing with a FRER tonight after work, but I know it's going to be a BFN. I'm going in for my beta first thing tomorrow morning and I am leaving work early so they can tell me the "official" news while I'm at home and not at work.... I'm going to lose it. I'll update when I can... HUGS

[Christine-MA]

I have been refreshing the boards waiting for you to post. I'm sorry you have such bad feelings and I hope you are sooo pleasantly surprised tonight! Hugs to you!

[Celry]

I'll be thinking about you all day. I hope you get great news.

[~*Jackie*~]

Thanks, ladies.... I'm feeling pretty defeated at the moment.

[~Lynda~]

hugs jackie, i'm praying for your wonderful surprise!!!!!!

[SavaAngel]

Me too!

[~*Jackie*~]

As predicted, BFN. My 2 perfect embies didn't stick in there and I can't think of a reason why. I still have to go to my beta tomorrow, as it's required to stop the PIO shots, but it's done. IVF cycle was a bust. All that money and mental & physical energy are gone as well as my 2 perfect embies.

My eyes started playing tricks on me with the FRER although honestly there is NOTHING there, so I used one of my digi's I've had forever. "Not Pregnant."

I'm not sure where we go from here. I guess we grieve. I guess I try a few more cycles without BCP until my endo is so bad that I can't stand it anymore. I guess we'll talk about a FET down the road, although DH isn't even ready to THINK about it.

Thanks for all of the support, ladies. I don't know what I'd do without you all and the true friends I've made from this site. I may need a little break, but I won't disappear. I care way too much about so many of you.