[snsgirl336]

I'm really sorry that I've been a terrible friend lately. I just haven't had any time to get on here and really read and reply to your posts. I feel so far behind on everyone's updates. My schedule is so crazy that I can't check here daily like I want to. I have little time for anything! Which can be a good thing- it keeps me from constantly thinking about my upcoming m/c due date and the looming 3 year ttc mark.

Since my m/c, this is the only board on JM that I check because I love you ladies so much! It doesn't help that I'm still sitting stagnant waiting for our new insurance and it gets a little difficult watching everyone else move forward and I can't do much to help myself get pregnant but I am going to make a conscious effort to pop in more often though! I promise!

A quick update from me:
Like I mentioned, we are still waiting on the new insurance to start. It was supposed to begin 7/1, but here it is 7/19 and we have not even gotten paperwork to fill out. I'm beyond frustrated and DH doesn't seem too interested in pestering his boss for info until she does something about it. We don't even know what is covered or the plan or anything. I'm going to call very soon if something doesn't happen, and I told DH that he REALLY doesn't want me calling his boss! LOL.

AF came a little shy of a week early this weekend. I was shocked to see her. I guess I was due to have a wacky cycle as I haven't had one in a year or so. We'll move onto the next one and try again I guess!

Shawn's cousin (the one who knows about our ttc and m/c) had her baby last week and while I'm really excited for them, I got really down for myself. I lost it big time at work when I got the text and pics , and again later that night but somehow held it together the next day when we went to see the new baby. Shawn held the baby and nearly broke down in tears which broke my heart. The new Mom and Dad were trying to be so careful about our feelings, but there were other people in the room who know nothing, so it was hard, but we do appreciate the thought.

We have been talking a lot more about not having any children which scares the crapola out of both of us, but since it's rapidly becoming a reality we definitely need to talk about it. We're not ready to concede just yet, but we're also not avoiding that subject anymore like we used to. IVF and adoption are just so expensive and don't hold a 100% guarantee. We can't seem to justify all that moolah right now (unless IVF is somehow miraculously covered by our new insurance).

So that's what's been up and why I've been distant. I miss you guys so much!!! So now update me on you!!!!

[~*Jackie*~]

Good to hear from you, Cris. I'm keeping everything crossed that they get their butts in gear and get you on that insurance soon!!! How frustrating!

[~Lynda~]

hey cris, we miss you equally much hun!!! i'm so sorry you've been a bit sad. Staying stagnent is a really tough thing to do. Keep on your DHs butt and make him get the paperwork. Broaching the conversation isn't bad, but you have gotten pregnant and will again! Your baby is a coming! HUGs and good to see you posting!

[snsgirl336]

Thanks Jackie and Lynda! I know you guys have to be as frustrated as I am sometimes. It's just such a crappy situation to want a baby and not be able to have one. I never thought that any of us would be where we are right now, but i pray everyday that we all find peace in our situations and that we are all blessed with the beautiful babies I know we deserve!

ETA: Sorry I got a little smiley crazy in the original post.. I haven't used a lot of these new ones, so I felt the need!!! LOL

[~*Jackie*~]

I find my posts are full of smilies, too! I guess I'm a visual person!

[snsgirl336]

LOL Jackie.... I smilies!

[~Lynda~]

LOL smile away gals, it's better than crying!!

[SavaAngel]

Big HUGS! I hope your insurance kicks in soon!

[Susie2]

Hope the insurance thing works out soon. Some plans do cover a certain number of cycles of IVF so fingers crossed. It will work out!