[DreamChaser]

I tried to trick my monitor this month since I got a high right off the bat last cycle, buy waiting a few days before resetting it. Well it asked me for a stick today (it thinks I am on CD 9) and I still got a high (dang clomid) - I realized I should have probably waited until CD 5 instead of CD 3 to reset the monitor.... so automatically I think, well next cycle I will do it on CD 5. I just automatically assume that this cycle will end up the same way - ugh is this how far my hope has fallen? Anybody ever find themselves thinking that way? Or am I the only one?

[Reverie]

No, i do it too. all the time. i say things like 'after next cycle i'm going to blah blah blah'

just like AF will always show up, kwim?

[dzine21]

I'm there completely. "I'll start this next cycle" Sucks, don't it?

[Shawna-mom-to-4]

i am the same way, i just expect to keep getting bfn month after month

[LuvEmm]

I am completely THERE WITH YOU! In August we will have been trying a year and I am already planning that I will be classified as having secondary infertility. I even ask Dh, "So what should we do when we have been ttc for a year without success?" He usually says he doesn't know. Men are like that, he just doesn't like entertaining that thought. I have even asked "If we don't get pregnant again, what about adoption?" He told me he doesn't even want to allow himself to think that it will never happen again. He said it is not about the money, it is an emotional thing for him he doesn't want to feel.

So every month I am like "What should I do to get pregnant NEXT month?", even when the AF has not shown and it is in the middle of the current month. Gee, stinks to be so optimistic!

[barrycarrot]

I do the same thing Donna. And when i POAS - i would just not believe if i ever saw a second line because i just EXPECT a BFN. I've never even seen an evap line, so two lines (regardless of what color they are) i will be freaking!

[rinty68]

Totally with you Donna!
The end of this mth if i dont get my BFP we will have been
ttc for 2 YRS!! This feels like a LIFETIME and i must admit i find it,
very hard to keep morale up after so long.

I just keep sayin my prayers and trying with all my heart
and hoping that this mth will be my mth...

I pray we get lucky soon. I cannot take much more of this.

Sarah

I can relate to your feelings, because seeing BFNs every month truly hurts. I've only been trying for 7 cycles, but it sure doesn't get any easier to take. When I do finally see two lines, I'll probably faint!