[Ansleysmoma]

Just took a HPT and once again got saw yet another Not Pregnant staring back at me. I almost think that I should use another brand of HPT because the words starting back at me seem to be almost more hurtful than the absence of a pink line.... probably not. I'm too much of an optimist. Each and every month I literally get butterflies thinking about the possibility of being pregnant. And my heart beats so fast as I wait the 2 minutes for th results. Then... as usual not pregnant. I wish it didn't get me down so much, but each month it really feels like I've failed. My best friend always says, "It will happen when you least expect it." I just highly doubt it because I expect it every month. I wish now that I hadn't even taken the test and then I could have at least been hopeful until my period comes. Sorry so negative today.

[Baby Girl McD's Mommy]

Aww, I'm sorry. I get the butterflies too. And then the let down. My sister says that too. I finally exploded on her one day. I told her that those were the moste hateful words in the english language and that until she was in my shoes she could not possibly understand how I felt and to never say that to me again. A little unnecessary, but now she just listens when I talk about my TTC troubles. It has to get better....