[proudjmmom]

I have just about had it now!!!!!! I woke up this morning and i started my period AGAIN!!!!!!!!! Like let me have a normal cycle for once!!!! How can i get pregnant like this?? I can't!!! I can see if this was only my second or third month trying, but this is month 12 for crying out loud!!!! Why, why, why!!!!!!????I wish someone will just tell me what to do, and guarentee that i will be pregnant afterwards........i'd do anything right now!!! Its not fair at all!!! Everywhere around me someone is getting pregnant.........i went to my doc yesterday, and there she was pregnant!!!! I just about took a fit!!!!
I hate this feeling! I know i have Ds there, but i want sooooo bad to give him a baby brother or sister!! He deserves to be a big brother before he turns 50!!!!!! And then, what really gets to me, is all the women out there, who get pregnant, don't want it ,and go out and kill it(abortion)!!!!! A friend of mine was at my place a few weeks ago, and i was sitting there telling her that i was having soooo much trouble getting pregnant, and she had the nerve to sit there and say, that she is about to have an abortion becuase she don't want to be pregnant anymore.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I almost had a fit!!!! Like be thankful that you are able to conceive, cuz there are soooooooooo many of us out there that cannot!!!!! Even if she was to put it up for adoption or something, that poor baby didn't deserve to die!
But this is getting toooooooo frustrating for me now!!!!! Everywhere i go, whereever i look, i see a woman with a nice big baby belly! Its just not fair! What did i ever do to deserve this?? GOD HELP ME CONCEIVE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1




*****Thanks for listening girls, you all are soooooo great! Man that felt sooooo good to get off my chest!!!