[AlexBebe]

Vent time..................

So here I sit on CD 27, and another BFN. I have been feeling rather good about this month, although I have been trying so hard not to read into my symptoms.

The breast ache has been hard to ignore. I've never had breast ache before AF, and they have been sore for over a week now.

So I fell into this IC testing cycle. I ordered a bulk amount, and I've been going to town. Every one of the buggers has been negative.

If AF rears her ugly head, we will officially be starting our 8th month of TTC in a few days. I realize that a lot of you have been at this for so much longer - but this sucks.

I seem to keep asking myself the same questions every month around this time. Why was #1 so easy? My mother in law got pregnant easily with #1 and #2 - but it took over a year for both #3 and #4. My husband has a 10 year old brother! I figure that age probably played a role in the time frame though. My mother in law was over 40 with the last two. I'm a ripe age of 28, healthy, and obviously able to concieve at one point. My DH is 31, not so healthy, but he was even less healthy when we concieved #1.

Stress levels haven't been high this month, but they will likely be even less in the coming two months (I'm a teacher, and school is OUT!!!!!)

I'm just so confused by this whole process. I don't understand why people like us, who temp, and monitor our every move, can't catch that stinking egg - but others (like a friend of mine) can never own a temping device of any sort, be full of stress, and still get pregnant 3 times in the past 3 years! I have another friend who has twins who are just over a year old, and she found out she was pregnant again a few months ago. She said she only had sex once, and they didn't even finish because they were interupted by a baby.

So unfair. She is so unhappy with this new pregnancy.

Did I perhaps O later? I think there are two possible O dates for me this month (CD 13 or CD 18) and I made sure to BD around both. The only thing that is keeping me stuck on the 13th day is my previous history.

This month isn't over - my temps are still high. I will continue to try to hold out faith.

Sorry for the long vent.

Alex

[Blue Eyes 409]

Your chart still looks good. Maybe it is just to early to show up a BFP yet. I know I tested the day before my AF was due and I got a BFN but then when I tested the day AF was due I got a BFP so don't give up.

I was told a long time ago that I could not get pregnant so I got off the pill I did not think that I needed it because I could "not get pregnant" 4 months later I was SHOCKED to find out I was 2 months pregnant!!! And here came Jessie. Now this time it took me 14 months to get my BFP so I so know where you are coming from.