When I first started TTC, I was certain that it would only take a month or so. Wow, how wrong I was!!! Now, I am so certain that it is going to happen that I am sabotaging my own efforts. Each month, I pledge to do things differently, but end up doing the same thing.

I was very naive and optimistic my first month. I thought it would happen quickly for us. Over the last 11 months, I have gained so much more knowledge about the TTC process/Fertility Awareness method than I ever wanted! I'm hoping this means God has a daughter in store for me, so I can pass on my knowledge to her. As each cycle passes, I grow more concerned that something is wrong with me and I will never be able to conceive. So far, all the tests I've gone through have come back normal but I still worry.

[Pari_Ameenah]

I was very naive and optimistic my first month. I thought it would happen quickly for us. Over the last 11 months, I have gained so much more knowledge about the TTC process/Fertility Awareness method than I ever wanted! I'm hoping this means God has a daughter in store for me, so I can pass on my knowledge to her. As each cycle passes, I grow more concerned that something is wrong with me and I will never be able to conceive. So far, all the tests I've gone through have come back normal but I still worry. [/b]

yes i totally agree with both of you, my husbond and i have been trying for 15 months now.....and i just feel exhausted......when we first started trying i thought, oh it will only be a few months and i should be pregnant in no time!........WRONG! after 6 months i began to feel worried, and i had to make an appointment with my doctor because of a lump in my breast that was worring me, so while i was there i asked about what he thought was wrong with our concieving! he checked me over, asked lots of questions, and then said, that due to the fact that i had been on the Depo-provera injections (birth controll) for 3 years, that it would probably take anything up to 18 months for us to concieve!...........god i was soooooo angry.....no one told me about this before.........if i had known, then i would have gone on the pill instead!
TTC just irritates me now....its pretty much ruined my sex life, cos evertime we just want strait forward sex, all i can think about is children!
so yes......myfeelings towards TTC have changed!

Lyn

TTC just irritates me now....its pretty much ruined my sex life, cos evertime we just want strait forward sex, all i can think about is children!
so yes......myfeelings towards TTC have changed![/b]

I know exactly what you mean Lyn. I have gotten to the point where I don't want to bd at all. Dh has become affected in the same way. For a while we were so focused on bd around ovulation time that it took all the fun out of it. Now, we are just worn out.

[BobbiC]

I started my ttc journey on a very optimistic note. B) Now we are on cycle 19 I think. It is now become very frustrating and stressful. I too made sure we bd around O time but it got to feeling like a chore instead. We are currently taking a ttc break while I am in LA working. When I return to Canada in November I wil have my hsg test and blood work. Who knows maybe this break from it is all we need.

[Tamaralynnb]

i started off really positive i was actually getting a period so that made me happy, when we were TTC ds i wasn't getting a period and we never did find out why, i went on clomid and got pregnant on the 2nd try on the correct dose. i was told that if you use clomid once you often don't need it again, but now we are on our 8th month and 6th cycle i think, (we've been trying sice February) i'm thinking i'm going to need clomid again. i'm going to try and set up an appointment with the docotr i saw with Ryland.

[lunarmagic]

I jumped into this TTC thing very positively and pro-actively... I did lots of research, started charting right away, and started planning for the pregnancy I was certain to have very shortly. Choosing the nursery theme, building wish-lists, etc. I thought 3 months, MAX.

Well, 10 failed cycles later..... I look back and laugh... and cry. Instead of a slight disappointment and "oh well" attitude when AF hits it now makes me worry greatly, every month that goes by I'm thinking there's got to be something wrong with us. I've talked to doctors, who don't seem too concerned yet.

But yeah, at this stage we're looking at infertility treatments and diagnosis and it's not too cool. I've started to just really lose the optimistic, positive viewpoint completely. At the end of the cycle I'm thinking, "I can't possibly be pregnant, I never was any other month so why should this month be any different."

Sigh.