[rollopodio]

Brad and I are going to chill out on ttc. I'm just so tired of pumping my body with fertility drugs and getting stuck with needles etc. I feel like it is stressing me out to the max becuase I have to be perfect in all my timing. Me being stressed out has been making me annoyed with brad and ashton easily and that isnt fair to them becuase as much as i want another baby brad and ashton are here NOW and they need me.

I learned at church this past sunday that sometimes heavenly father doesnt give you what you want and you have to accept that it is for the best. I truely feel that i can get pregnant without the meds. So I'm relying on my faith that when Heavenly Father thinks we are ready for another baby he will bless us with that. But, right now, I need to be happy with the family that i have.

I wont be going back on birth control and if we are blessed with another child we will be thrilled...whenever it might be. We also feel like our hearts are with adoption. We have both wanted to adopt and have openly talked about it since we were dating. We are just waiting until I am 25 so I have a year and a half before we can pursue that.

I will still be checking in. I want to be here to say congrats when all of you get your bfp's. I wish all of you nothing but the best. This entire board has been so wonderful and supportive and I wouldnt have lasted this long without all of you!

[diznynurse]

You have a wonderful outlook on your present life. That is refreshing. Always remember, The lord only gives us as much as we can handle. Believe that our Lord has wonderful things in store for you. He may feel that your future is to adopt, and that's why he's not blessing you with a pregnancy right now. Only our Lord knows what our future will bring, he'll clue you in when he's ready. Believe in him, he won't steer you wrong. Good Luck!

[jlk]

I just want to say that I am glad you have such a positive outlook and such great faith for as hard as it is going to be to take a year off. I want to wish you lots of luck and a stress free year. Definately check in as we would miss you if you didn't!

[Blue Eyes 409]

I understand but please don't be a stranger!