[butterflyjmb]

Well, I thought that this may help me keep up with myself so here I go!

I have been off of bcp since the end of May beginning of June 2006. At first it was because my Rx had run out but then I quickly decided that I felt better off of them, and never went back to re-up. My DH would say things at first about us not TTC right now and that we need to wait. While it hurt my feelings, I totally understood. After a couple of months went by and still no BFP, I thought hmm.. lets see if I will this month. (In August.) Then when it didn't happen I thought... what about this month??? Then my cycle was almost 9 days longer than normal and I thought I was preg until everytime I poas it was a BFN. I knew October wouldn't be my month because we were arguing around my O time and we didn't really BD like we normally do. This month though has been different. I have bought an OPK and we have been BDing like crazy. DH knows that I haven't been back to the doctor and it is an unspoken thing. (He doesn't know I got the OPK.. or atleast I don't think he knows.) I know he really wants me to get preg, everytime we are around a baby he has to hold/touch it!! It is really sweet. I am really rooting for the next few months. I would like to say I was for Christmas or our anniversary in February. I don't know if I can wait that long though.. haha!!