[JellyBean]

....that she's pregnant.

Am I happy for her? Yes, of course - I'm ecstatic for her! I love her to death and could not be happier for her.

But you all know the feeling, I don't need to go into detail how I'm feeling right now. And I do feel a tad selfish, feeling sad about this. But, I know it's normal.

She was the last one of us (besides me, or course) that still hadn't had any kids yet. So now all my girlfriends are or soon will be moms.

I can't help but feeling that it's this "club" and I have to admit that I'm a little nervous about what will happen once she does have the baby. It's not like I think I'll never see her again, because I do spend time with my "mommy" friends. But she was the last one who I felt I could be around and feel "normal" - or not out of place. It's so hard when we all get together and they all have their kids with them. I love their kids, and I am good with kids, so luckily their kids love me too. It's just like a big slap in the face every time we get together that I'm not a mom too (Yeah, that's me feeling sorry for myself, I know....but it's just....hard)

So here I sit on new years day throwing a huuuuuuuuuuge pity party for myself.

Anybody wanna join me?

[lizm75]

I will, I know the feeling all too well. It seems that every one of my close friends was able to get pregnant on the first try, some multiple times on the first try. Chin up... Happy New Year!

[Jessesgirl04]

I'm sorry I'm feeling sorry for myself today too so I just wanted to send you hugs.

[nmcadam]

I'll join you!
I think most of us here have similar lives, everyone around us seems to be getting pregnant easily and we feel left out. I've even begun to despise the people I don't even know that are pregnant, the woman in the grocery store, the woman at the doctors office, the woman in the mall, I always wonder what makes her so special that she gets to be pregnant and not me. I think these type of thoughts begin to consume your life.
I am trying to make a new years resolution to not obsess as much and to think to myself, I will be a mom some day I just have to be patient. Now sticking to that train of thought will be the hard part!
Happy New year girls!