[Gina1978]

Im not having a bad day or anything,but I am having one of those days where I would love to know the awnsers to certain questions so that I didnt feel so crazy
Before TTC,my life was easy...I had total control over everything and I was so relaxed and laid back.Now I feel like a crazy person because I snap at people over the silliest things! Im tearful,Im stressed,Im like a coiled up spring ready to jump all the time,I have no patience,I am a total b***h one minute then a blubbering suicidal wreck the next....The list goes on and its all because I want a baby! I feel like a spoiled brat who stamps her feet because she cant have what she wants kwim? I just feel so out of control these days and its driving me up the freakin wall!!!!!
I also have the obsessive need to be doing something to help me conceive faster,which means Im totally hooked on Bding and making sure we dont miss a day,then if we do I turn into the blubbering-b***h-monster again because I think we´ve missed our big chance...Its driving me mad!
My husband has even lost weight..I am literally over working him!! lol.
Some days I feel optimistic,other days I just want to give up..then I have the bad days where I just sit and watch movies about pregnant women and cry my eyes out..I am a walking time bomb!
Is this the famous roller coaster everyone talks about?? Because if it is,I want to get off!!!!

[Hushaluv]

Thank you for posting that insightful look into the eomtions of woman trying to conceive. I feel the same way alot of the time. I worry sometime that the constant obsessing is making this whole thing more difficult... Just hang in there I guess... Then end result will be fantastic...