[pandyfackler]

I haven't been on much b/c I've really really been torn the past few weeks. It looks as though SO and I are splitting. I can't forget his infidelity even though it's been almost a year. We only BD around my fertile time, any other time, I'm just going through the motions. I can't even tell you the last time we really kissed other than a peck. And this month, I think we missed O all together. If I get a BFP this month, I'll be stunned.

So thanks for the support I've gotten here, although I'm not a regular. Maybe I'll be back if we work it out, but who knows.

My heart is breaking, I want a baby more than anything. How do I re-program myself to not focus on CDs and CM all the time? I guess it just has to be done. A baby doesn't need to come into this. It will already be too hard on Jimi as it is.

Poor little girl, I'll just focus on building the family we already have, instead of adding to it.

Thanks for listening and BD to all. I hope when I come back, there will be new names and faces and you all have moved on to DD clubs.

xo,
Traci

[~*kath*~]

I'm so sorry hun,,, I am sorry you have to go through this *hugs* I hope everything works out for the best,,,, and do your best for the beautiful little girl you have.

[Blue Eyes 409]

((((hugs))) I am so sorry that you have to go threw this. I am here if you ever want to talk. I hope that everything works out.

[cocosmumNco]

aww hun i'm so sorry i think i may know abt of how u feel i want a baby desperately and i think thats only think keeping me with my dp. i just hoping it will get better. and i hope it will for u too we r all thinking about u. if u need to talk u know where we r.
take care hun hope to see u back here soon
michelle

[Pollyf]

I'm really sorry to hear your news honey, i hope things work out for you and remember we are still here, even if you are not ttc but want to talk, we are all here for you. Take care of you and your little girl.
Good luck.

Pauline.xxx

[sylph21]

Traci,

Sorry to hear you are leaving...hope everything starts to look up for you. We are always here if you need us.

Lotsa luck and love,

Taylor

[pandyfackler]

Thanks everyone......

I gathered up all my supplies...BBT, Ovulite, OPK's, Baby Aspirin, Green Tea, Pre-Seed.....and put them in a bottom dresser drawer this weekend and replaced them with condoms and the old KY. I guess it was more symbolic than anything else since I still fumbled and found the BBT to temp this morning.

Still have 4 days until I test. If I get my BFP, I'll be happy but if not, all was for the best. Don't feel pg, just feel numb. SO thinks this whole "episode" is PMS.

Geesh...

Good luck to you all!!!

[cocosmumNco]

i'm praying u get a bfp hun

I am sooo sorry Traci that things have turned out this way. Life is truly unpredictable and you never know what is around the corner. I pray that around the next one there is peace and unimmeasurable joy. Good luck and God Bless.