[Gina1978]

Since I started TTC,my whole life revolves around getting pregnant and everything is starting to affect me.At first I just thought it was taking a little longer than I thought,then I found out that I dont O,and now even with the Comid,my body seems to be resisting to work properly...Im feeling tired,and Im actually sick of wanting this one thing that I cant seem to have.
I thought the Clomid would work,but my chart still looks like s**t..Iv been cramping for days now and having O signs but my temps dont say the same..I feel like its never going to happen at this rate!
Its as if everything is just against me and my desire to be a mom again...I cant seem to get DH to BD on the days that I think are fertile,and the strange thing is,he doesnt even know when those days are,so I know hes not doing it on purpose! We BD my whole cycle and then miss out 2 whole days when I think Im actually Oing,its just too freakin ironic to me!
Then theres the fact that when I do think Iv O´d,AF comes early and blows any chances of anything actually happening! My temps stay down my whole cycle,Iv never had them rise for more than 2 days,and right now I could just scream! I have never been so depressed and its starting to affect my whole life!
I am nasty to my husband,I am constantly snappy and depressed,being around other people just bugs me and Im starting to really hate myself because I feel so useless...
I hate Bding now,and its starting to become very obvious! I even get angry at myself for wanting a baby so much when it seems that I just cant have one...
Right now its ALL bad and Im having a VERY hard time accepting that I may be doing all of this for nothing..yet I feel that I cant stop at this point because Iv come so far
How much more of this can one person take? Im tired

[Never*Giving*Up]

I am sorry you are having a bad day. I had one the other day me and DH were fighting about TTC and we were on the verge of breaking up, I was willing to just give up TTC.

Keep you head up girl, you deserve a BFP just as much as everyone else on here.

Just to let you know my auntie who has PCOS was TTC for 10 years!!! Then she got it in to her head that she was never gonoing to have kids then she got pregnant TWICE straight away. So just remember it can happen.

[diamondjo]

My life revolves around getting pregnant too!!! It seems as if pregnant women are popping up all over the place around me and IT"S NOT ME! I have a friend who is pregnant and she knows I've been struggling to conceive for over 18 months now and all she does is COMPLAIN to me about how tired she is, how fat she is, how she is getting a cleaning lady because she is just too exhausted to do any housework. She is due in May and is already planning her baby shower and I have to hear about that!! It's really hard to deal with it all. I find myself feeling very bitter towards her and resenting her because she has the one thing that I so desperately want in my life! How can she complain about being pregnant?!?! I see it as this most beautiful thing in the world and I would give anything to be experiencing that joy! She even has the nerve to talk about when she plans to get pregnant with her second. She knows this one is a boy and they will try for a girl within the next two years. Geez, must be nice to be able to plan everything out like that. I would give anything to be pregnant right now and she is and is also talking about the NEXT one!!

I hope I didn't offend anyone....this is my little vent. I've been having a bad day too......