[Karen Elizabeth]

Hi girls, this is my first time posting on these boards - I normally hang out on the TTC with PCOS boards. I have PCOS and endometriosis, and DH and I decided in February 2006 to start working on TTC. I had some other medical problems we needed to get cleared up, so I had some surgeries over the summer (including a lap for endo) and got off BCP in August. Now, I'd been on BCP for about four years, since I got dx'd with PCOS, so my doctor wanted to give me a few cycles off of it to see whether I'd get my period on my own. I didn't, and so he gave me provera and started me on Metformin in October. Still no o, so provera again, and then we started clomid. I'm currently finishing up my third course of clomid, and this is CD7, so I'm hoping I at least ovulate this cycle - I haven't in any of the previous months. In fact, I'm not 100% sure that I have EVER ovulated. Like, ever in my life ever.

While we've been TTCing, two of my coworkers got pregnant, then the wife of a good friend, then DH's cousin (with twins! I'd kill for twins!), then DH's step-sister. It's driving me crazy! I know we're only on the third course of clomid, but there were so many months when we were wanting to TTC, but couldn't. (For a few months over the summer, we couldn't even BD! At all!) So even though we've really only been actively trying since August, I've been going through the emotional turmoil since February 2006. A year of this is enough to make anybody crazy, right? It's not just me?

The worst is when people try to offer advice, like "you'll get pregnant as soon as you relax!" (Sure, because after NEVER ovulating, my ovaries will all of a sudden decide to start working, if I relax? fancy), or "I WISH I was infertile! My husband just has to walk by and I get pregnant!" (You wish you were infertile? Are you seriously wishing away your children? Want to trade ovaries?) or, my personal favorite, "maybe you should see a doctor?" (Thanks! I don't know why I didn't think of that! Also, who's this man who keeps telling me to take off my pants and get on a table, and expecting money for it?)



Anyway, I really just wanted to come vent to some ladies who'd understand.

Here's hoping we all get our sooner rather than later!

Although honestly, if it were a question of sooner or later, of getting pregnant now or in a few months, I could be patient. It's the fact that I don't know whether I'll EVER get pregnant that kills.

[Gina1978]

Im so sorry you are having such a hard time!! No one warns us that it could be this hard to have a baby so we are never prepared for it..
I hate those stupid sayings too! I went ape s**t on a guy once because he commented on why I wasnt getting pregnant (he recently had a baby boy with his 42 year old wife).I was having a bad day and he decided to tell me that I wasnt getting pregnant because I was "thinking about it"..then of course he went on to say that I should have sex 4 times a day (without thinking about it?? Silly sod!) and to relax...
I swear,I could have slapped him into next week and back again!!! Even after explaining that "I DONT O-V-U-L-A-T-E",he was still convinced that relaxing,keeping my mind totally blank and having sex 4 times a day would make me pop an egg!!! He said he didnt beleive in all that medical rubbish..after all,he was a proven stud.He got his wife pregnant at 42 **BIG WHOOP!** He thought it was terrible that Im taking Clomid because aparantly,infertility can be cured by good sex,relaxation and not thinking about babies (wow..if Only I had known!!)
You see,people who havent actually had to "try" to conceive,will always have something uterlly stupid to say..things like "Im so fertile that its not even funny" or "I got pregnant so quickly that I was almost upset when I got my BFP" etc etc etc..do you know what their problem is? They feel superior because they have acheived something you want,so they have ALL the awnsers,and nearly all of those awnsers are just stupid. I just let them have their 15 minutes of fame and dont let it bother me any more..if they feel better about their pregnancy/fertility by making other TTC´ers feel like failers or by making getting pregnant so fast seem like such a burden,then hey..congrats to them kwim?
About your problem,I think you have lots of hope There is SO much that can be done these days..dont ever doubt yourself because you will have a baby
Staying patient is SO hard whilst TTC..I think its the hardest thing to do without going absolutely crazy! I wish you luck and hope that it doesnt take you much longer!!!