katlynsmom diary

Katlynsmommy · #1 July 24th, 2005, 03:42 PM

well i figured i would start a little diary here.since i need to just talk bout what i feel.
the last few days i have been depressed only b/c af showed last week.i was sooo sure i was pg it killed me when i kept getting the bfn! my friend Jessica found out she was pg the same time i did which was awesome i was so thrilled to have a close friend to go thru it with.then i m/c! which killed me. now she is 11 weeks along and here i am tryin to get pg again just so we can be pg at the same time lol.sounds funny but well.she is i good friend,we try and spend alot of time together.its just hard for me now b/c of me not feelin well...ect.... anyways
so i bought another test last nite to see if maybe that lite af was implantation but it wasn't got a bfn this morning.but i also bought OPK's b/c i know that i will be O'ng this week sometimes so dh and i are bd'ng every other nite now lol and we will till i get that BFP! my body feels awful right now though.had a migraine for 5 days that wouldn't quit.finally i didn't get it today.i am a bit nauseated though.but that will pass i guess.i know everyone worries every mth bout gettin pg.but it is frustrating for me b/c i have been tryin for 2 yrs and when i finally get there.the baby is taken from me.and that breaks my heart.

i know that people say "it wasn't your time yet" I HATE THAT!!! anyone that never m/c DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT ITS LIKE.i just get so aggrevated with those people.i am glad i found this place here on JM b/c now i can actually have my ? answered with out someone laughing at me.My temp went up .4 today yesterday it was 97.0 today its 97.4,so that tells me O is on the way i believe.So its off to BD till i get it right!! i am gonna get that bfp this mth i swear i will have an april2 2006 baby!! well i guess i have ranted enough for today.lol

Katlynsmommy · #2 July 25th, 2005, 06:19 PM

Ok so i woke up this morning and chanced an opk and it was positive.SO it looks like i will be doing a dance tonight!!!

i am so exited,i told dh bout it and he said that he was too tired to do anything.oh no u dont not when i am ovulating sweetie we will do this!!!! hahaha and he gave in lol i keep tellin myself this is gonna be our mth!!! i can feel it! i am going to catch that egg!! well thats it for now! i have to get relax i am so beat from cleaning all day

Katlynsmommy · #3 July 26th, 2005, 03:46 PM

well its the day after O and i took another test today to see if it was still + or not and it wasn't so i guess i did O last nite! and i am not going to BD tonite,i am so sore and tired from doin it the last 3 nites! omg u have no idea! i cleaned up a bit today and then i sat here and did nothing haha! well thats it for now

Katlynsmommy · #4 July 28th, 2005, 08:28 PM

well here i am again its 1130pm and i am sitting here waiting for dh to get off the ###### ps2! today i am crampy not like af cramps just a bit of pulling and earlier yesterday i had a pink tinge when i wiped.nothing serious just a color change.anyways i feel the same as yesterday accept a headache and a slight fullness in the belly my chart is not tellin me that i O'd yet.i am sure i did already or i am bout to.i have bd friday sunday,monday wednesday of this week.and tonight if i am lucky. according to the detection tests of O'ng and conception it states i will concieve 7/30.but of course it could be wrong or i could just be imagining everything going on. who knows and i wont know till a later date.anyways if i do end up getting pg it will be nice b/c then i can tell dh for his bday next mth!! anyways well thats it for now

Katlynsmommy · #5 July 29th, 2005, 09:28 AM

TGIF! lord thank god !
today i woke up with a bad headache and slight nausea,blood taste in my mouth and i stood up and got really dizzy! had to sit down before i fell over,and i am having hot and cold flashes not severe but i know they are there.and i am extremely hungry as well. i know i O'd this week not sure exactly what day but i know i did. who knows this could be the flu we will see what the day brings for me today.and i will post again if anything else happens.

Katlynsmommy · #6 July 30th, 2005, 01:46 PM

Well here it is saturday 7/30 and i am still really tired,weak,lightheaded,dizzy.and last nite my nose was bleeding? how wierd huh.well today at target i went by the hpt isle and said ah what the hell let me grab one.lets try it out. lol i haven't been to the bathroom for 2 hrs so by the time i left target it was almost 3 hrs later.anyways so i eat and drink then i go to the bathroom and poas and i get a faint + sign! and i thought no way! but then i looked at it,and it was there but then it wasn't not sure if my eyes were playin tricks on me or what so i am going to retest monday or tuesday and see what it says then.maybe i should buy a digi test lol. well thats it for now

Katlynsmommy · #7 July 31st, 2005, 11:43 AM

here i am again its sunday feel like crap today.been so tired the last few days nauseated slightly but nothing big.and all over just BLAH! woke up this morning to increased cm which is unusual for me.but hey i am unusual temp went up again today.not by much but still on the rise.i was going to test again today and see what happens but then i said naaa.better just wait and see.well thats it for now gonna go rest.

Katlynsmommy · #8 August 1st, 2005, 02:11 PM

dr thinks i have pneumonia i go in wednesday for some tests.they said rest rest rest.their pg test was ---- so who knows what is going on now.i will just rest and get tests done to see whats up.at least my temps are still up and my cm is more that before.slight cramping.i am on cd 17 now.11 days till af shows her ugly head lets hope she stays away

Katlynsmommy · #9 August 2nd, 2005, 12:03 PM

well its tuesday one day till school starts now i am just hanging around for af to show up should be around the 10/11th of this mth.who knows what is gonna happen.dr thinks i may have pneumonia went for a chest xray today and i have to go back in tomorrow for more tests since my regular dr isn't there.my chest hurts a bit.really tired,sleepin alot,just feel blah! a little crampy too.not sure what is going on.had a strange dream last nite about dh wanting a divorce and his father took me and put me in a room telling me i had to stay there so his son can do what he wants with his life and not have me interrupt it.which really had me in tears when i woke up. i never have strange dreams that really bothered me alot!.well my temp kind of dipped .1 today.not to bad but i am gonna watch it.

Katlynsmommy · #10 August 3rd, 2005, 12:35 PM

its a roller coaster this week.i am so emotional.i dont know what the deal is here.my emotions are flying out the window for some wierd stuff.i went back to the dr today and i have a lung inflamation it will take a few days to heal but i can't do anything strenuous ect. i am due for af on the 13th will she show or will she stay away? hmmmmm we will see what happens.i took my temp today it dropped of course b/c i took it earlier than i usually do. 3 hrs earlier lol.So i knew it would.now i still haven't seen the O date on my chart yet b/c of last mth being a longer cycle.but we will see what happens. i was pretty nauseated this morning of course,lightheaded,sore leg muscles.slight headache and cm is more than usual.and i had a little crampin again today. who knows where i stand.

Katlynsmommy · #11 August 4th, 2005, 01:46 PM

Well here i am again another day its thursday today and i feel pretty ok.i am still nauseated when i wake up but for some reason i keep thinkin af is gonna show her ugly head here and it sucks.i am thinkin positive i mean really positive.in ways i am sayin yea i am gonna get a bfp this mth.and then other little pains i have i say maybe not.but i am pointing toward the + side.my temp went up by .5 today which was good i think. i can't remember what it did last mth b4 the af showed her ugly face.who knows. i am just really tired and boobs are kind of startin to get sore.could be af could be pg? who knows its just the waiting game now.dh and i last nite were up til 2am b/c he wanted to know why i was the way i was.and i just broke down and cried and pretty much told him i was depressed about things ect... and he talked me thru it didnt help to much he kind of put me down alot to oh well i will get over it.

Katlynsmommy · #12 August 9th, 2005, 01:59 PM

well well well today i got cramps pretty harsh,not sure what that means here af isn't due till till saturday it doesn't feel like af cramps but i am sure she is on her way my temp took a .3 dip today which sucks!!! i am sure af will be here and i will be on my way to the may ddc,if i can get it this time! i am so frustrated its crazy!! i dont know what to do. i am nauseated and last nite i couldn't eat chicken which for me is a pg symptom.it made me so ill i cried! tiredness is a big thing for me as well.not to sure how to take all this in???? iam so confused right now. if i am not pg then i will try again next mth and keep trying and bd every other day just like before.

Katlynsmommy · #13 August 10th, 2005, 06:38 AM

well here i am and i am still a bit crampy.my temp went up today was down yesterday but popped right back up again.who knows what my body is doing?if she is gonna come she needs to show up now! anywho i feel ok bit nauseated still but it could be a bug,sinuses,ect.. i am not gonna think pg till i see that test.my bbs dont hurt either? its just all over weird i see all these bfps this week but then today i see af as well.starting to show her ugly head!! that sucks i feel so bad for all the ladies who get that! it makes me so angry that she plays a nasty roll in our life.god i am a bit moody today yesterday i was too.but not as bad katlyn and i gave ourselves pedicures and manicures foot spa treatment and all it was fun! well thats it for now

Katlynsmommy · #14 August 11th, 2005, 07:03 AM

well i can poas tomorrow if i want to hahaa but i am not going to.i am gonna wait till af doesn't show.i had a temp change today it went up which was good.only a little but hey life is good haha.i have the big D again today.going on 3 or 4 days now,its not bad just a bit here and there but its still hateful i am still nauseated,leg cramps,cramps in the belly but not as bad as when af shows her face.tired alot still.aches and pains,sore throat.i could sleep for 8 hrs and wake up and want to sleep more.i hate that! grumpy and spastic lol,i get upset and cry at little things. dh thinks i am crazy.i haven't told him i can poas yet b/c he will want me to do it even more,and i am avoiding it lol for as long as possible.certain smells or foods really bother me as well.not sure what this is all about i am not imagining this either.oh well on to the next day lol

Katlynsmommy · #15 August 17th, 2005, 08:19 PM

well i did poas today it was bfn! which sucks,still no af yet either dont know what is going on here but i am going a bit crazy! i will call the dr next week if af isn't here yet.i still have all my symptoms but nothing is happening yet.well i am not gonna write much tonite i am too tired.

Katlynsmommy · #16 August 20th, 2005, 10:46 AM

Ok so here i am again its day 7 and af is late i will test monday if af hasn't show up.i got ill yesterday when i went to eat a 2nd bagel in the afternoon,it didnt taste as good as it did in the am,and got dizzy when i got up,and now for the last 2 days constipation. who knows what is going on.i am a bit nauseated to.and just plain yucky! we will see what happens i guess.

Katlynsmommy · #17 August 23rd, 2005, 08:28 PM

WELL HMMM LETS SEE STILL NO AF I BELIEVE I AM ON CD 39 NOW! I STARTED CRAMPIN AGAIN TODAY,I WAS SICK FOR 2 DAYS WITH A HIGH FEVER 103.THOUGHT I WAS GONNA HAVE TO GO TO THE ER LAST NITE. TODAY I FELT ALOT BETTER WAS ABLE TO GET OUT OF BED A BIT NAUSEATED,TIRED STILL,LIGHT HEADED,AND A BAD HEADACHE FELT LIKE I WAS DRINKING LAST NITE.WELL I WILL WAIT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS.IF I AM NOT PG ITS OK.I AM GONNA START BD'NG TONIGHT MAYBE THIS WILL BE LUCKY FOR ME.ONLY B/C THIS HAPPEND LAST TIME.I BD IN MARCH WITH NO AF IN FEB GOT A BFP IN MAY (AFTER I GOT A BAD FLU BUG) JUST LIKE THIS TIME SO MAYBE I AM LOL I DIDNT FIND OUT TILL ABOUT A WEEK AFTER THE FLU SO WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS HERE.WHO KNOWS. STARTING TONIGHT IT WILL BE EVERY OTHER NITE WELL MAYBE TOMORROW TOO SINCE WE HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING IN 5 DAYS SINCE IT WAS HIM SICK FIRST THEN MYSELF LOL HAHAHAA!!!! WELL THATS IT FOR NOW DH'S BDAY IS TOMORROW 30 MINS AWAY LOL HE ISN'T HAPPY TURNING 30 (WHAT A BABY) HAHA.

Katlynsmommy · #18 August 25th, 2005, 10:03 AM

WELL DARN IT I AM STILL SICK FEVER SPIKED UP AGAIN YESTERDAY, AND THEN AGAIN TODAY I WENT TO TAKE KATLYN TO SCHOOL SO I COULD GET SOME REST TODAY TO GET WELL AGAIN,AND OF COURSE THEY LOOKED AT HER TOOK HER TEMP AND SHE HAD A ###### FEVER! IT WASN'T BAD BUT SHE STILL HAD ONE.SO I HAD TO DRIVE ALL THE WAY HOME AGAIN.DH LOOKED AT ME SAYIN WHAT IS SHE DOIN BACK HERE? I TOLD HIM YUP SHE IS SICK! LOL.
ON A BETTER NOTE
WE BD THE NITE BEFORE LAST,WE ARE TRYIN TO KEEP IT ON AN EOD PATTERN WHERE I COULD HAVE A CHANCE.I STILL HAVE NO AF THIS TIME BUT I DONT THINK I AM PG.BUT NEVER OVER TILL AF SHOWS UP RIGHT? SO IF I AM CORRECT I AM IN MY FERTILE PERIOD RIGHT NOW LOL SO WE HAVE BEEN BD'NG EVERY OTHER DAY AND I HAVE BEEN LAYIN FLAT ELEVATING THE BEHIND FOR AT LEAST 20-30 MINS. NOW WE HAVE A HURRICANE COMMING.I AM OVER HURRICANE SEASON THIS YEAR REALLY AM!

Katlynsmommy · #19 August 26th, 2005, 12:25 PM

well my chart came thru and it looks like i O'd right on cd 39 right where i figured i did which was 24th this mth.i felt it early in the am,then that day i felt my hips open up weird but i did lol so now i am in the 2ww just waiting waiting waiting lol wish me lucks.today i am bit nauseated tired,weak.may just be from the flu i am getting over

Katlynsmommy · #20 August 28th, 2005, 08:18 PM

5dpo today! and i am nauseated tired,and a bit dizzy could still be from the flu,which for some reason i dont think it is really for some reason.i feel different.who knows what is going on with my body i will test this week i think sometime anyways