Hi Shell,
Honey you need loads of
I know exactly what your saying and i agree with all the girls above, follow your heart but i know deep down your heart wants your own little baby. I'm sorry if i'm speaking out of turn and i know its absolutely wonderful and amazing to adopt, and i think thats an excellent idea if you have really decided not to ttc but i don't know that you have. You can't turn off all the maternal feelings of wanting to be pg overnight, it takes time and men don't realise that. I think personally you shouldn't mention anything to Paul for the moment, don't rush into things. Does Paul know how upsetting this is for you, men have a tendancy to think we are upset because our hormones are all over the place, they don't realise we can't control how we feel or hide how we feel just because they do.
I'm sorry ive not been much help and i really wish i could be there for you to give you a proper hug and shake some sense into Paul to make him see how much this is all affecting you. I really hope af stays away from you because right now you need something other than her showing her ugly face. I'm thinking of you.
Pauline. xxxx