[Amylizz]

Our aquaintence just called and said he's on the way to the hospital to become a dad for the 3rd time, and I reacted fine with excited "Congratulations hope everything goes well", and I meant it and felt it of course! BUT... then when he when we hung up, I broke down into tears in DH's arms and said why them and not us in an irrational fit of jealousy. This stems all the way from 9 months ago. They became pregnant on accident while we were TTC, and that was hard. They already have two and are overloaded I feel like a sick person for having this reaction and will probably be punished with karma, but please tell me I'm not the only one.

[MountainMomma]

You definitely aren't the only one. Yesterday one local news anchor "introduced" viewers to her newborn daughter and another anchor announced her pregnancy. I felt like punching the television. In fact....I think the thought of how much it would cost to stitch me up and to replace the tv if I should actually put my fist through the screen was the only thing that kept me from doing it!

[Amylizz]

Wow two at once, I would have sent the TV out the window! It just hurts like hell doesn't it It doesn't help that pregnancy is everywhere right now, like another baby boom! I feel like no one understands but the ladies here and my other board, that's it! Not even DH because he says we need to be happy for everyone. He is very against jealousy *sigh* Tonight I admit, was my worst jealousy fit yet though, and I know it's because this couple had the NERVE to get pregnant on accident while we were trying to conceive, shame on them . I think I've just been extremely emotional since this is month 11 and pretty soon it's month 12, and that's kind of scary for me. I really hope this ceases and I can be myself again soon! I hate the person I am right this moment.

Thank you for your reply hun, and some serious your way!!!

[calcan]

You are sooo normal! It is impossibly hard to see babies everywhere and hear about everyone getting pregnant when you are struggling to do so.

I remember when dh & I were trying for our first (it took us forever) and I used to cry at night after dh went to sleep. In some weird way it gave me the strength to keep trying.

Hang on. One of these months (hopefully this one!) it will be you, and the joy and happiness and special feellings will be all yours. ((hugs))

[AMCM]

My best friend saw a friend from high school, lets call her "Amber", a week ago. My friend said "Amber" looked like she was in her mid thirties instead of her twenties and she's going through a divorce. Amber's a working single mom and when she asked about her daughter she said she's going to be a big sister in five months!!!! My friend asked "Amber" if her ex was the father and she said she didn't know. I was SHOCKED! My first reaction was, "Why her and not me!!!!!!????" I love all kids and believe there are no mistakes so I kind of just remembered that and moved on.

So far one friend just had her baby in May, my cousin is pregnant with her fourth kid after being pregnant not 3 months ago and is probably going to "sell" this one too, my best friend's sister is three months pregnant, and our friend from high school is four months pregnant. *Sigh* I just hope it'll be my turn next.

[junitalou77]

Hi Amy, try and keep your head up. I had the same day on Monday. My best friend called and told me she was pregnant. I did the same thing tried to be so happy for her. And I am very happy for her its just very hard for me to take it all in right now. I got home and told my DH and started crying in his arms. I kept saying i"ts not her turn its our turn, she's only been trying for a couple months and we have been trying for 8 months". I had to talk to a friend and work and she helped me realize that it is all in gods hands and it will happen at the right time. I just try to keep telling my self that. We all feel the same way as you do. Hang in there.