[Pollyf]

Morning Girls,

Well poas this morning, bfn, wot the hell is going on, i kept looking and looking and eventually i thought i saw the faintest of faintest line, so faint god you would strain your eyes and eveyone else's trying to see it, so i think it's definately bfn. My only consolation is this is exactly wot happened the last time, i didn't get a faint hpt until the Saturday, so if everything goes as it should, no af, i might test on Monday, if still a bfn, i'm going to go to the doctors. Beginning to think everything is in my head or i'm going off my head, why is it not simple for me to get a bfp, beginning to get annoyed or down with this, although i can't say anything to gordon because he has the test, i used one i bought the other night, i would be in the if he found out, he says i would just be stressing myself and him out, so i'm not going to say anything.

We're away for the weekend to a beautiful house down at the borders, so i'm really looking forward to that, nice walks, nice lunches and dinner and a gorgeous open log fire in our apartment, so keep your fingers crossed af stays away, always wanted to do the baby dance in front of an open fire.

Have a great weekend girls and i'll talk to you soon, hopefully with some good news.

Taylor: You take care mind, i'm thinking of you. Speak to you on Monday when i get back.

Pauline xxxx

[Pollyf]

Well girls i must have breathed too loudly or something, began to feel sick again this morning and then by 11am started getting pains in my tummy, just been to the toilet and af is here, i'm absolutley gutted, can't even tell you how i;m feeling, i thought after 3 yrs this was finally it, how could she do this to me, i'm never late, i wanted to get past today because this is how early i m/c last time, but no, i'm now bleeding, wot a great start to our weekend away.

I'll speak to you all soon, i'm going to try and think about things over the weekend and make a decision, this was make or break for me.

Speak to you soon.

Pauline xx

[hopeful one]

I am so sorry about af showing. Try--as hard as it may be--to enjoy your weekend away. It sounds like a lovely place. Take care of yourself!

[Katlynsmommy]

aww i am sorry af hit ya! i am tryin to get her to hit me lol so far i am crampin more and more.so i am hopin this weekend she shows up.

[sylph21]

Pauline,

OMG...I'm so so very sorry the OB got you. I really thought this was your month. I don't even know what to say. I am here if you need to talk.

I am taking care. We lost power at our house around 9:45 so we packed up and went to my dad's house. I'll keep in touch as much as possible, as long as we have power.

Lotsa love,

Taylor