[LindsLuvsSi]

I'm out. She showed. I knew it. Just like I thought. Thankfully, not on Xmas.

It was too good to be true. No Xmas miracle for me. Christmas is going to be VERY hard for me. Actually tomorrow, my SIL, BIL and 7 week old nephew are coming into town, haven't meet my BIL or my nephew and I doubt I can deal with it now that I'm not pg. It's going to be hard.

So on to cycle #13. I can't believe it. I NEVER thought I'd have to go see a RE to get pregnant/have a baby/become a mother. It just boogles my mind! I really hope and pray that I get answers and that we get our BFP very quickly. I cannot wait another 13 cycles to get a BFP. I'm sick of seeing BFNs and getting AF. I'm thinking this cycle to stop taking all herbs and vitamins and just take a break from it. I don't think I'm going to temp or chart either, since it drives me insane.

Wish me luck in the new years and that I get answers at the RE appt. (Answers I can handle, something that's an easy fix. The last thing I want is to undergo surgery and or find out I'm barren.) I really truly want to be a mommy, have a child and make DH a daddy. The longer this takes the harder and harder it is getting.....my heart is aching and breaking, there's a lil hole (where a child should be) that needs to be fulfilled. God please answer our prayers and send us our miracle ASAP! ;-)

[CandiceW]

I'm so sorry I really hope the RE will have some answers for you!
Did you already have tests done at your obgyn?(like hsg, s/a, and blood work) If not, I am sure that will be the first thing they do.

[Mum2three]

Awwww, im so sorry that this wasnt your month. We are all here for you. I hope that the Doctors will answer your problems. I really hope that theres nothing really wrong...I wish you all the best in 2008, and i really hope that you will be the first to say i have a BFP!!!

[LindsLuvsSi]

I'm so sorry I really hope the RE will have some answers for you!
Did you already have tests done at your obgyn?(like hsg, s/a, and blood work) If not, I am sure that will be the first thing they do.[/b]

Nope. My OBGYN was STUPID!!!!!!!!! She said that "you ovulate here and here" pointing to my charts, during AF and after I already O'd. She didn't know how to read/interpret BBT charts at all. She said that I don't have a LPD, my LP was 9-11 days, she said that's not a problem, but everywhere I read under 12 days is/can be a problem in getting pg. I mentioned my painful AF cramps to her too, she's like "After you have a baby that will fix them" So I can't wait for a specialist who knows what they are talking about!
But I'm sure tests/bw will be the first thing we have done/do.

[krysia]

I'm so sorry. AF came to see me a couple days also. We have not been trying for quite as long as you but it is getting hard. We're starting cycle 9 which i never expected to be at. Best of luck in the New Year and at your RE appointment.

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks!