[Pollyf]

Well as the topic states, the ob got me. I'm honestly trying to be positive girls but tbh, i'm beginning to give up on ever getting a bfp, she got me on Saturday, i was really upset Saturday, Sunday night i started to get angry and resentful, i really just wanted to get in my car last night and go and stay with my sister, i feel awful for blaming gordon but i know its just the pressure of ttc, and its not his fault we've had all the tests done, and there is nothing wrong or preventing us getting pg, its just not happening at all. I am now on my 40th Cycle i think, i lost count on 3 years, i'm giving it to Xmas, if i dont get a bfp by my January cycle, i'm definately giving up, i really can't take the stress any more. Sorry girls for the depressing post but i really can't feel positive right now.


Pauline

[Lilah]

I am so sorry. I can't imagine what you are going through. I thought during my nine months I was going to go crazy. I can't imagine trying over three years. Have you ever considered IVF? I know it is pricey, but if you can afford it maybe it would be worth all the pain you are going through now.

Just a suggestion. You are in my thoughts.

[swatmommy]

Pauline, I am so sorry she got you again. Wish I was clever with words so I could make you feel better...

Maybe a joke??

The Smiths were unable to conceive children and decided to use a surrogate father to start their family. On the day the proxy father was to arrive, Mr. Smith kissed his wife and said, "I'm off dear, the man should be here soon." Half-an-hour later, just by chance, a door-to-door baby photographer rang the doorbell, hoping to make a sale. "Good morning madam. I've come to........" "Oh, no need to explain. I've been expecting you", Mrs. Smith cut in. "Really"? The photographer asked. "Well, good! I've made a speciality of babies." "That's what my husband and I had hoped. Please come in and have a seat." After a moment she asked, blushing, "Well. Where do we start?" "Leave everything to me. I usually try two in the bathtub, one on the couch and perhaps a couple on the bed. Sometimes the living room floor is fun too; you can really spread out." "Bathtub, living room floor? No wonder it didn't work for Harry and me." "Well, madam, none of us can guarantee a good one every time. But if we try several different positions and I shoot from six or seven angles, I'm sure you'll be pleased with the results." "My, that's a lot of..........." gasped Mrs. Smith. "Madam, in my line of work, a man must take his time. I'd love to be in and out in five minutes, but you'd be disappointed with that, I'm sure." "Don't I know it", Mrs. Smith said quietly. The photographer opened his briefcase and pulled out a portfolio of his baby pictures. "This was done on the top of a bus in downtown London." "Oh my goodness!!!!" Mrs. Smith exclaimed, tugging at her handkerchief. "And these twins turned out exceptionally well, when you consider their mother was so difficult to work with." "She was difficult?" Asked Mrs. Smith. "Yes, I'm afraid so, I finally had to take her to Hyde Park to get the job done right. People were crowding around four and five deep, pushing to get a good look." "Four and five deep?" asked Mrs. Smith, eyes widened in amazement. "Yes", the photographer said. "And for more than three hours, too. The mother was constantly squealing and yelling - I could hardly concentrate. Then darkness approached and I began to rush my shots. Finally, when the squirrels began nibbling on my equipment, I just packed it all in." Mrs. Smith leaned forward. "You mean they actually chewed on your, um....equipment?" "That's right. Well madam, if you're ready, I'll set up my tripod so that we can get to work." "Tripod????" "Oh yes, I have to use a tripod to rest my Canon on. It's much too big for me to hold very long. Madam? Madam?......Goodness, she's fainted!!!"

Sorry, I thought it was pretty funny, lol. Hope it made you smile :-)

Tracy

[Pollyf]

Thank you Tracy it did put a smile on my face, your mad.

Autumsmum: Thank you for your kind works too, we'll maybe think about that after xmas, sorry if i haven't congratulated on your BFP, so I know its maybe a bit late but Have a happy healthy nine months, you deserve it.

I probably just had a moment or a weekend, tomorrow's a new day and i'll need to start being more positive, can't give up now.

Thanks again girls.

Pauline xxxxx

[Blue Eyes 409]

I am so sorry.

Do you chart your temps? I took my charts in and my Dr did blood work and put me on clomid. I have had a hard time in dealing with TTC for 13 cycles I can not imagine what you are going threw.

[Lilah]

Originally posted by Pollyf@Oct 24 2005, 05:35 PM
Autumsmum:* Thank you for your kind works too, we'll maybe think about that after xmas, sorry if i haven't congratulated on your BFP, so I know its maybe a bit late but* * * * Have a happy healthy nine months, you deserve it.
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Thank you. And don't worry about it - I only announced it over on the TTC board because I know how hard it is to see BFPs sometimes. It is definitely bittersweet - and sometimes, depending on timing, simply bitter. But I know that one of these cycles you are going to get yours. I will be thinking about you in the meantime and sending buckets full of baby dust your way.

[cocosmumNco]

aww hun so sorry af got u I know how u feel i've had a aching feeling in my heart these days. H ave u considered adoption I think thats where we r going we have said we r giving it till the new year if i'm not pg we r going to decide whether we r going to put our application in or go for tests. i really hope you get a bfp before xmas.

[Cali*Luvin]

I am sorry pauline af found you af has also found me today so we are in the sam boat. Why dont we have a drink together and drown the old hags .... Thinking of you. But dont give up tccing i have said that numerous of times but we just have to stick at it.. I am here if you ever need to talk.

[tapntammy]

I'm so sorry. I can only imagine what you must be going through. I wish I had some good advice and words of wisdom. Try not to give up. I'll be thinking of you and sending baby dust your way!
Tammy