[LindsLuvsSi]

Updating you all in regards to my appt with the RE and my u/s.....well, I wish I had good news, but I don't. I have double bad news actually.... This is getting harder for me, especially after today. Well the RE didn't think my ovary looked better (honestly my ovaries looked the same IMO) but he said my right one had a too big of a follicle/cyst on it. Same thing as last cycle, it didn't go away or shrink. So he's like see you next cycle. We reminded him about the same ordeal last cycle and asked if there was anything to do to fix it or something so we can start the fertility meds. He gave me birth control!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He wants me to take it this cycle and thinks it will help the problem. I am soooo bummed, that we're not able to try another cycle. It's sooooo hard, harder now that I have to take the BC pills. I was NEVER on BC but now I'm on it for fertility purposes. I want a baby, not to prevent one. I'm so worried/scared of the symptoms I'll get with BC, especially the moodiness and weight gain. I was actually trying to loose weight for our anniversary trip to Mexico. I was hoping for good news, since we had to sit out last cycle, but I wasn't prepared or wanting to hear double bad news. I was trying to be optimistic that we'd get the green light and the meds to start TTC a Nov. 2008. I'm worried that this ovary issue will just be continual, that it's really nothing and the doc saying it is and wasting all this time, ya know? So DH said that if the same thing happens after taking the BC pills (which are supposed to correct the problem) then we're going to drive 4 hours to LA to find a new RE for a second opinion. I completely forgot to ask about my blood work results too. I was too bummed and disappointed. I guess here's to a Dec. 08 baby. Please God give us a 2008 baby, please let this solve the problem and please let me be able to start the meds next cycle!

Has anyone here taken BC?? I have never, so I don't know what to expect. Is it ok to start taking it? I'm on CD 4..I thought you had to start it CD1 but the RE gave it to me to take, the directions didn't say much about that. So I don't know. Don't tell me I have to wait another cycle till I can start taking the BC. Is it better to take at night or the morning?

Please continue to pray for us, this is a very hard/trying time for us, pray for comfort, peace and understanding and of course that He'll bless us with the child we dream of. We want, dream, hope and praying for a child of our own more than anything, we never would have thought we'd have to see a fertility doc or be put on BC to be able to get the fertility meds. Thanks for the prayers, we appreciate it and they do help!!

[Mum2three]

Awww Lindsey!!! im heart is breaking right now for you! i was really hoping that we would all hear good news. I will keep you in my prayers.its not fair to be waiting for this long. But hun you gotta be strong...BC isnt to bad, i was on it for a while, and i conceived this baby after 2 months. i never gained weight. the only thing i really had was the moody part. thats why i found i took the pills at night, before i went to bed. cause then i wasnt in a bad mood..LOL...

Lindsey, i really hope that God grants you a baby!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Awwwww thank you so much Brandy!!! You are soooo sweet!!!! I appreciate it!! I def. am planning on taking them at night!!

[~Andrea~]

Aww, I hope that after this month, your Dr. will give you some more help! Im so sorry about the bad results you got. I found that taking my BCP at night worked best for me. I was usually hope and remembered to take them.

If you are on them for only a month, I don't think you will have too many side effects. I would try and take your pills are the same time every night. I noticed less side effects doing it that way.

Good luck. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Awww thank you!!

[cazza]

Im sorry it was bad news, i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers for a baby soon. If it helps ive just been put on BC to, to get my cycle to come back so Im looking at at least 3 months before i get pregnant

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks caz.....awww I'm sorry you're on BCP too. Hugs!

[ashleighgurl]

I'm so sorry hun! As far as the BCP, I was on it for two years. I had NO problems, but it depends on the person. I didn't have any weight gain, my moods improved, barely any cramps (when my cramps before this made me CRY) ... I loved BCP, but of course I don't want it now! I'm really sorry that you are going through that and that they gave you the BCP. I hope that you do get your BFP soon!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks Ashleigh!!!

[nelson40]

sweetheart i am so sorry! i am praying for you and DH.. just remember miracles happen everyday! loads of love to you sweetie!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Aww thanks Leslie!!!


small UPDATE:
I completely forgot to ask about my labwork results, but I'm going to go to the lab office and get them. And then research the levels of each test to see if there may be another issue he's not addressing. Cause he's forgetful....we go in there for the u/s and he discusses what the u/s is for...umm hello?!? you saw us last cycle and said the same thing. He forgot who we were and that we were there before and that he was checking on the cyst not to see if I had any. He should at least refresh his memory what patient he's seeing and why by reading my file before seeing me. I know doc's are busy with lots of patients, but that was a lil ridiculous hearing the same things over and over that we already knew.

DH and I talked last night....I figured out that the cyst has been there since cycle #13, which was the chemical pregnancy cycle. We saw it on the u/s on CD2 of cycle #14 (wouldn't be from cycle #14 because I didn't o yet, so I believe/think it was from the chemical cycle) So that means it's been there for 2 months and on the 3rd cycle, this cycle #15. Everything I've read during my research is that the cyst should go away within 2-3 months, if it doesn't there's most likely another issue/problem with infertility. But everything has that the BCP will/should shrink the cyst and prevent more.

We obviously can get pg since we had a BFP/chemical pregnancy 2 cycles ago, but we obviously can't keep a pregnancy since we lost it. I may not need to meds to get pregnant, but I think I need progesterone to keep/help the pregnancy survive. THe RE said he'd give me progesterone too. So we're thinking that for cycle #16 (next cycle) if this stupid cyst is still there same size and the BCP didn't help then we are going to ask him if we can stop the BCP and try to get pg ourselves without the meds but if he'll give me progesterone to take after I O since I think that may/will help us. I hope he'd go for this idea and not be like "take the BCP again and that should work" most likely if it's not gone within this month then there's probably another issue, such as endometriosis or something. Which I hope and pray that's not the case at all. Or I hope he doesn't want to surgically remove this cyst either. DH and I think that if he wants me to take BCP again next cycle we're going to go find a second opinion, cause it makes me a lil worried this doc thinks the BCP will shrink the cyst when what if there's a major underlying problem that needs to be treated. I hope and pray though that these BCP work and shrink the cyst, I don't care if it doesn't disappear, it jsut needs to be lots smaller so he'll give me the Femara so we can start TTC.

[FruitLoopLace]

I am sorry so much has happened to you. I want to send BIG HUGS your way! Dont give up and keep a-truckin! You will get it hun! I am sorry you have to take BCP I wouldnt want to either ,But hopefully it will help you with what you need it to do, good luck hun!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thank you!!!