sadie starts nursery today!
i know i have been through this before but each time i have had something else (either a baby or preganacy) to distract me. this time i have nothing!

my baby girl is growing up and i dont like it!
please think of me at 1pm when i drop my baby off and send me some strength to get through it.
the 10th was a yr since my mate jamie died (16 yrs we were friends) and today its hitting me harder cos we used to talk of this day cos he was going to come to orkney and spend it with me. i guess it wouldnt be so bad if i hadnt lost the baby but suddenly i have no-one who needs me 24/7 anymore!

i tell you something, after this week my house will never have been so clean and organised and next week i start painting while shes there!
my baby girl has gone from this

to this! (they dont have a uniform as such, just a red jumper!)
