[Brittanie]

My best friend is TTC #4. It shouldn't be a big deal to me, but it is. We were pregnant together, my redheaded girl died, hers lived. It's ridiculous, but since then I feel like I'm one step behind, and losing a race. They had decided that since their son (#2) is autistic (diagnosed when she was pregnant w/ #3), that they were done. But recently decided to have another one. Anyway, I was thrilled that they were done mostly because I've recently decided we very likely are, and we both would have 3 and we'd be "even." But with them TTC again, that puts me behind again. It's ridiculous, but it still stings. My wonderful husband reminded me though that I HAVE 4, and therefore I'm ahead (and that it's not a race and there's no such thing as "ahead" but I'm being irrational, so you can imagine how well that worked). *sigh* I hate this.

[Butter]

I'm sorry. It's really not a race, but I understand. We are totally and completely done with four, but then a bunch of people at church had #5 (and one #6) and for a minute I felt "left behind." Then I remembered that four is right for us and 5 or 6 is right for them. And that's okay. It felt weird for a bit there, though.