As of yesterday, I'm at a 14-lb gain. So my total weight right now is 122. If I gain a pound/week, I'll end up at 135, which is a total gain of 27 lbs. I know in my head that this is perfect.
However, twice now I've had dreams of the beautiful, thin body that I used to have (3 years ago). In the dreams, I look down at my belly and it is so flat and lovely, and I feel so content, until I realize... WHERE'S THE BABY?! I panic for a moment, and then go back to admiring my abs.
So I know that in my heart, I'm struggling with the gain!