[frankielee09]

Hey everyone! It's been a while since I really posted... I have been reading in on other posts but not really saying anything.. I have just been taking it one day at a time.. I've have a pretty hard time dealing with my mom's overdose and everything else that has taken place since then. I have no one by me besides my boyfriend and kids. My boyfriend and I have been having problems also and I feel half the time if I didnt have 4 kids going on 5 (4 of my own and the 1 my mom was raising) that I would have already left him. He likes to drink and complain and I honestly don't know how much more I can take of his mouth... Theres been so many times I just want to punch him.. but I dont want a relationship like that.. been there done that with my ex husband and that only makes problems worse!!
I never get a break... ex husband doesnt see his 2 boys hardly at all, doesnt pay child support either!! Its hard having a big family but I wouldnt take nothing for my boys!! They are my everything! I need them now more than ever before! I miss my mom so much and with my sister living 3 hrs away and dad being in prison for all my life I just feel so lonely... I hope it gets better after I have the baby but I'm worried about Post pardem depression... since I am afterall already depressed..
Well anyways update on Baby J (my nickname for him, Jaythan Riley Soto will be his name) I will be 34 weeks tomorrow. I have been on so called bed rest now for a few weeks, dilated to 2 so far. I have some pretty bad contractions here and there but they always go away after some rest. Doctor says I'm gonna have a big boy since I am diabetic... At the 27w3d ultrasound he was 2lbs 10oz and at 31w4d ultrasound he was 4lbs 11oz. I get another growth ultrasound around 35wks. I get nst's twice a week and BPP's every week. Everything as far as movements and fluid level is good so far. He is very hyper! I can't wait til he gets here.. I am so big and miserable in our above 100 degree temps here!! I crave the rain! lol
I have some concerns with my back problems and getting an epidural. I have degenerative disk disease and bulging disks in the lumbar region which is the same spot I get the epidural. I had a horrible first delivery with my big 8lbs13oz boy and although I got an epidural (i think) it wore off after a couple of hrs and I thought I was dieing pushing him out. 2 1/2 hrs of actual pushing almost killed me... the next 2 I got epidurals and I didnt feel pain.. I got in my accident a few months after my last one was born so these bulging disks are something new... I'm stressing big time! I have an anesthesia consult set up for July 11th. Hopefully I'll get good news!

Sorry so long!!

[frankielee09]

One more thing... Since hes gonna be so big.. doctor said if he isn't here by my 39 week mark that I will be induced or c-section depending on his size. I am hoping and praying I don't go that far since Im miserable right now... is there anything safe to get my labor going? Doctor said I can have him after 35 weeks.

[Sherry777]

I am so glad to hear from you. I was wondering how you were doing!
It has to be hard losing your mom like that and then dealing with relationship issues. Being pregnant is hard enough.

I hope they do not have to do a c-section. If you are already dilated to 2, you may not have much longer. Have you asked your OB to strip your membranes? That did the trick for me with my daughter.

[magz88]

Good luck with everything - I hope you can avoid the C-section.

[Jessimaaka]

Sorry to hear things aren't so great. Good luck getting labour started.

[K.A.T]

Sorry things aren't getting better. I hope they do and you can avoid the c-section as well. I don't know about self inducing labor early. I didn't take castor oil with lil guy until I was 39 weeks and lost my plug. But with being 2cm already, you might not have to do anything.

[irunpink]

Sending positive vibes that you don't have to have a c-section!
I think you can probably mention your fears about the PPD to your doc so that they can keep it in mind to make things a little easier, so that it's one less thing you have to worry about mentioning to the doc after the baby is born. But it sounds like you're excited about your little man's arrival! Hoping his birth is an easy one for you .
Good luck!

[Hopefulpinkangel]

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

Nice to see you Frankie! Will be thinking of you xxx

[2pinks&ablue]

*hugs!* I'm sorry things aren't going great, I hope you can avoid the c-section!

[frankielee09]

My OB said she wont do anything until 39 weeks but she don't think I'll have to worry about it.. I'm dilated to 3 now but still thick.. I have diarrhea and bad back pains right now at the moment... I'm waiting it out... tryin to anyways lol

Thanks to you all for the posts and your concerns... I will update and let you all know how everything goes with me.