[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

No real news, lots of discharge, contractions all last night but an hour apart. Spending a lot of time with my son, we've been out watching planes at the airport yesterday and walking round town today, walking up and down as many flights of stairs as we could find; and spending time at home reading and bouncing on my gym ball.

Honestly I didn't realise how down I was feeling until I had a meltdown on Wednesday morning and spent about an hour sobbing on Shaun. The one thing I didn't want this pregnancy was an induction. I really, really wanted a natural birth. I also can't help wondering what's wrong with me that I go so far past my due date when other ladies go at 37, 38, 39 weeks or bang on time, especially when I've been having the same symptoms as said other ladies for weeks!

Shaun is being brilliant and I'm just trying to relax, get fresh air, exercise, and do fun things. Baby is still active so no worries exactly, apart from the way my previous induction went. I've gone within myself to some extent and am doing a lot of meditation, prayer, and spiritual work which is my basic coping strategy whenever I'm under stress for any reason. Having lots of herbal baths, too. Managed to sort out the mess over my pay with my employers - eventually (that's what triggered the meltdown on Wednesday). Still pressing on with the EPO and I EVEN bought some more RRL tea.

Que, I have to say I keep thinking of you and how strong you were while waiting for Rowan, and the fact that you still managed to have a wonderful, natural birth. You are my inspiration right now hon.

I hope it doesn't sound horrible but being here is just not good for me while I get through these last few days. I will catch up with everything today, and I hope you're all taking care of yourselves. I am honestly really pleased for all those of you going into labour, especially those of you who've been hanging out with me playing the waiting game , but my head is just in such a place that it makes me feel bad (and then I feel terrible for feeling bad like I don't care about any of you, which I do) and wondering what's wrong with ME, when I see what feels like everyone else of the same gestation and having the same symptoms go into labour, and I'm still pregnant.

So I will probably not be around much until there is some news! Thanks for all the kind messages on the previous MIA thread xxx

[2pinks&ablue]

Totally understandable! *hugs!* I'm glad things are going well (as well as they can be in your overdue state anyway!) and that you got the thing with your employer worked out!

[aubers68]

Oh Sharon! I hope that little one doesn't make you wait much longer and decides to come out on his/her own! It sounds like you are on an awesome path to keeping yourself together and I think just about any of us can understand why you want to stay away for a while. I think its human nature to feel the way you do and there is nothing wrong with it! (I know when I was TTC for month after month after month and always getting BFNs I felt the same as you do about seeing all the BFPs from my friends and family. I was happy for them, but I really wanted it for myself as well.)

I will be thinking about you and praying for you! Hang in there... you are a strong woman and just think, maybe that little one must just need a little more time to bake.

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

It does help to know that people are thinking of me x Thanks x

[~~Que~~]

I've always said that I wouldn't wish passing a due date on my worst enemy. It certainly takes you to a very stressful place mentally, especially with western culture's view of pregnancy and our tendency to get what we want when we want it (fast food, hulu, etc).

Keep up your positive affirmations. YOU CAN DO THIS! Your body knows how to birth this baby just as well as it knows how to get pregnant, how to breath, and just as your heart knows to beat. You're doing great!

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

Thanks Que! Yes I will do some affirmations over the weekend. I have been a bit lax on that this week I have to say. Good idea, and thanks for the encouraging words.

[afwifey09]

Sharron
I've thought about you a lot the last couple days. I'm sending you oodles of positive thoughts!!

[junie22]

I'm thinking of you, too, Sharron. Can't wait to hear the wonderful news that you are in labor and baby is on the way. I'm glad you're spending these last few days (hopefully less than that) with your son. Sending positive vibes your way that things move on their own before induction.

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

Thanks ladies!

[Corrupt]

Thinking if you. I'm sure it's not easy but just remember that some babies just take a little longer to bake and your body is not broken at all...it's doing exactly what it's supposed to do. Hoping things get moving for you soon

[newmommysarah]

Sharron my best friend just had her baby yesterday - she was 16 days overdue and the baby weighed 7.4lb - he just wasn't done baking, that's what took him so long.
I'm sure your little button is just gathering his strength and getting ready to meet you. wont be long now hun x x

[Ever]

I've been thinking of you lots too. I hope your little one doesn't keep you in suspense much longer. But you have to admit these babies have it awfully good in there. They have no worries, no complaints, everything is perfect bliss so we can't really blame them for wanting to stay in for as long as we let them.

There is nothing wrong with your body for going overdue. EDDs are just guesses and often babies aren't really as late as our doctors would have us believe.

[K.A.T]

Totally understandable. I would be miserable if I was overdue. Heck at the rate I was going, I might have ended up over due if not for the induction. I hope you can go naturally asap.

[Jessimaaka]

Hope to hear positive news from you soon Sharron...

[Jenn1320]

Thinking of you! Yeah, I'd honestly be a mess if I was overdue, so think how you're feeling is totally reasonable. Stay strong, mama!

[magz88]

Hang in there - hope to hear good news soon.

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

Thanks everyone. Thought I'd come and catch up some today. Pretty bored with TV and reading! And don't feel like going out today. Could take my son for a walk, but my hips and thighs were S.O.R.E. right through last night from my walk round town with him on Friday and I don't want to provoke them again as have been sleeping badly with the pain.

[Jenn1320]

How many days past are you now? Having any bursts of energy? That was a pretty big sign for me, looking back.

[Mod-Lady Valkyrie]

I'm 41 weeks 3 days going off the dating scan due date, or 40 weeks 6 days going off my original due date based on my LMP.

No energy bursts since Thursday/Friday, I think I wore myself out being active and then have been sleeping badly with hip pain and heartburn so am even more low on energy than normal.

I am having LOTS of discharge and cramps and the odd painful contraction, but they're still not gearing up to anything.

Hospital appt tomorrow, where I will get another sweep and they will schedule an induction for the end of the week. I have just taken to telling myself this time next week, one way or another, I'll have a baby. But freaking out a little wondering if my original due date of 8/13 was in fact correct in which case I would only be 42 weeks the Monday after, I know they won't wait until that Monday to induce though as they believe "their" date is right.