[MoonAngel702]

Hello Ladies, sorry it has taken me so long to get on JM and give everybody an update since we lost our baby boy a little over 4 weeks ago. This has been such a horrible tragedy and a very painful experience. I wanted to thank all of you ladies for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers. It means so much to me to have so much support from such a wonderful group of ladies. And a huge THANK YOU to Nina for providing updates from me. I appreciate it SO much.

I also wanted to give my final update about our precious baby boy Cade. He was born sleeping on June 8, 2012 at 10:29AM at 21w3d (22w1d according to hospital records). Sweet Cade Eugene passed away in my womb sometime early that morning or the night before after having bleeding from the placenta for nearly 4 weeks. 2 nights before Cade passed I hemorrhaged a ton and had horrible pain. I think the placenta was getting close to completely detaching at that point (or maybe did detach). The last time a nurse checked Cade's heartbeat was the morning of June 7th and it was good and strong. The night nurse did not check his hb on the 7th. So we aren't exactly sure when our angel baby passed away.

Cade Eugene was born at 21w3d weighing 1 lb 3 oz and was 11 1/2 in. long. Here are pictures of his footprints and handprints





My husband and I chose to have Cade cremated. Here is a photo of his urn we chose for him.



We are not giving up on our desire to have children, however, we are deeply terrified of anything like this ever happening to us again. The problem all came down to the placenta detaching too soon. They aren't sure what causes this and most of the time it is just a freaky thing that likely will not happen again. But, there are cases where the reason could be b/c of a clotting disorder. Women can have clotting disorders that are completely unknown to them until something horrible like this happens, and they are tested for it. Usually, women are tested for it after they have had multiple miscarriages and/or a stillbirth. So I am getting some bloodwork done on August 1st to check to see if I might have a clotting disorder, the test is called a thrombophilia panel. I will then have a meeting with the high risk doctor to get a game plan together before we TTC again (we haven't decided yet when that will be).

I'm looking forward to getting caught up with everybody here on JM. I hope everybody is doing just fine in your pregnancies! I love you all!

"An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth.
Then whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth".
~author unknown

[LoverlyJules]

Thank you for updating us. I know that we've all been thinking of you. Those are beautiful pictures and a wonderful way to honor Cade. I hope that you and your husband can lean on each other for support and I wish you good luck with your testing in August.

[michellelove0502]

You are such a beautiful person inside and out, and I know that the day will be soon that God will bless you and your family with a beautiful baby to cherish. I am so sorry for your loss and I hope that you can soon find peace with what happened. You are so strong, and God has not brought you this far to discourage you. I will continually pray for you and your family, and I know that soon you will receive the blessing you were waiting for and Cade will help you and look over you for the rest of your life. Stay strong and know that it takes a trial in order to experience a triumph.

[MommaSunshine]

Oh Lindsey I am so sorry for your loss. I'm very glad you stopped by with an update, thats a very difficult thing to do. I hope that your testing goes well and you are able to get some answers so you can continue to heal. Take care of yourself, I hope that a healthy little blessing comes your way when you are ready for it

[*AngieKH*]

Thanks for stopping by to update us. I've been thinking about you and I'll continue to pray for you and your family. I hope that the tests give you some answers too.

[ellinj0206]

Lindsey, thank you for checking in. I am so sorry for your loss and pray that with time you will find comfort. Always remember you will have a sweet angel watching you and your little boy will never be far away.

Hugs,
El

[KMH]

Lindsey, thank you so much for your update. You have been in my thoughts and prayers. You have shown incredible grace and faith during your journey, and have been an inspiration to me. I hope that you and your DH are blessed with a little one as soon as you are ready.

You and Cade will always be a part of our family

[jlstebbins]

Thank you for stopping by and updating us on your baby boy! I hope and pray things get easier for you and your family! You will be blessed one day with more children, just trust in God and pray! He will do amazing things for you!

[jessjillmama]

I am so sorry for you loss. Thanks for the update and sharing the photos. Those will be precious memories for you and your dh. Thinking of you and your family at this time.

[**Jenn**]

Thank you for stopping by and updating. You and your sweet baby boy are frequently in my thoughts. I hope and pray that God blesses you and your family with a healthy pregnancy and baby when you're ready. Much love

[AltMommy]

Thank you for having the strength to update us. I can't imagine how hard this must be on both of you. You are all receiving prayers everyday and I know someday soon you will have your beautiful rainbow baby. With Cade looking from up above, loving you all very much.

[starsandstripes]

Thank you so much for coming over to update us. I just want you to know that you and your family are always in our thoughts in prayers.

[delaney24]

Thank you so much for updating us; you are so very strong. The photos are beautiful & I'm glad you have them to treasure along with your memories.

I hope the tests provide you with some answers or information. I know Cade will always be a special part of your family, and I hope that whenever you are ready, you are gifted with your rainbow baby. We are all thinking of you!

[MommyOf2happyChildren]

Thank you for the update, your angel will be forever missed.

[doremi]

You have been heavy on my heart since Cade's passing. All my love to you, and thank you so much for giving us your update, and allowing us to see your precious photos. I hope you will continue to check in with us from time to time, as you will ALWAYS have a place in this group!

[Shamogue]

Thanks for the update and so sorry to you and your family on the loss of Cade. We will keep all of you in our thoughts and hope that you get good results from your August tests.

[3Sapphires]

I am so very sorry for your loss of sweet baby Cade. You are in my prayers.

Thank you for the update. I'm so very sorry that this happened. Praying you and your DH!

[zubeldia]

The photos are so touching. Thank you for checking in. We've all been thinking of you and your little one.

[Stilettos-N-Sippys]

Oh Lindsey... It's so great to hear from you. I've thought about you all so much. I'm glad to hear that you two aren't giving up and pray that the test you take will give you some answers.

I'll continue praying for you and your DH in hopes that your hearts begin to heal soon. Your quote in your siggy is so perfect <3