The doctor said she isn't worried.....you know what though, I REALLY felt kind of pushed over after that whole episode and it's been weighing on my mind. Ok so at first...the doctor stayed in there the entire time during the NST, seemed very worried and I felt like she was genuinely worried and I was relieved that she picked up on that also. So then we had the BPP done and Ella passed so quickly! Great! They were all like nothing ever happened and "yeah come back in two weeks".....and sent me on my Merry way. Mean while, I'm still REALLY worried....I mean that whole experience was REALLY traumatic! It didn't help that I was there by myself either! I didn't know whether or not my baby was going to have to be taken then, or if she'd even make it that far....I know, a bit dramatic, but her heart rate was dropping into the 90's. At one point in time, the doctor had her hand on my pulse and listening to her heart rate at the same time just to make sure it wasn't ME she was picking up. That's a LOW heart rate for a baby!!! I was REALLY really scared! So anyway, Ella passes her BPP and the doctor wasn't even going to see me afterwards. The nurse just came out and said "she passed...your good to go". Like I'm supposed to leave like that? So I asked her about the steroid injections my doctor had already mentioned while we were doing the NST and she said "oh, let me ask"....so she asked and sat me in the doctor's office. THAT's when I got to actually see her and talk to her after the BPP. So I double checked with her to make SURE all was fine with Ella and she explained to me everything they do and how well she did....gave me the prescription and said "I'll see you in two weeks'. It was like nothing ever happened (to me anyway that's how I felt).
So fast forward to that afternoon, after I told my mom everything that happened, she talked me into calling back. By this time I've got all kinds of thoughts going through my head "what if there's a knot in her cord", "what if the cord is wrapped around a limb" ......just all sorts of stuff. So I call back and get the NP who was REALLY rude! I mean, seriously WAY more abrupt than she had to be. She said "well, just given the fact that she sent you home, is reason enough to believe that everything is fine". Then ...and I kid you not....she says "because it would have been just as easy for her to admit you". So then I got a little upset and told her that she really wasn't making me feel any better and that I needed answers to my questions. I asked her about the knot...she told me they didn't check for that on the BPP, but that they DO check for it on the 20 week ultrasound (which was 8 weeks prior to that mind you)....and that was fine. I asked her about her lower heart rate (130's rather than 150's) and she said it was still normal. I asked her about the weight change (90th% at 20 week vs the 49th now)....she said, she's still in the 50th so that's normal too. I was ASKING about ELLA though....not about what's "normal" overall...you know? Like that's NOT normal for ELLA??? so I got off the phone crying with her, but later felt like maybe I was being a bit dramatic. I mean the doctors DO know what they are doing right?????????
So now this happens. :/ Now I'm worried all over again. I feel much better about the fact that Ella is doing better, but now of course I'm worried about what damage could have been done also.
I'm just getting through it and trying NOT to worry because there's not anything I can do about that now.
The thing is....in THIS office, you see the NP's more than you see the doctors and the NP told me to go UP on my meds just at the appointment prior to the one Ella was having so many problems with! So I was taking 600mg a DAY of labetalol at that point (which still isn't very much I don't think), but it was bottoming out my pressures.
I guess they only tell you to do by going off what your pressures are at the doctor's office...not what they've been at home. The thing is, they all look at you like they don't believe you when you tell them how low your pressures are at home because I told them I felt like I needed to lower the dosage a couple of months ago. .....the NP that is.
and the worst part about the whole thing is that I am absolutely stuck because NO doctor around here will take someone who is 30 weeks along in pregnancy unless you've moved from another city. They just will not take patients coming from another OB. I LIKE my doctor......I really do. I just wish that we could SEE her every time. I feel like she would have picked up on this a LOT sooner had I of not been seeing the NP every time I go in!
Now that this has happened I'm not sure who I'll be seeing, but I really have bad feelings for the stupid NP who made me feel like an idiot for questioning the BPP and as it turns out I WAS RIGHT!!!!!!
Sorry, that was totally a ramble. I didn't mean to get into all that
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So.....I was still scared, but apparently the doctor was not. 
s and hang in there mama! This really has been super stressful for you.
I would DEMAND to see my doctor EVERY TIME!!! how can they do that?!?! UGH what a MESS!!! Im so sorry you are having to deal with all of this right now... so NOT what you need to be worrying about... 
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