[Diamond2009]

Yesterday i started leaking some fluid which i thought was either amniotic fluid or the baby was sitting on my bladder and i couldnt control it. Every time i would get up it felt like i was peeing. I was going to go to the hospital but decided to just see what happens since i wasnt sure if it was urine or fluid. So i just put in a pad. I went to bed early and felt a little better in the morning. I didnt wear a pad today but found that i had a little dampness in my underwear. I did some grocery shopping and came home. When i went pee and wiped i seen some pink spotting. So i decided to go to ER. After 6 hours the doctor seen me and said the ultrasound technician was gone home so all they had was a ultrasound machine on a cart. He siad he could see the heartbeat but not much fluid around the baby. ( we all know how ER doctors are....and dont know what they are talking about sometimes) So i'm hoping he is wrong. They want me to come in tomorrow morning at 10:30 am for a ultrasound. PLease pray that my baby is healthy and has lots of fluid around it.


Update

I went in for my ultrasound this morning ...they made me wait like 1 hour to be seen. The ultrasound tech said there is a heartbeat but only 1 pocket of fluid (not sure how many you are suppose to have) SHe said that she couldnt tell me anything else and that she wanted me to go back to ER for the results. So i went to ER and there was a loong *** wait again so i said **** it....i asked for the results and they gave it to me in a envelope. I have been calling my OB the whole way home and no answer....so i opened the envelope and faxed it to her so she could at least call me with some answers or let me know what i need to do.

The paper reads this...not sure what post of it means...if any of you ladies do please let me know.

POSITION Breech
PLACENTA Anterior/not previa
FLUID Oligo
CERVIX 3.4
FETAL HEART RATE 147 BPM
SINGLE is circled
BLADDER & STOMACH checked
SPINE Ltd
LOWER LIMBS & FEET Ltd

Then she wrote

1 small pocket 1.4 x 1.3 cm

This is oligohydrammunios with only 1 pocket of amniotic fluid very limited assesment of anatomy due to early gestation and lack of fluid baby measuring 16W 6 D

I AM SO SCARED


UPDATE July 4th @ 3pm

My doctors secretary called and said my OB is on vacation...she got the fax and wants me to come to L&D right now. The OB on call is expecting me. I should of went to my hospital in the first place but i moved 2 months ago so its 30 minutes away so last night i went to the local one which obviously didnt give a crap. PLease continue to keep my lil snowflake in your prayers. I'm bringing my laptop in case they keep me. I'm so upset this is happening


Update July 4 @ 4:18pm

Well i am here in triage at L&D ....they just sent me for another ultrasound and we are waiting for the results. They did a qtip swab to check my mebranes and it was negative. I pray that the leaking has stopped so my fluid can replenish itself. He said while we wait for the results he explained that it all depends on if my wayer broke or not. If my water broke then the outcome is not good since i could get a infection and would have to deliver the baby Chances of baby surviving is like 0% I am devastated. PLEASE GOD I PRAY MY ULTRASOUND RESULTS ARE BETTER THEN THE OTHER HOSPITAL RESULTS. I just keep hearing little babies being delivered and crying I WANT TO HAVE MY BABY HEALTHY SOOOOOO BAD. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO HEAR THE FIRST CRY IN DECEMBER.....I WANT TO BE ABLE TO HOLD MY HEALTHY BABY.

UPDATE July 4th @ 7:53

The second ultrasound came back with no amniotic fluid. I am devasted. The doctor explained my options again and recommends i induce labor and deliver the baby. I talked with hubby and we are going in tomorrow morning for another ultrasound to see if the fluid is replenishing at all....I PRAY TO GOD A MIRACLE HAPPENS TONIGHT...if not we are going to induce labor. I cant stop crying thinking about the decision we have to make ........i cant believe this is happening. Please continue to keep us in your prayers. PRAYING FOR A MIRACLE.

Update July 5 at 10:55 am


I'm back in triage waiting for them to send me for ultrasound I feel sick to my stomach I forgot my laptop at home so updating from iPhone PLEASE PRAY FOR A MIRACLE
Thanks for all tHe prayers you all have sent to me and my family. We appreciate all of them .

Update July 5 @ 1:40


My worst nightmare is reality. The baby still does not have any fluid and lungs and limbs cannot develop without it. We have made the most heartbreaking decision of our lives. I am going to be induced shortly and deliver my sweet angel baby . I wish no one has to go through this type of hurt in their life. PLEASE PRAY THAT I HAVE A FAST EASY LABOR. I just want to go home . I wish u ladies a happy and healthy pregnancy. Thank u for always being here for me.


UPDATE July 5th at 4:15pm

The social worker came to speak to me and explained that its not my fault and there was nothing i did wrong. Some things just happen and there is no explaining why. The Catholic Deacon came to see us and said some prayers and shared with us some of his stories of God and why things happen and how God loves us eternally and that my child will be an angel in heaven with him. He made me feel at peace. At 2pm took me to a private room and they started me on IV and antibiotics. At 3:15 they inserted 2 small pills by my cervic to start the induction. So far not feeling much,....I just want it to go fast ......The hospital asked me if i wanted a picture of the baby and/or to hold the baby. I dont think i can hold or see it but picture and footprints if possible would be nice to keep. I thank you all for your support and prayers. It means alot to me.

Update July 5 at 10:31 pm

They say it was a boy they are not 100% sure yet since it was so small so they will be doing an autopsy to confirm. I had that gut feeling it was He was born sleeping at 8:08pm.....20cm long and 0.5 lbs. I have not seen him yet. They asked me to look but i could not. I just closed my eyes tight and cried while he came out after only 1 push. I am still waiting for the placenta to come out which is sooo horrible. I honestly just wanted to get it over with ...wash up and greive but i cant even do that until it comes out. They put me back on cyotec (sp?) to contract my uterus to hopefully get it out. The last resort is a D&C which i do not want after all i've been through. PLEASE CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR US.


Update July 6 @ 12:37pm

I'm still in the hospital but ready to go home soon. Last night was the worst experience of my life. I had the stupidest nurse...i'm telling the woman i feel like i have to push...she's telling me to wait for the doctor. How the hell do you want me to wait...1 push and the baby came out. I closed my eyes tight and just cried hoping they would remove it from between my legs. The nurse called in another nurse....who stood there for a while like a idiot not knowing i gave birth and told the other lady not to enter the time of delivery in the computer until i deliver. The stupid nurse told the idiot nurse she did. The idiot nurse said oh my god i'm sorry sweetie and started cleaning me up. I had my eyes closed this whole time. It felt like 5 minutes before the doctor came in. I was soooo pissed. Then to make things worse they tell me it looks like a boy (which is what we wanted since our 3 youngest between us are girls) felt like twisting a knife through my heart. To make matters worse the placenta was still attached to the wall and would not detach. So here come the medicine again to get me contracting. I felt labor pain a 2nd time for 4 hours until i delivered the placenta in my bed pen after i told them i had to pee. I PUSHED SOOO HARD to get it out......no help to any of the nurses or doctors who would have made me wait there all night. I was soooo tired and hungry by this point i was getting angry and mean. They treated me so bad here ...i guess because i dont have a little baby mine is gone I buzz the nurse and it literally takes her like 5-10 minutes to check on me. Anyways glad this whole ordeal is over with. I am so scared to ever try again. I NEVR EVER want to go through this again.

They put together a memory box for me



These items were inside the box. The yelllow hat the baby wore...the green blanket, white gown and small teddy used to show the size of the baby in the pic



They still are not 100% sure gender but think its a boy...so until the autopsy proves gender they gave me both cards. The love photo album contains pics of my angel



GRAPHIC

1 pic of my precious ANGEL. I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH Gone to soon



I Hope and pray you all have HEALTHY PREGNANCIES and enjoy every minute with your precious babies. NO ONE SHOULD EVER HAVE TO FEEL THIS PAIN.


Thanks for letting me share my story with you all and thank you all for being here for me every step of the way.


FINAL UPDATE July 6 @ 10:37pm

The autopsy confirmed that the ultrasound was correct. She was a Girl.

Baby Lauren born sleeping July 5th at 8:08pm

I can finally mourn knowing the gender. I am doing much better since being released from the hospital and looking through her memory box. It gave me closure to such a tragedy. Thank you again for all your kind words and prayers. I shared this with you since you ladies are my friends even though we dont know each other IRL. I feel better sharing this with you since alot of people IRL didnt know i was pregnant yet and i didnt post it on FB so its nice to get it all off my chest here, I know you ladies feel my hurt and pain too. I will be back on the boards soon probably in the TTC after a loss then when and if i'm ready to TTC again I will be seeing all my ladies in the TTC board. (well hopefully they all moved on by then) but i'm sure i'll meet some other lovely ladies. I'll still pop in to check up on you ladies as well.

[Wishinfor2ndblessing]

OH Kim.... my thoughts and prayers are with you a little one..... lay down, rest, and take it easy..... KUP sweetie

[taatie10]

OMG I'm so sorry.
I'll be praying for you and baby. I really hope the ER doc was just OB stupid like most are.

Good news is there is hope, I had a friend who ruptured her membranes at 21 weeks. She brought him to 34 weeks with only 2cm of fluid. Both him & her are fine. She had to stay in the hospital for most of that time but it worked out.

Be praying hard. Let us know what the Dr & US say.

[anna.rose]

Oh no mama! You and baby are in my thoughts!

[rlh27]

Sending you thoughts and prayers, Kim. Please keep us posted.

[Christina(mommyof2)]

ts and ps

[jamiemama90]

OMG my prayers are with you and the little one. Get some rest until tomorrow. I hope everything is fine!

[Diamond2009]

Thank You Ladies. I pray everything is ok. I am so scared.

[LJH814]

Many prayers your way! Keep us posted!

[Momma_Mia]

Oh Kim I'm praying for you and baby!! Hate that u spent the evening at the hospital n hope that tomorw gives u assurance that all is okay. Please keep us posted!

[Diamond2009]

I'm having some serious braxton hicks

[krisnewb]

Did you call your regular doctor and see what he said? Go home and rest and drink lots of water to replenish your amniotic fluid.
Kristy

[BeckyBozeman]

oh man... I'm sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way Kim and am hoping that you're right and the ER doc just doesn't know what he's talking about.

[Diamond2009]

I called my doctor before heading to the hospital. I got voicemail and no return call yet. I'm going to call in the morning and see if she'll see me after the ultrasound.

[hilhillrn]

Oh goodness... I know you've got to be nervous...

Im praying everything is ok tomorrow.

[crystalcherry]

First off know there are many prayers going up for you & your LO. I hope the ER Dr was just lacking in knowledge combined with poor equipment. Fluid can replenish so make sure you are downing water, as much as you can stomach, & try to rest. Let us know whats going on as soon as you find out.

[burnbot]

oh no Kim! Good luck tomorrow. I will be praying for you and baby.

[crystalcherry]

Is there another hospital you can go to since bh have started? Even if its an hour away I would go in. Most ER will call in someone from radiology even if they have gone home. They have patiebts on the floor that need stuff done.

[Diamond2009]

I want to go back but honestly after 6 hour wait i'm beat .......any hopsital will make me wait in ER, They dont send you to L&D here until after 22 weeks. Sucks because to me a baby is a baby no matter how many weeks and they should do anything they can to help you as soon as possible. The spotting is on and off so at least its not getting worse which is a good thing. My mom is here to help so i've been laying down since i've been home.

[Momma_Mia]

If it doesn't get any better I would almost go to a different hospital....oh 1030 can't get here fast enough. Hang in there sis!