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This was orginally a blog for MYSPACE..so there are some things that dont pertain to JM (such as explaining what Pitocin is..) but my fingers would fall off if I had to redo that..
Here's the story/Of a boy named Owen
So Wednesday I went in to Mercy around 6pm with contractions. They checked me out and told me I wasn't more than 2 cm's dilated *which I had been for about a week* and the contractions were just Braxton Hicks (false labor). My doctor (who just happened to be there doing a delivery) said he was going to order an ultrasound than they would send me home. But alas discovered during the ultrasound -I had really low amniotic fluid. Which is not so good, so the options were check it again in the morning to see if it had replenished any or induce me that night. My doc chose option B. They started the Pitocin (a synthetic hormone that induces contractions) around 10 pm. Tyler arrived, my fam arrived. Etc Etc.
The next morning around 8 the other doctor in the OB practice arrived. My contractions were still irregular and I hadn't progressed any with the dilation. He then decides to break my water. That got the party started. Around an hour later my contractions got pretty intense so I opted for an epidural. Loves it. I rested some until *AHH* the catheter for the epidural FELL OUT. The pain. Oh lord the pain. Then the beautiful man that was the anesthesiologist gives me another one and ups the dosage. Sweet relief..
In about 3-4 hours time I then shot to 5cm's and I started to feel the pain come back a little. They upped the dosage some more and I pleaded with them to check that it hadn't fallen out. I told them it wasn't working and they replied that I would feel some pain..blah blah whatever. Ya I felt it all. In the span of about 2-3 hours it had either worn off completely or fallen out again (which is what I think) because it wasn't working at all. I begged and begged but they said their wasn't anything they could do at that point because I was 7cm's.
Now let me take a minute to tell you about this pain. There is nothing beautiful about this part of childbirth. I was in agony. I screamed and tried to pull my own hair out. I tried to tell them that I felt it all but they assured me the epidural was working. No ma'am it aint. They gave me a shot of Fentaynl or so they say. I suspect it was saline because it had the same effect. My contractions were right on top of each other and I honestly thought I was dying. I couldn't get out of bed because of the monitorsand catheter. So I could not walk or get into the pretty jacuzzi to try to get some relief. I just had to keep switching positions. Nothing worked. It hurt so bad, I can honestly say it was worth it and I would do it all again for my boy. But, if I have another baby I will schedule a C-section. I might be going on about this a bit but I want someone else to understand what I went through. I had nurses in my face telling me to breathe. BREATHE?!? My sister kept reminding me that "I could do this because she had done it 4 times" no way lady. You couldn't have done THIS because if you had you would be telling them to knock me the f- out. If I had a firearm I really might have tried to off myself at this point. It was that bad.
Okay so then I start feeling a tremendous pressure. Like I literally had to take the biggest poop of my life, I yelled that wanted to push so the nurse checked that I was fully dilated and effaced then told me to do some "practice pushes" so I do. And pushing was really the only thing that brought any sort of relief. Anyway I only got to push twice when she yells at me to stop because he was coming to fast when I pushed and the doc wasn't there. I had to wait 45 MINUTES FOR THE DOCTOR TO SHOW UP! Contemplating and almost attempting to rip out my catheters and the internal monitors so I could get out of the ###### bed. Finally the doctor shows up and jokes "I cant even see the head yet" someone SLAP HIM. I scream that I need to push and he says "well push then" OH THANK GOD. My sister grabs one leg, Tyler grabs the other and we get the show on the road. Now I literally pushed for no more than 15 minutes. Owen was ready to come out. Once I started pushing he told me that he needed to cut me. I told him I didn't want cut. He then informed me that I WOULD tear and it could be to my clitoris and that I needed to be cut or tear for him to come out. *slice* So after he cut me I pushed like 2-3 times and they inform me Owens head was out! Whoo hoo! I actually stopped mid-push and his head was halfway out. Glad I couldn't see that part. Well after his head was out I just did one more push...and my son was born! They placed him on my chest and I did the new mom cry and the 'thank the lord the pain is over' cry. Tyler cut the cord and that was that. Well until I started hemorrhaging. I bled. A lot. It was scary for a minute but they got it under control. So at this point I believe the doctor was up to his elbow in my vagina but I barely noticed. I just wanted to see my baby. It was the proudest moment of my life. Nothing will ever compare to when I first saw my newborn son. All the moms out there know what I'm talking about. All the fears and anxiety I had just dissipated. I was ready. I could do this. I was Mom. My little guy depends on me to take care of him, to love him, to hold him when he cries and to never break the trust that he has in me protecting him.
Owen is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. I cannot remember my life before him. Nor do I want to. I feel so blessed that he chose me to be his mama and I will never take him for granted. This is love. Pure and unconditional love.
I'm really digging this "parent" thing. Tyler has been AMAZING. He has not left Owens side. He is so good with him. All the problems we've had during my pregnancy seem petty and unimportant. Now we just love our baby together and appriecte each other as parents. I have a new respect for him as a father. I'm so lucky.
Owen is in the NICU at Mercy. He has jaundice and is being weaned off medication I was prescribed during my pregnancy. He is thriving and hopefully will be home within the next couple days
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