[Tanya G]

Well, here's my confession. I really don't feel like signing out and back in as anonymous, so I'm just doing this under my own.

First off, let me say that I know love isn't about appearance. I know it's what is inside that counts. But still........

I get really mad at my DH for not trying to lose weight. When we got married he was 180, now he's pushing 230. He gained 30 pounds in the first year of our marriage. He'll go on these diets and lose like 15 lbs, and then gain it back plus a few more.

I love him, and his size doesn't change that. But I WANT to be physically attracted to him. And I'm not! He wears a size 38 waist, but he wears it under his gut, with his gut hanging over. So really, his waist is probably pushing 50 inches.

The older he gets, the more hair he has...all over his body. It grosses me out! I make him keep his underwear on when we have sex.

I know I'm not God's gift to man, but I fix myself up everyday. Hair, makeup, clothes, because I want my husband to be attracted to me.....and he is. I just wish I felt the same about him.


I spend WAY too much time on the computer. I'm trying to work on that. Mainly because I've noticed that when I'm on here, I get really snappy and short with the kids. I don't want to be like that.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I hadn't gotten married so young....two months after I turned 18. And hadn't had kids so young...two months after turning 19. I day dream about having a career, and living on my own, and having more of a carefree life.


I get upset at DH because we don't have a lot of money. He is the sole provider for our home, and I feel like he lets us down. Which he doesn't....we've never gone without food. We've never had our elec. turned off, or a car repoed, or claimed bankruptcy. Nothing like that. But just that it's soooo tight. And I can't get new clothes. It's seriously been years since I've been able to go on a shopping spree. I like staying home with the kids, but I feel like because of that, we've had to sacrifice a lot, when it comes to having extras. We basically pay the bills and that's it.


I yell! And I hate it when I do! I have a very short temper, and the tiniest things tick me off. The only time that I do it is at the house or in the car with my family...but I want to stop! Really bad! I don't want my kids to have memories of me yelling all of the time.

I guess that's all I have for now. I'm sure I'll think of more later.

ETA: I wanted to add that I don't think "bigger" people are gross or anything. There are some guys that I know that are bigger than my DH, but I think they look good. Maybe it's cause I haven't seen them naked...lol![/b]

I just gotta say good for you for being able to confess as you. It takes alot of courage. Not that you said anything to be ashamed of, but still. I can totally relate to the lack of income thing. All we have been able to do lately is pay the bills and scrape by. Even then we arent even scraping, we had to ask a family member for 200 bucks recently because living in a new province hydro wants a deposit since we have no credit history here. I also hate that I havent been able to buy clothes in yrs and I remember what it was like when we had double incomes and everything was so easy. I gotta admit its getting me down lately so I dont have any advice on that, but the one thing I can say is to keep an eye on the future. Once our kids are in school we will be able to go back to work. I dont know... thats how I see it.

[Smashley]

7 is nothing. I am 1 less than double that. Not proud, but not ashamed either. Live and learn.

[Kelly]

Here's some from me...

Ok, I barely ever wash my hands unless I've touched something really disgusting, like poop or vomit or something.

I desperately want a hobby, but the things I think I might like, I get bored with within a few hours or days.

I can't get a FT job because I can't afford daycare. My friend has offered to watch my son if I were to get a FT job, but I decline because her and her DH always fight and he calls her awful things in front of their 2 kids, I don't think it's a healthy atmosphere. So what's worse, less money or my child spending time there without me?

I talk to my mom more than once a day usually. I've heard from people that that is strange.

I feel really horrible because we haven't had any extra $ to take my dogs to the vet. I feel like a total hypocrite because before DS was born, I was somewhat of an animal activist (I'm talking about things like stopping back yard breeding, puppy mills, pet stores selling dogs and cats, BSL, etc). and now I just don't have that energy in me anymore, I still feel the same about it, but I don't ever do things about it anymore (I used to print out flyers from http://www.puppymillrescue.com/ and hang them out in public, I even have a bumper sticker on my car with their web address).

My poor rat Nova has a huge tumor, I check every day to see if she's passed yet. I almost want her to go, because I think she is not having a good quality of life anymore.

Annd, I have dog hair all over everything in my house. I vacuum and sweep and my dogs don't go on the couch because of the material, yet there's still hair EVERYWHERE.

[jamie1005]

7 is nothing. I am 1 less than double that. Not proud, but not ashamed either. Live and learn.[/b]

Same as me and I was never really ashamed of it until I met Wade ... he has a problem with my # which is so hypocritical b/c his is WAY higher than mine, why is there that double standard??? As far as being ashamed, I'm not so much ashamed of the # as the way I let the guys treat me. I'd say every one with the exception of maybe 2 didn't even care about me and I probably knew it somewhere in my mind but didn't care.

I don't just think I have a computer addiction, I pretty much know it. Its pretty bad, but I'm not just surfing the net, my income comes from spending time on the computer. The bad part is that I should be spending much more time designing and a lot less surfing, I go through periods of time when I do one more than the other, but generally get back on track. I love going to visit my cousin b/c she's just as addicted as me, so most of the time I'm there, the two of us are in her living room on our computers, occassionally talking to each other or even messaging each other, even though we are in teh same room! LOL

I can be a very mean and irratable person, too. I'm much better with Wade than I have been with past boyfriends, though, and I think its because I know he'd walk out on me when they wouldn't. Some of the stupidest things irritate me - I can't hear people chew anything, it grosses me out and I have to leave the room. It seriously makes me so angry, that I want to scream at the person that is chewing, even if its one of my friends or family members I usually restrain myself, though I do tend to snap at Wade when he does it.

[baccalynnwv]

I never really considered anyone a **** for how many people they slept with. I knew girls that slept with all of their boyfriends and had good relationships with them - but had several boyfriends. Which then ment several men whom they had slept with. I didn't think they were sluts. I guess I just don't like the word **** period! Even prostitutes don't deserve to be called sluts.

I don't like hearing about those women who just go out and sleep with anything that walks because they WANT to, but hey - it's their choice.

I have slept with more than 3 and I don't think I'm a ****. LOL.

anyway... I'll try to cough up some confessions....

Very soon after the beginning of my relationship with my ex - he totaly grossed me out. I guess thats understandable considering where things went - but yeah... It grosses me out to even think about him now.

I wonder if I will EVER be able to be turned on again. I think my ex just ruined it for the next man.

I got scared a few times when Ayden would stare at me in the middle of the night. The lights would all be off but I could see his little eyes peering up at me. LOL... I used to be a really big chicken and suffered from nightmares really bad. It wasn't that my baby was really scaring me, it was my imagination saying, "your not really holding your baby- your holding a demon! I got over that because I knew it wasn't healthy to feel like that or think those things.

On a normal day, I only comb my hair once. LOL --gosh that horrible! Usually I comb it when I get up and then it goes into a pony tail, or a bun. I either don't have time throughout the day - or I totally forget about it... Usually I forget about it.

I don't wear make-up. I know.. thats not a really big deal.

When I cook food for parties and stuff - sometimes I forget that I'm cooking for other people and I lick the spoon!!!! then I put it back in the batter without even realizing it - but feel no guilt and keep right on a cook'in.


AND! That stupid stomach ad at the top of the JM pages (If you all see the same ad I do)... that model is really peeving me off cause right next to her pretty little stomach it says - "model is not an actual patient" or something. What the heck??? Show me what you can do for a fat girl -come on!

And those sketcher ads we used to see with the lost and found theme. I have NEVER understood them and I got really tired of looking at that woman stretching on my screen to. Pretty sad when they have to add sex appeal to shoe advertisments.

[Bakerybrat]

Here's some from me...

Ok, I barely ever wash my hands unless I've touched something really disgusting, like poop or vomit or something.

I desperately want a hobby, but the things I think I might like, I get bored with within a few hours or days.

I can't get a FT job because I can't afford daycare. My friend has offered to watch my son if I were to get a FT job, but I decline because her and her DH always fight and he calls her awful things in front of their 2 kids, I don't think it's a healthy atmosphere. So what's worse, less money or my child spending time there without me?

I talk to my mom more than once a day usually. I've heard from people that that is strange.

I feel really horrible because we haven't had any extra $ to take my dogs to the vet. I feel like a total hypocrite because before DS was born, I was somewhat of an animal activist (I'm talking about things like stopping back yard breeding, puppy mills, pet stores selling dogs and cats, BSL, etc). and now I just don't have that energy in me anymore, I still feel the same about it, but I don't ever do things about it anymore (I used to print out flyers from http://www.puppymillrescue.com/ and hang them out in public, I even have a bumper sticker on my car with their web address).

My poor rat Nova has a huge tumor, I check every day to see if she's passed yet. I almost want her to go, because I think she is not having a good quality of life anymore.

Annd, I have dog hair all over everything in my house. I vacuum and sweep and my dogs don't go on the couch because of the material, yet there's still hair EVERYWHERE.[/b]

I know how you feel Kelly. I talk to my mom at least once a day. I sometimes wonder if my hygiene isn't up to par with everyone else...I wash my hands after "going" and when I'm cooking. As far as the vet thing, Roxy has been out of heartworm medicine for almost a year now and I worry everytime she get's sick or acts like she feels bad that she's going to die. I don't know what I would do w/o my little buddy but I can't afford to take her to the vet and hw pills are expensive. She's caught up on everything else because Justin's dad footed her kennel bill when we moved and she had to get caught up on parvo/distemper and kennel cough before hand. I haven't had the time or money to do cat rescue either. I feel guilty when I see feral's and I don't even stop to help loose dogs anymore.

[Smashley]

Same as me and I was never really ashamed of it until I met Wade ... he has a problem with my # which is so hypocritical b/c his is WAY higher than mine, why is there that double standard??? As far as being ashamed, I'm not so much ashamed of the # as the way I let the guys treat me. I'd say every one with the exception of maybe 2 didn't even care about me and I probably knew it somewhere in my mind but didn't care.

Here too. My ex (DD dad) has called me a **** on many occasions because of this. He says this is why he doesnt trust me. He wouldnt worry about me having guy friends if I didnt sleep with so many ppl. I find that sad reeally. I mean c'mon, sure I slept with those ppl.. but who and only who have I been sleeping with for 2yrs... him!!! Maybe it is because of his lack of a number but it is totally a double standard. A girl sleeps with 3 men shes a ****, a guy sleeps with 14 and hes a hero. I slept with most those guys between 16-17.5. I hated myself and didnt give a crap what happened to me. Now looking back I almost gag at how stupid I was and how I could have probably been killed. I havent been liek that for that amount of time. Before going out with my ex I was with somene solely for a year. We all (well maybe not all) Have that experiment phase. I did mine early.

ETA: Or delete. I fessed but decided to delete it. Sorry girls.

[Laney21]

Ok, I barely ever wash my hands unless I've touched something really disgusting, like poop or vomit or something.[/b]

I have slept with more than 3 and I don't think I'm a ****. LOL.

On a normal day, I only comb my hair once. LOL --gosh that horrible! Usually I comb it when I get up and then it goes into a pony tail, or a bun. I either don't have time throughout the day - or I totally forget about it... Usually I forget about it.

- sometimes I forget that I'm cooking for other people and I lick the spoon!!!! then I put it back in the batter without even realizing it - but feel no guilt and keep right on a cook'in.[/b]

Although I don't see anything wrong with not combing your hair more than once, it it's in a ponytail or a bun, why do you need to comb it again? Most days I live in a ponytail, and if I'm not going to work, I'm usually in sweatpants or jeans and a hoodie, with no makeup. Mark was my roomie long before we ever became a couple, so don't feel bad for him, he knew what he was getting into, lol. I make up for it if we are going out though, I think I clean up pretty nicely.

[Bakerybrat]

Now, the way you feel about your DH, I am afraid my DH feels that way about me.[/b]

I think that's one reason why we broke up. I know I don't look like I did when J and I met. I used to be the slim, confident, hip older chick and now I think he sees me as a fat, ugly, old burden...I hate it.

Jess: I just ignore people now. I had a guy at the Gap actually grab my arm and twist it around. He asked me about the Krishna sleeve and he said, "Does anyone else ever ask that?" I told him, Yeah, old people and $%#@ morons. My sweet, never say a cruel word, mom was there and I she just laughed. He looked at me like I was the biggest B ever.

[~Cupcake~]

I know I'm not God's gift to man, but I fix myself up everyday. Hair, makeup, clothes, because I want my husband to be attracted to me.....and he is. I just wish I felt the same about him.

Oh I hear ya on that one, I wish my DH would make more of an effort, just him shaving makes him way more attractive lol


I day dream about having a career, and living on my own, and having more of a carefree life.

Ditto I am married to my HS Sweetheart and I kinda feel like I didnt do anything in my life that I wanted to do, I have NEVER been on my own.


I get upset at DH because we don't have a lot of money. He is the sole provider for our home, and I feel like he lets us down. Which he doesn't....we've never gone without food. We've never had our elec. turned off, or a car repoed, or claimed bankruptcy. Nothing like that. But just that it's soooo tight. And I can't get new clothes. It's seriously been years since I've been able to go on a shopping spree. I like staying home with the kids, but I feel like because of that, we've had to sacrifice a lot, when it comes to having extras. We basically pay the bills and that's it.


This ^ is why I had to get a job and I think part of me is really whats the word...um well anyways I cant think of it but I kinda am mad that I should have to work... I know thats bad but whatever, I guess I just expected him to take care of us all since he said he would and I feel kinda let down, and he blames me saying I wanted this extravagent lifestyle (which its not lol) I dont know, I think its both of us just frusturated about working we both agree we want to win the lottery! lol but it still comes up in fights....


I yell! And I hate it when I do! I have a very short temper, and the tiniest things tick me off. The only time that I do it is at the house or in the car with my family...but I want to stop! Really bad! I don't want my kids to have memories of me yelling all of the time.

Ditto[/b]

I got scared a few times when Ayden would stare at me in the middle of the night. The lights would all be off but I could see his little eyes peering up at me. LOL... I used to be a really big chicken and suffered from nightmares really bad. It wasn't that my baby was really scaring me, it was my imagination saying, "your not really holding your baby- your holding a demon! I got over that because I knew it wasn't healthy to feel like that or think those things.[/b]

Yeah I always suffered from Nightmares (I still do sometimes) and I get very easily creeped out, probably partly due to the fact I think that there are really supernatural occurences. I am totally afraid of the dark...yes and I am someones MOM and I am AFRAID of the dark, I have nightlights every where, part of it is that I have a hearing loss and that I feel particularly vulnerable since in the dark not only cant I hear but cant see, and the other part I wont go into details lol YES I am a big chicken still

[crystalclear]

I day dream about having a career, and living on my own, and having more of a carefree life.[/b]

Heather, you took the words right out of my mouth.

[little_pockit]

i dont think being a **** should be defined by a number, but more by your behavior. i know a couple girls who have been with a couple men who were far` more trashy then some of my friends that have "been around". its all in the attitude...

[flygirls2]

Ok, I'll add some more--and then I have to study!! at me...

I brush my hair once daily, sometimes not at all, LOL-hey I wash it at least!!

I used to really fix myself up, but since I had dd I am so much heavier, rarely blowdry my hair or wear makeup anymore. I feel so bummish. And I feel bad for my dh, because he deserves someone he can be proud to be with...--expanding on mkgrl4u's post


I have an armpit piercing... I didn't pierce it, it has just always been. I don't get it myself. But I literally stuck an earring through once just to see. Yep, ew gross I know.

[Bakerybrat]

Ok, I'll add some more--and then I have to study!! at me...

I brush my hair once daily, sometimes not at all, LOL-hey I wash it at least!!

I used to really fix myself up, but since I had dd I am so much heavier, rarely blowdry my hair or wear makeup anymore. I feel so bummish. And I feel bad for my dh, because he deserves someone he can be proud to be with...--expanding on mkgrl4u's post


I have an armpit piercing... I didn't pierce it, it has just always been. I don't get it myself. But I literally stuck an earring through once just to see. Yep, ew gross I know. [/b]

What?? is it like a wierd skin tag or something? Cool!

[flygirls2]

^Haha, no, it isn't a skin tag. It's flush with my skin, it doesn't stick out or anything. It just has a little entrance and exit hole. LOL I don't know!! I used to think maybe a hair grew under the skin or something and permanently left me that way. I dunno, it's totally weird haahha!!

[Laney21]

I have an armpit piercing... I didn't pierce it, it has just always been. I don't get it myself. But I literally stuck an earring through once just to see. Yep, ew gross I know. [/b]

This is the strangest thing I have ever heard, lol. It's funny that none of these other shocking confessions even made me blink, but this one left me speechless, haha. That is very cool, you are one unique chickey!!

[baccalynnwv]

I have an armpit piercing... I didn't pierce it, it has just always been. I don't get it myself. But I literally stuck an earring through once just to see. Yep, ew gross I know. [/b]

I just don't understand! I can't figure it out. I might have to see a picture of that...... just kidding!! Sort of....

[little_pockit]

^karin has something similar just above her ear. hers is called an aural pit and has had it since birth. i have to clean it often with hydrogen peroxide. our doctor told her when she gets older, she can stick a stud in it and be totally cool (she was self conscious about it). she gave him a look. it was funny. our doctor rocks face.

[AmyT]

^Spencer was born with one on his left ear too. My nephew was also born with one (but I don't remember where). It was actually the first "distinguishable" thing I noticed when spencer was born.

[flygirls2]

I don't know if that's what I have or not. Wow, I didn't know other people had something like that though!

Becca--I would totally post a pic except you wouldn't be able to see anything really. It looks just like a belly button piercing--just two little holes---except much smaller.