[justjaQ]

so, fate turned my life sideways, the other day. see my signature. my best friend and i are expecting #4. this one is baby Dove. thought you might like to know. no word on facebook. i'm not telling anyone until i have to. my family will not be happy. already had to tell my mom cos i thought i was miscarrying-- lost a twin. but one healthy baby, coming in mid-january, 2 years younger than nick.
hope you're all doing well.

[SydneynDeansMum]

CONGRATS!!!! Hope you have a healthy and happy rest of the pregnancy!!!!

[justjaQ]

thank you jeneane. i still don't feel totally safe. but i am 7 weeks today, more than halfway to the second trimester, and summers go quickly. my birthday is in two days, and tomorrow is my grandma Lefler's memorial. my cousins had a baby girl, Emma, this month, and i am hoping they're comfortable bringing her. if not, they live right down the road from the memorial, so maybe i can stop in. i live SOO far in the middle of nowhere now, it's ridiculous. then i plan to stop in at brandon's, because he also moved up to take care of his ailing grandma. it's also ridiculous how much he and i have in common.
glad to see you here.

[jenninator]

I hope you have a healthy pregnancy!

Happy Birthday tomorrow!!!

[Mommy3X]

Congrats!!!

[kallie74]

I hope you have a healthy pregnancy and your new little life is born in perfect health. Good luck to you!

[JustBeginning]

Holy sheeeeit girl! U dont call u dont write or text lol. Well congrats I am praying u have a smooth and very healthy pregnancy. You need to see about pregnancy medicaid... Its easy to get and so helpful. And WIC for yourself. and what facebook??? Add me!!! Im always on facebook lol. Wow I could not imagine having more than my exhausting 2 kids lol. It takes patience I'm sure u must have a lot of it! Are u going to put Nick in headstart next year??? Is it free up there???

[justjaQ]

thanks girls!
sarah, my phone got broke when i was in the car accident in march, so once again, i have lost all my contacts.
i've been on medicaid since i was pregnant with nick, and they said i could stay on it as long as i have kids under 18. that's good for me for the time being, because i do NOT want a man in my life any time soon. i'll go in and see a doctor in a few months; that's how i always do it.
i didn't realise we weren't connected on facebook though, so look me up under emotionally_disturbed@yahoo.com or JacqieArntfield.
I don't know about headstart. We had promised Missy she could be in pre-school last year if she got potty-trained in time. She did, and it cost about $130 or something like that, per month, for her to go from 12:15-2:45pm, 3 days a week. So Nick won't be going to anything anytime soon. Just, perhaps, pre-school, when he is 4. I can't really imagine having another one at this point. At first I just planned to give it up for adoption, but then, the dad wants to be in the kids' life, and I know my parents would just try to take it, and frankly, I am a better parent than my mom is. I am the way I am, mainly because of how she raised me. She knows it too, but still gets defensive as F if it's brought up. Sorry, but it's true, mom, and I don't want her fingerprints on my childrens' upbringing anymore than necessary. The older two just went down to Alabama with my mom, Bill, and my brother and his friend, yesterday. I'm so bummed because I couldn't get out yesterday morning to say goodbye. So I haven't seen them since the 19th. I was hoping they'd be staying with me more, now that school is out, but my mom let's them do whatever they want, so they don't want to come be with me where there are rules, and they can't watch tv while they eat, etc. I really miss them. But I think I've got great spacing with all the kids. Tim and Misy are between 2.5-3 years apart, and Melissa is about 4 yrs. older than Nick. Nick and this one, Baby Dove (guess I have a thing for calling my embryo/fetuses birds, but I keep seeing the word Dove EVERYwhere, so it seemed right. street names, the candy, the shower stuff... the actual birds, cooing around our yard.... it's everywhere, and in me now too, lol!), will be 2 years apart. Hoping they don't share a birthday, lol. I've never been THAT pregnant. I've never gone past 38 weeks. My goal for this one is to have a slightly bigger baby-- 5 lb. 11 oz. was surreal for me, after having 8-4 and 7-11 babies. I'm 8 weeks, 1 day today, and I've already began taking pictures, because I look like the beginnings of COW. :-D I've never started taking weekly photos so early. But I'm having trouble uploading them. :-/
Today I picked snow peas, strawberries, and mulberries, from our garden and tree. I am not a vegetable person, but I've been craving the raw snowpeas and eating them like candy. Good for me!
I wish more people still came around here, but at least most of us are on facebook to say hello. I've talked to Tara and Julie and a few others that don't seem to come around here (as far as I know) fairly recently.
Anyhow, I'll stop in as much as I can. I had pretty much stopped coming around, except maybe a few times a year, but you know, it's exciting to get to know a new group of women. Of course, I already got in a bit of an argument in my new due date club, typing before I really thought out what I was saying. Some people just can't accept an apology, and want to be a ****** instead. boy. If I weren't so pleased to NOT be at the very end of a DDC for once, I'd just go introduce myself in January.
Anyhow, It's nice being on the lake. Nick and I go on the trampoline, and my dad and brother's live next door, plus a family friend we've got in town for a few months, helping out with all the work my dad can't do himself. So, it's not just me and my grandparents. And while I love them and consider my grandma a best friend, it's hard to not be around people in your own age range, for extended periods of time. After my grandma's memorial on the 19th, I went and spent the niht with baby Dove's dad. Did I tell this story? Well, I spent my birthday with him and it was a great one. He's taking care of his grandma, as well. I was wearing m regular tank top and jean shorts, and we were all sitting in the living room watching some local movie, and the two of them started getting on one anothers' nerves. I told Brandon, in German, to knock it off and give her some respect, something like that. Apparently, she thought I was being rude, and yelled at me to put some clothes on. I wasn't about to go into my hyperthyroid, I-can't-wear-much-or-I'll-pass-out thing, and I just looked at this 90-yr-old woman in disbelief, because um, I HAD clothes on, AND was defending her, whether she understood or not. Brandon told her I was his girlfriend (I'm not, but anyway), and not to talk to me like that, and she yelled at me to get out of her house. LMAO~ i couldn't believe it, but it was actually kind of funny. He told her he was NOT kicking me out on my birthday, and we went and bought a tent, and stayed out of the house for the remainder of my stay. I'm hesitant to go back up there. I'm pretty sure she knows I'm the pregnant one. Gee, seniors can get crabby. And so can pregnant women; I broke one of their lawn chairs, when I kind of, well, attacked Brandon, for criticising my German. We get along well though, and it feels really good to know that I finally have someone who wants to be a father to their kid, and isn't going to run away and leave me to do it all myself. Tim is Tim, y'all know his story, but Mike disappeared, didn't call or visit Nick after surgery, or for his birthday, and hasn't seen his son since Xmas. He has since changed his number and moved. He has some of my belongings and 2 of my parents' dressers. I could care less, at this point, if I get my stuff back-- I took most with me-- but my mom really wants the dressers, and so one of these days I'm gonna have to see if I can contact him via email. I don't want him in Nick's life, but I do want to give his family the chance to know him-- to know they have a grandson/nephew/half-brother. it's only right, but after my accident, I lost their phone numbers too, and Mike's got a very common last name, so there's really no way to look him up. Everyone in his family has normal first names too... and his ex got remarried, and I haven't a clue what the guy's last name is. I should've paid more attention to where people lived, when he dropped his daughter off. She's clearly the only one he cares about. If I were th only man in my family to have a son, I'd make **** sure the child carried on my last name... that' what Brandon wants. Well, now Nick has my last name, and Missy wants my last name. Timmy doesn't want to change his. Tim's family never believed Melissa was his though, because she doesn't look like them (oh my...... morons. there are no words. all my kids look like me or my family.), so maybe Misy will get that wish.
She spent a week with my cousin Matt's family, and my aunt Cindy. Matt and Miranda have three little girls, 3 weeks, 2 years, and 4.5 yrs.-- Mia is 6 months younger than Missy, and they both have the blue eyes (funny, since Mia is 1/2 Mexican!) and curls. Missy towers over her like a giant, and my mom said that having had her in pre-shcool made her WAY more advanced than Mia with pretty much everything, so that made me feel good, and she's been selected for the all-day kindergarten. She and Timmy both did very well on their report cards.
Anyway, there's enough of a rambling update.
love to all of you! how are your kids??

ugh, excuse those apostrophes in the wrong places... "brother's" and "let's".... driving me nuts. i'm still a grammar/spelling fanatic.

[justjaQ]

we really can't say bi atch or da mn? grrr.

you can say them on network tv!!!

[JustBeginning]

Lol yeah I just read about the phone. Is it a new #?? I hope its a girl! Then u will have 2 of each. U could give it to me if u want! Send the stork! I know what u mean about people taking things the wrong way and then not accepting an apology. We cant really help our personalities its our lot in life and we are the way we are. Sure we can adapt and change but sometimes its like a war with ourselves. Thats great that u still have medicaid. are u still on any meds? Are u taking vitamins? Ugh yeah I am happy right bow with no man in my life! no time for one anyways! Lol. Um as for your mom.. U have the say so in what your kids do and dont do. If they dont want to come home tough $h!t, they are young and need to have a routine and respect their mom.

[FiFi'sMom]

COngrats Jaq

[caitbeans]

Congrats!

[justjaQ]

thanks all. hey kate! congrats on your new baby, i had no idea! it was so nice meeting you out in PA.

sarah, i take vitamins, and am weaning off my my class C meds, off my class D, and trying to get replacements for things that i absolutely need (mood stabilizer, anti-anxiety) but so far buspar hasn't helped, and i see my new psychiatrist wednesday to see about a mood stabilizer; i need one that doesn't JUST keep you from being manic because we don't believe i'm bi-polar, but they figure no anti-depressant has ever helped me, so time for a new route-- there are two that keep ups AND downs in check-- lithium is one, but it's class D, no go. the other starts with an L and is class C but it's worth the risk if it works.