[andrewNdereksmom]

Well its been a long time since I have been on here. SORRY! Nothing really has been going on. except family drama.
Short version kinda, Big half brother got out of jail is staying with my dad, well he is a drama king lol, when he got out we started arguing from the start because of him NOT CHANGING LIKE IS SAID HE WOULD. He is 29 years old so dam its time to change. Well then he started dating this one girl named Mary, neither one of them knows eachother, but whatever, they already plan to get married even tho Adam my brother isn't divorced yet from his last wife. Neither one of them has even tried to get the divorce started. He has treated Mary like crap when he doesn't get his way, she is disabled so she does get some money at the beginning of the month, he takes it all, well she gives it to him like a *******. I have went off on him about this also, she needs stuff for her self, she is the only one paying my dad for rent n some of the bills. he hasn't. I brought that up to him n he says well Mary is paying it. I said no she isn't thats just for her not u 2. My dad is soft he doesn't stick up for NO ONE NOT EVEN ME IF ADAM IS TALKING CRAP BEHIND MY BACK. So why should i keep sticking up for everyone else when they dont do it for me? Adam is a immature as$ u know what. smokes pot gets drunk, n doesn't have a job no more. he wants money now n fast. so he does odd jobs. its always poor me poor me. wow ur mom burnt u with hot water when u was younger sorry about that. but at least ur family took u n instead of u being n foster care etc.. like i have. i have told him yes its going to be hard work but u can do better u can get a job get a house a car etc.. but its all on u. no one else. he actually had to nerves to tell me when i brought up him signing over his rights from his son that Mary is the one that told him too. I told him for one its not her kid IT IS UR KID. ur the only one that has the say n it. then again he has never been there for him at all, never buys him crap. no wonder his soon to be ex wife wants him to sign the papers over. he is a worthless piss of crap. sorry to say. i hate men like that. i hate calling him my brother because people that know or use to know him thinks i am the same way WHEN I AM NOT. i am more mature then him n my dad i take care of my kids i am buying a house i got my car i pay bills. i dont smoke pot. or drink.
SORRY IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE SHORT OH WELL.

so i try to avoid him doesn't help with him living with my dad thats for sure. he never calls just to chat he always wants something ALWAYS, yesterday he actually said we need to hang out soon. i told him flat out u said that before n what do u do u go out get n2 trouble . me n him have nothing n common at all. he is known to steal one reason why i haven't had him over my house so far. then he wonders why everything he opens his mouth why people think he is lying.
ENOUGH ABOUT THAT LOL.

So now my doctor got me on some ativan for my nerves because of everything going on. i dont take it unless i need it tho. even tho i am suppose to take it everyday. so i dont know. i didn't have my period for over five months since he got out because of all this crap, then finally it came.

Kids are doing good. loud, bad, sweet etc.. lol start school after labor day i believe. still gotta work on potty training its very hard to do with disabled kids thats for sure. well they are really disabled they have speed delay n they are both behind a few months. andrew has to get a test done to see if he is autistic n so does derek.

Drew n I are still going strong. We like other couples have our bad days. somedays i just wonna be alone some days i love being around everyone. but dam with the yelling n screaming no wonder i get headaches at least five times a week. u gotta love them tho.

thats about it i guess. me, between adam, having kids that don't wanna listen all the time. no one to really talk to n plus people that says they r ur friend but then they are never there for u, n health problems i am just ok
I NEED A VACATION WE NEVER GET A BREAK FROM THESE KIDS AT ALL. EVEN THEIR DOCTOR TOLD ME WE NEED TO GET A WEEKEND OFF OR AT LEAST A DAY/NIGHT OFF. i can't believe the doctor said that. then again derek was screaming his head off right n front of her thats why she order the testing to be done.

sorry for venting.

[jenninator]

sorry about the family drama - that is no fun!

I agree with your doctor about needing breaks sometimes, but I know it's hard to do without reliable family or close friends. Maybe after they are tested they can qualify for some therapy programs that will get them some services and you at least a couple hours of break??

Also - our church has a ministry for families with special needs. Part of it, is just to provide safe care so parents can get a break. It's kind of a unique program - not all churches have it - but maybe a larger church in your area may have a similar program?

Best of luck!

[andrewNdereksmom]

ill have to check n 2 that thanks for letting me know. on top of everything else going on i found out i am borderline dietbatic n plus my thyroid is to high which would explain why i am alway tired n why i can't keep the weight off n i been losing some hair which doesn hurt since my hair is so thick lol. but yea thanks for letting me know jen.

[JustBeginning]

Well I dont want to be rude, but it sounds like you need to IGNORE your brother, dont chastise him, dont enable him to make excuses in his mind to be even more of a jerkoff. Hard, believe me, I know. But it sounds to me that he will NEVER grow up.... Or at least not anytime soon. I doubt theyll gwet married while still being married to someone else. Thats illegal.
I am tired all the time, too. Had my thyroid levels checked twice a year...no problem with it. Lol. But having two kids by myself that are mean to each other and one has ADHD going to school full time, having stress at home... Yeah. That will make u tired. I'm on Celexa, Buspar and Ritalin. The aRitalin actually helps my energy levels, though.
Anyways try setting a bedtime routine, if u dont already have one, and make bedtime a little earlier for YOU AND the kids. That may help out a lot. I know Tyler is way defiant if he is tired and doesnt get enough sleep.
And dont hesitate to ask for help, and maybe see if there's a counselor that you can see.
Potty traing is touch and go with us! Im frustrated with it too! Lol I think its me not being consistant enough.