[erika182]

Sooooo very tired! The weekends go by too fast. Went to my cousin's bridal shower on Saturday. Spent most of the day telling people that the baby wouldn't cooperate for the ultra sound.

After I went with the husband to the inlaws house for dinner. I really just wanted to stay home. I was so tired after the long drive to the shower, I really didn't want to get back in the car again, but I did.

His mom got us some more baby clothes! Boy, can she shop! She also got me a couple of shirts too. That was so nice of her. I'm trying to fit everything in my closet, because I don't want to really pack up any of my prepregnancy clothes. It is getting to be a tight fit though. I also have a little crate by the side of my bed that has the things that can be folded. For a couple months a crate on the floor won't be the end of the world.

We've been boxing up the office a lot this weekend. Either for the baby, or a move, it needs to be done. It is really coming along.

I very nervous! Tomorrow is te doctors appointment when they give you back the blood results and the ultra sound results. I will be praying tonight for only good news. Please, please, please make the baby be healthy .

My stomach is starting to hurt again. A dull throbbing feeling, maybe another growth spurt.

I have been wanting sex a lot lately.....and the husband has been too busy to take me up on it. But of course now, that I'm starting to feel pain again, he is asking for it. So I'm the bad guy not giving up the sex!
We can't seem to get or sex drives in line. Also, I think he is a little scared of hurting me or the baby. I told him he nedds to tae me up on it when I offer. Because very soon I will be a lot bigger and ackward and won't want to. Not to mention that right now I can still bend fairly well to shave, so he should enjoy that while it lasts.

Well, really should go to bed, long day tomorrow. I'm hoping we can talk the doctor into giving another ultra sound tomorrow, since she will probaby need to bring the machine into the room anyway for my boob. (I wnat her to check n my fibroids, because they are feeling a lot bigger.)

[erika182]

Well, where to begin.....
We had our doctors appointment on Monday. I was surprisingly calm. The doctor told us that the AFP came back negative and I was so happy. BUT, then she said from the ultra sound they found a couple spots on the babie's heart! I was crushed! Everything after that was sort of a blur. She said that it usually is nothing, 9 out of 10 times it is just nothing (like a calcium deposit). I still felt worried. She said that if it is something it could have something to do with a genetic disorder, so someone will be calling us to set up a meeting with a specialist. Also, a level 2 ultra sound will be scheduled and hopefully that will cme back clear. If not, then I can have an amnio if I want.
She said my fibroids have gotten quite large and that is why I feel these hard bulges near my belly button because that it where a big one is and the baby pushes it around.
I told her about my pains and she said that with the fibroids I will probably have more pain during pregnancy then others experience. Also, the fibroids may cause me to g into labor earlier than my due date. Also, my placenta is only 1.5cm away from the cervix and it is supposed to 2cm. She said they will keep and eye on it and there is still time for it to move, but if it doesn't I will definatley go into labor early and have to schedule a c-section.
Needless to say it was quite a visit. I was physically and emotional drained after it.

On a good note, we have boxed up ALL the DVDs and I haven't masured yet, but I really think we can cram the computer in the living room and make it fit; while keeping the diningroom table.

Yesterday I was like a crazy woman and got so much done. After working a full day, PE and all, I left work at 3 and let the errands begin:
1. dry cleaner
2. tailor
3. two loads of laundry
4. bakes 100 ookies
5. ironed
6. cut out husbands new classroom money
I got a lot done.

Today, on the other hand, I feel aches and pains so I am taking it easy. I was gong to go to the gym, but it is getting late, and I just don't wat to push it. Unlike today, tomorrow I have no meetings after school so hopefully I can take off right away and hit the gym. What can I say, I'm just not motivated. B) I want to relax. Plus, when I got to the gym I like to work up a sweet, I find it boring go at the slow pace that the doctor suggested. If I'm going to do that I might as well be at home and watch what I want on the TV.

Well off to eat dinner.

[erika182]

I got a call today from the person at my district in charge of leaves and payroll and now she is telling me a whole different story about how maternity leave works. The fisrt time we mt she said that you get 6 to 8 weeks depending on the labor and then I can basically cash in all my accumulated days to be off. That worked for me because I have over 50 and that would take me out up until December and there would only be a few weeks Iwould be going without pay.

Now she says that you just get the 6 to 8 weeks and after that you get 8 more personal days and that I can't use my other days I have been saving! I was so upset and pissed! This pretty much closes the whole idea of buying a place. We definately will be staying in our apartment now (which isn't all that bad) because we won't be able to afford a morgage payment wth me out two months with no pay. It is not he end of the world, but I was really let down. The husband was great and calmed me down.

Well, by the time I got home I didn't get to the gym again, or get much done around the house. The dishes are still in the sink from Tuesday night when I baked al those cookies. I always hated our 11 lunch time, because I'm hungry again so early and then need to eat a snack before going to the gym.....but now I am starving and don't want just a snack, I want to eat dinner. Then, the gym doesn't sound good after I eat.

Yes, tomorrow is Friday!!!! I can sleep in.

[erika182]

Hmmmm something is happening again!?!? Last night I went to see RENT with my mom and during the musical my belly felt really tight and I noticed that it was feeling hard and solid above the bellybutton, which it really hadn't before. Also, it has been extrememly ichy. Who knows, maybe another growth spurt.

I still don't think I have felt any really big, you know it for sure, baby movement. Everything that I have felt so far I have been unsure of. For example, last night I got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, and I got out of bed really fast. As I was walking my stomach felt like a snowglobe was just turned upside down. There was a lot of sloshing, and I didn't have gas at the time. Everything that I read though says I should be feeling "kick" like sensations though. I get pains every once in awhile and wonder if that is the baby kicking and it hurts because the baby is pushing on the fibroids? Who knows.

Well, Kaiser called and our level 2 ultra sound and review from paranatalogy is on May9th. I'm crossing my fingers that what every they saw they don't see this time. Husband is against the amnio, he says it is too much of a risk. I'm worried either way, but my cousin who is younger than me had one on her dr. recommendation, and her husband is a dr. too. But husband says that they will just be using it to confirm or deny information that won't change where we stand, and that is true...this is our baby no matter what and we are having it. I love the baby so much and it isn't even born yet. Plus, with the fibroids the husband is worried that they will have an even more difficult time seeing where to put the needle and that greatens the risk.

I hope everything goes well on the 9th, some good news would be great. Who knows, maybe we will even be able to find out girl or boy this time.

I hear my heart neat on my ears really loud lately. It is strange!
Oh, and I ate my first sort of weird combination tonight. It sounded good to me, but husband said, WEIRD!
(BBQ chips and ranch dressing....it was yum!)

Well, better get going. Still have to take a shower and get ready for bed, and that takes awhile now. Shaving has become quite difficult! I can't see my woohoo!

[erika182]

Okay, started off a great stress free day, and then turned to poop!
I had my sub planning day today, and I was so prepared with all the things I was going to copy for next year. I felt awesome, things are going to be so easy for the sub and myself when I come back. I had that great feeling of getting things accomplished.
Also, this sub seemed nice and fairly experienced and good.
But, when ever I came into the room, which I try not to, the kids were not as quiet as they should be, and she wasn't following my directions. Even after I warned her in the morning that this is a good group of kids, but give them an inch....and your screwed, they take you for a wild ride. (Like throwing erasers with the last sub.) So I told her just stick to the plan. Why don't people listen.
She also showed interest in the morning before the kids came in and we were talking about being my long term sub. I told her I will keep her in mind and I'd see how the day goes.
She left my room a mess! Moved things around, which I never understand. You are a visitor, leave things how you found them. She even moved my big front table! Now that really wasn't necessary.
My kids told me that she fell off my directors chair, I couldn't help but laugh a little.
Then we had a staff meeting and I found out that we are getting a new version of our math program for next year, crap!!!
I had already copied all the tests for next year and the assignments. This just happened recently with spelling too. I got all the spelling for next year done and the principal told me we are getting a new program next year. I just can't win!
So, I won't be starting the year and there will be a new spelling program, a new social studies program, and now a new version of our math program. I'm going to have to learn all these myself this summer before I can even think of getting them prepared for a sub.
So, I ended up after the meeting we had having to clean my room from the sub, set up for tomorrow, because I won't have time in the morning because I have playground duty, and I left work at 5.
Much longer day then I planned.

Still can't really feel the baby, and that worries me, and I can't stop thinking about our appointment next Wednesday.

I think it is time to do some serious praying.

[MLBelle]

That sloshing feeling you described....that sounds like the baby. At first I was worried because I wasn't feeling serious kicks or whatnot...then when I realized what it REALLY felt like, I felt her a lot more. Sometimes I feel kicks, (those are fun!) other times it feels weird, like your stomach is gurgling feeling but in your belly, other times, it's like this pressure (that's what I feel when she settles down to lay between my hipbones). It's so hard to describe and it feels different for everyone. That sloshing feeling is how I feel alot though.
Also, when you are preoccupied thinking about other things, it's so easy to not notice all the feelings everywhere. I didn't realize that I had been feeling my little she-thing move for almost 2 weeks. I jsut thought I was having twitchy muscles (like when your eye twitches, except in my abdomen) my SO knew what they were before I did. I felt really smart that time.
I hope this helps a little bit.

[erika182]

That sloshing feeling you described....that sounds like the baby. At first I was worried because I wasn't feeling serious kicks or whatnot...then when I realized what it REALLY felt like, I felt her a lot more. Sometimes I feel kicks, (those are fun!) other times it feels weird, like your stomach is gurgling feeling but in your belly, other times, it's like this pressure (that's what I feel when she settles down to lay between my hipbones). It's so hard to describe and it feels different for everyone. That sloshing feeling is how I feel alot though.
Also, when you are preoccupied thinking about other things, it's so easy to not notice all the feelings everywhere. I didn't realize that I had been feeling my little she-thing move for almost 2 weeks. I jsut thought I was having twitchy muscles (like when your eye twitches, except in my abdomen) my SO knew what they were before I did. I felt really smart that time.
I hope this helps a little bit.[/b]

Thanks, I thinkyou're right. I am just so busy that there are very few times when I can just sit and really be in tune with my body.

[erika182]

Ugh, where to begin.
I am just too busy! I tried to treat myself on Fiday to a decaf coffee and a muffin at Starbucks, but when I got to work I was pulled into a meeting and barely got to touch it. By first recess I reheated my coffee and made myself sit down and finish it.
I was in a great mood on Friday, excited about our fun filled weekend, but I knew I had a lot to cram in with the students on Friday. And, a couple of my girls made it worse because they keep name calling and being little gossip brats on the playground. They bothered a 6th grade girl and she wrote a very thorough note to her teacher about their behavior.
Sooooo, since nothing I did changed their behavior we thought that maybe if the older 6th grade teacher talked to them it would scare them. So I changed my whole day; which was crazy enough, so there would be an extra half hour at the end of the day that I would watch my class and her class ourside so she could talk with the girls. I let the class know the situation, and without saying any names I let them know that a couple of the girls in our class have ruined our day and are going to have to make us rush. Everyone knew who it was and they were angry, becaue usually on Friday we play games at the end of the day.
Meanwhile amongst all this, I find out from the principal that she is not going to help photocopy the materials for Academic Olympics, which startes on Monday. So during lunch I'm rushing around doing work for that. While the photocopy machine was working I quickly tried to go heat up my lunch. I had a few bites, but I knew I would have to finish it later.
Of course, the main bully girl I wanted the 6th grade teacher to talk to got checked out early to go home. So we rushed and killed our day for nothing! (I couldn't talk with her mom when she picked her up because she is a total pysco. and the principal has told me to avoid talking with her.)
After school we have 5th and 6th grade softball. I have a lot of kids this year playing. Usually I hva e like 5 to 8 and they stay from 2 to 2:30 in my room and softball startes at 2:30 and goes to 3:30. This year I have 15 staying! So after a loong day I am still not kid free yet, plus my friend had a meeting and askd if I could watch his softball students, so I did, add another 8 to the bunch. Everything went okay, I survived.
I finally got a chance to meet with the principal about the girls in my room. They will be missing our fieldtrip and maybe even suspended because on a seperate note she got a complaint about them from 4th graders saying they were walking around at recess with a baggy filled with grass asking kids if they wanted to buy some pot! Crazy! I would never have done anything like this at their age. What is the world coming to?
Well, after all that I made myself sit and watch my kids play softball. It was nice to finally sit down. Then, I worked in my room for an hour before I headed home for the weekend.
I changed quickly when I got home and were off to the Angel game.
It was fun, but a very long day......to be continued......

[erika182]

....cont.....
So, got to bed fairly late after the Angel game and then got up early Saturday morning because we had tickets to a baby expo.
I was tired, but very excited! The invitation said that we'd learn safety tips, learn about strollers, car seats, cribs, and baby things for the busy parents, and a free gift at the end of $100 value. It sounded like fun! We both grabbed a granola bar and were out the door. We figured that an expo with preggers there they'd have juice and breakfast snacks for us.
It was at the Double Tree Hotel, very nice!
But, when they opened the doors for the room we were going to be in my face dropped. A small room, two rows of chairs, one man, and a couple baby items. He gave us hand outs and then began the hour plus of boredom!
Basically he works for the company of the few items he brought. And talked smack about all other products on the market and how unsafe they are. He had some good points, but the ones he was selling were ugly, expensive, and look like stuff you would see in a hospital for children with back, bone, and muscle problem. I kept fidgeting in my seat. I finally stood in the back and listen, some other ladies did the same.
In the end the free gift was a stake of papers with coupons for $100 worth fo discounts. SO very disappointed.
By the time we left, again starving! Lately we keep not getting a chance to eat until I feel like I'm going to die. I hate that, and it can't be good for the baby. We went to eat and then rested at home for awhile.
Later we walked to Banrens and Noble to pick up a book I ordered.
Then, had just enough time to change clothes and my mom picked me and the hubby up to go see WICKED in LA. We bought the tickets way back in Oct. I was very excited about that too.
I had told my mom that I thought we should leave earlier, because I know traffic sucks, but no one ever listens to me. Yep, traffic sucked!
It took over an hour to get to LA, so we din't think we could make dinner. Again, pregnant woman needs to eat! The wait was too long at the planned restaurant, so my mom said to just grab a sandwhich.
Well, o make an already long story short, we ate at a restaurant, but my mom rushed us the whole time. She even tried to rush me in the bathroom. I told her that I'm a pretty unemmotional pregnant woman, ut you are about to push me to the edge! Let me pee in peace!
The show was great, and husband bought me a shirt and golf balls for my firend at work that missed the show because his wife had surgery.
By the end of the show my tailbone hurt, I was hungry (because rushed at dinner didn't eat much), tired, stomach muscles hurt, and I needed to go to the bathroom, but again rushed out the theater to go home by mom.
On the way home I was really trying to sleep and not think about all the things going on with my body, but the husband kept tapping on the glass of his watch and my mom was driving like a crazy person that I feared for my life. I turned around and asked husband to stop the tapping.....but he tapped more! I lost it and began to cry and said please stop the tapping! My mom got mad at him and snapped to stopping the tapping and that he was upsetting me. Then I snapped at her and said don't snap at him it isn't the tapping it is just everything, I WANT TO GO HOME! The rest of the drive the car was silent except for my sniffling.
Didn't get to bed until 1am.

Today I slep in until 9 or so and now I'm taking a break from running errands to sit and type this, but it is back to work. Two more loads of laundry to go, lessons to plan, and science tests to grade.
I pray for good news on Wednesday and a peaceful week.

[erika182]

I think I'm losing my belly button?! I didn't think I would be one of those preggers that did. I have a really big, deep belly button; so I didn't think it would happen....it is happening.

I've really grown over the last day or so. Belly hs really rounded out and pushed up, which is pushing out the belly button. I find this very entertaining. I can look at and play with my belly button for a very long time.

So very HOT! Summer is going to be a killer! I already am having trouble wearing my wedding rings. I will be so very sad the day I can no longer wear them.

I'm trying to be postive and not think to much about tomorrow's appointment.

There has just been drama here from all sides. I keep getting emails from my aunt, who is mad at my mom. My MIL is mad at my husband and me. And husband doesn't seem to know how to talk to her or speak us for us. I flat out told him that if he doesn't this is going to cause problems later on in our lives. I mean where does it all end? She doesn't like the name we chose fo the baby, she doesn't like howwe are raising the baby, she doesn't approve of how we spend our time, holiday; I mean where does it end?! It also doesn't help that my husband isn't doing a good job communicating. I don't know what is going on half the time with his side o the family until it hits the fan. He always says, there all fine, or the same, or mom is just being mom and is on the war path. But I never know what it is about unti it is too late.

Anyway, tomorrow is the big day! I cross my fingers and pray agin that the doctors doesn't see anything anymore on the baby's heart, and that the baby is moving around a lot showing how healthy he/she is. And maybe, we can see if it is a he or she.

Night

[erika182]

Wow, what a day. We were at Kaiser at 7:30am (me with a bladder filled with water). They took me in at 8 and told husband they would come and get him in 15 minutes. We knew not to hold our breath. Sure enough, 45 minutes later, two trips to the bathroom, and three new belly lubes, the tech got what he needed and got husband from waiting room.

The spot was still on the baby's heart, he said the doctor would come in to talk with us and evaluate the pics and take some more. We told him that we didn't know the sex, and he showed us a shot on the screen of no boy parts and three little bumps that he said are the girl parts (most likely, they will never really commit completely.)

The doctor came in and talked to us about the spots and said she wanted to get some more pictures to make sure everything else looks good. More lube and another 30 minutes of being tummy probbed. This time it hurt, and she talked to us about the movement of my fibroids and that they have grown. Before baby the biggest was a little under 5 cm big, now it is a little over 7cm.

But, good news, my placenta moved away from my cervix. Before it was only 1.5 and she said it needed to be at least 2 for vaginal delivery, now it is 3 .

However, I do have a fibroid right at the bottom by the opening, so they will nedd to keep a watch on it, because it still might mean a c-section in my future. But it is still great that the placenta moved up. The only shot they couldn't get was a clear view of the blood from out the right side of the heart. They already had the left, but the baby wasn't helping with the view of the right. SO they sent us to our next visit, but told us to come back after.

Now it was about 9:30 and we were sent up stairs to meet with a genetics councelor to talk about what the light spots mean to the baby. She was nicer than I thought. I thought she was going to be all doom and gloom. She looked over all our other tests and blood work, made a family tree of medical history, and then told us all of it lessens our chances of Down Sydrome.

The light sports mean that there is a 1 in 600 chance of Downs. We told her we didn't want to do the amnio, and she thoroghly understood, and made me feel comfotable with our decision. With all the other tests being negative there were really no other reasons to do it.

Plus, this is our baby no matter what! There is a 1 in 250 chance of miscarriage with amnio, so why risk it. Also, infections, bleeding, leakage and a whole lot of other things that could complicate the pregnancy. It is just not worth it, to find out something that isn't going to change anything.

So, went back down stair, had to wait another 30 minutes, and then got lubed up again to get pictures of the righ side of the heart. Luckily the baby cooperated, and we called it a day and left.

The doctors is right by my mom's office, so we drove by to see if she was in. Funny tying, when we drove up she was coming out of the building. We thought we caught her going to lunch but she said she was heading over to Kaiser to drive through the lot to look for my car because we hadn't called her yet and she was worried. How cute is that! I love her so much! I hope I can be a great mom like her.

Since the appoinment I've been running errands like usually. Now, I'm going to go relax a little while I wait for laundry to get done.

I didn't even think about my class today or what I will find when I go back tomorrow. Family is most important, and it is really clicking with me today that my husband and I are making our own. Everything else takes second place.

[erika182]

Another busy crazy weekend has passed!
On Friday after work husband ans Iwent over to Bab's R Us and egistered...well, half registered. I got tired and we went back the next day and finished. There are just so many decisions to make. On he second day thehusband went crazy with the scanner on the pink clothes. I told him that people are going to buy whatever clothes they really think are cute and like. But he was having fun so I let him scan away.
I also met my mom at the mall on Saturday and gotmy dress fr my cousins wedding. Not exactly what I wanted, but it will do. I was actually willing to spenjd a lot of money are get a real pretty summery dress. But, the mall Iwent to didn't have a store with those kinds of dresses. And my mom reminded me that the wedding we are going to is going to be quite simple so why spend tons of money on a dress. Good point. More money to spend on the baby.
My back has really been hurting lately. I also haven't been able to sleep well. I get these sooting pains on my sides. Through the night I'm like a pancake and keep flipping over.
The weirdest thing happened Saturday morning. I too a shower and felt really dizzy and sick. Then I had waves of pain hit me. It felt like hey were rushing up my spine. The pain wasn't that bad, but when it rushed up my neck it hit my head and sent waves of like sadness, or upset emmotions and I felt like crying. I kept trying notto, but I eventually couldn't control it any more and started crying hysterically. Husband came into the bathroom and asked what was wrong, and of course nothing I said made nau sense to him. I started to hyper ventalate and had to lay down to try to calm myself and get air. It wasn't fun. Eventually I calmed down and everything went back to normal.
Husband was nice and game me a back rub later that night. I felt guilty so, we had sex. It was hard at first to find a position that worked, but then we found our stride.
Mother's Day was nice. I came back to bed Sunday morning, after one of my many bathroom vistins, to pull back the sheets and find a card for me and a cute pink CSUF onesie for the baby.
Spent the rest of the day with my mom and grandma.
Back to work today. Pretty easy week. State testing and academic olympics. So basically I'm only really teaching 2 hours a day this week. We have a fieldtrip to Angel Stadium tomorrow, so that will be fun. I don't have an Angels shirt that fits, so one o the girls at work is going to loan me her husbands. Just in case she forgets I got a red tank top this weekend and a cute white cardigan to wear over it.
After school is Talent Show try outs! I can't wait! I love watching the kids sing and dance and play instruments. And this year I don't have to be the teacher to tell the kids they idn't make the show . Yeah, no pressure on me.

[erika182]

So I went to the mall today and got some new bras. I just had to give in and spend the money, I just hope they last me for a long time.
While there husband looked at sales on baby clothes. We got a lot of stuff real cheep at Macys. Some of the stuff we had already registered for, but it was more than half the price that it is at Baby's R Us, so we figured what the heck.
And it was o cute that I didn't pick out one item. Husband picked out every little cute pink and purple thing on his own while I was trying on bras. He did good! Everything he chose was on sale and very cute. Nothing had to be out back.

So very hungry lately! I want to eat everything, but trying not to. Husband has me all worried about eatting too much suger because I haven't taken that test yet. We have a dr. appoinment this Thursday so maybe she'll mention the test or set it up, but it is all news to me. I know nothing about it, except for some of the things I hear you all in hear talking about, but I really didn't understand what it is and what it means for me and the baby. I'm a little worried now because I am a total suger junkie! I could eat cake and ice cream all day long!

Did I mention that more people that I haven't told that I am pregnant are asking me when I am due. It really is a great feeling that people on the street can tell I pregnant and not just fat. Still have a flat top belly though that can be misleading. I think that was the true sign to me before we even found out that we were going to have a girl.

Husband and I still haven't mastered this pregnant sex thing. We went at it this morning, but it is so boring. I just don't feel all wild and adventureous. But husband seems to be happy to have any, so that at least works.
I'm really going to try to put more effort into be more available for sex. Because I know soon I will be so big that I really won't be able to do much in the bedroom.

Don't even get me started on shaving. I officially can't see my woohoo! Shaving my bikini line is so very difficult! And it takes quite a long time, but I still do it. My friend call ed the other night and I said I can't stay on the phone for to long I need to take a shower before bed. He said. "I better let you go right now then. You have so much more squared footage to clean you'll be in there all night!" My husband laughed, but I wnated to kill him. Luckily I really do feel that right now all the extra weight is all belly and more boobage. I've always been very curvy, but from a back view you really can't see a difference. I look the same, not pregnant, but then I turn around and BAM! Belly!

Night

[erika182]

I'm so embarassed of all the food I ate today!
I started off feeling good this morning. I hadn't weighed myself in awhile, because the last time I did I was a pound and a half over the amount I felt I should be at for that many weeks. So when I did today I was surprised to see, since I hadn't weighed myself in over a week, that I was right where I was before. I felt good......but then I blew it!
Here is what I have eaten today:
1. Eggos, no syrup
2. Donut
3. Another Donut (who had to bring those to work today, curse them!)
4. Chicken and broccoli Lean Cuisene
5. Banana
6. Granola Bar
7. Cheese, Meat, and Crackers
8. My left over half of tamale and rice from the other night
and
9. Scoop of Rocky Road Ice Cream to wash down the heart burn
All before 6pm!

Husband is out getting pizza right now for his dinner. I hope I have the will power to not eat any of it. I know I will eat again before I go to bed, who am I kidding. But I will try to eat healthy like an apple or yogurt.
Mmmmmm pizza though!
Save me please!

[erika182]

What a busy fun filled day today! Today was Oral Interpretation for Academic Olympics. My mom came to school to be a judge. I had to get to wok early and set up table and snacks for the judges.
We had our last day of State Testing today !
After recess was my students turn to perform for the judges.....they were horrible! I think this was the worst year ever! No student in my class placed at all.
After school was Talent Show rehearsal and I needed to take down the tables and pack up the snacks from Academic Olympics. Plus go help paint signs for our Science Noght tomorrow.
Left work around 4 and then headed to the dry cleaners.
Came home and finally relaxed and ate dinner.
At 6:30 I headed to Baby's R Us for a seminar on breast feeding. I learned a lot, but I also learned that I am still very scared to do it. I think I need to do more research.

Well, another long day tomorrow. Playground duty in the morning and then I run the last Academic Olympic event, the Spelling Bee. After school I'll have three hours to kill before the Science Night begins. Hopefully I can get a lot done in my room to cut out some work later. Then hopefully, very soon, I will have days where I can walk out the door with the students as they leave at 2.

[erika182]

This week near killed me! Wednesday was the longest day!
I gave the Spelling Bee. Over an hour standing in one spot. Then an hour of PE.

Then I rushed around all afternoon/night getting ready for the science night. My friend, who was in charge of it, was running around doing so many things that he forgot to have his kids clean the room and clean off their desks! Every kid, 32, has books and papers all over their desks. How can people come in to do science experiments with all that stuff out. So.....I ended up cleanig his room too!

I had asked earlier in the morning what we all were going to do for dinner. Because I know when people get busy they sometimes don't eat. But I no longer can be one of those people. They said they were getting food and I didn't have to worry. Sure enough, 5:00 rolls around and no food and the event starts at 6.

My feet are killing me and I'm starving! They keep telling me that food is on the way.
At 5:45 ckicken showed up and I quickly ate two legs and we got the night started.

My room was a disaster afterwards and I had to clean it up before I left. Thank goodness the husband showed up to help.
At around 8pm we left to go home. The night was a huge success! Everyone had fun!

But.....way to long a day for me and the baby. Being at work from 7am to 8pm is just too much.

Thank goodness it is Friday! I need a three day weekend!

[erika182]

I really look forward to the time when I sit down to type this and the first thing that comes to mind isn't......I am so busy!

The baby is really starting to move a lot. So many different types of movements too:

There is the pressure type of feeling. Like she must just be pressing into me. There is the bubbling/fluttering movement, which is light and passes very fast. There is the kick like movement. Which I think you can feel from outside my belly. But husband never can get his hand there when it happens. Or she just stops when his hand gets there. This movement happens a lot with loud sounds. We went and saw the third Pirates movie this weekend and she was going crazy at all the loud fight scenes. And last there is the, as I like to call it "maniac" feeling. As in Flash Dance, "She's a maniac, maniac on the floor, and she's dancing like she's never danced before!" This feeling is insane and sometimes makes me a little sick to my stomach if it goes on for too long.

Well, busy as usual! Today will be my earliest day leaving work. I was there 7 to 4:30. Tomorrow I have a Science presentation and will be there from 7 to 7:30. Thursday is the Talent Show and I will be there from 7 to 8ish. Friday I leave straight from work to go to the Angel game with some of the other teachers, but that should be fun. And relaxing once I get my big butt to my seat.

Went to the Angel game last night too with my family. My aunt who was visiting from out of state got us all tickets.

Husbands birthday was on Saturday and so was my cousin's wedding. The wedding went okay considering all the family drama going on. Husband was very sweet about the wedding being on his birthday and I took him out to dinner later that night. Then on Sunday we saw Pirates with his parents and went to dinner. They also ordered us the glider and footstool for the baby's room. So we took it off our registry and added on the rest of the baby furniture. We know it is a wich list. I mean who is really going to buy us a $400 crib, and other furniture, but you never know. We will buy what ever is left on the list.

I am avoiding the scale! I think I am way over the weight I want to be and my belly doesn't look that big, so.....it has to be going to other places. But I really don't feel all that much bigger. I have always had big butt and thighs, so it is hard for me to tell if they are getting even bigger. I just really don't want my face to swell up. My ankles and feet on the other hand are starting to swell from all the standing I do at work.

I can't wait for summer break!

[erika182]

Husband felt the baby kick for the first time the other night!!!
She is really starting to move around more. I laid down for bed and she was kicking and I told him and placed his hand on my belly. But he shook his head and said he felt nothing. Then a little bit later I said she is really kicking now. And he put his had back, but I told him she was lower now and moved his hand to the spot. His eyes got really big and he gave me a big smile and said, "Was that the baby?" I said unless I am having some sort of spasms, yes! He kept his hand there and she did it a couple more time and then stopped. It was so cool!
Then she kept rolling and swishing around. Husband took his hand away and said, "Good night. Good luck sleeping with that!" He giggled and then rolled over, and was snoring away in less than 20 minutes. I got little sleep that night. But I didn't care.

[erika182]

Well, it has been a tough couple of days.
Husband has been working long hours this whole week, I barely see him. My school Open House was Thursday and I couldn't wait to get that done. Then the year really is over and as a teacher you can relax. But before that could happen we had to have drama.....
It all started Wednesday night while I was doing my hair so I would look preggo lovely for Open House. It was almost 9 and the husband wasn't home yet. He walks in the door, ignores me and goes right to the computer. So I ask what's up? He says his car battery died and he barely made it home. Of course I'm think why didn't you go straight to Sears, but what can I do. He researches on line where to go and heads out to Sears, even though they close at 9. SOmething tells me to go downstairs and see if he can even start his car. Sure enough, he is just sitting there and it won't start. SO I give him my keys and he takes off to Sears to buy the battery and will install it himself. As he is gone I start to think, it will be dark when he comes back, how is he going to see to install the battery? I know, my fat preggo butt is going to need to stand out side and hold a flash light. I was pissed. So, he got home around 9:30, and in my PJs and semi wet hair I stood outside holding a flashlight from 9:30 until 10:30. And he wasn't even that grateful about it. I mean, I'm still having growing pains or something going on this week, and just what I need after standing all day at work is standing for an hour in the parking lot holding a flash light.
When all was done I still needed to finish laundry and get ready for bed.
I didn't get much sleeo that night.

Thursday....I had a good day, but a lot of things to do to get ready for Open House. This was the first year that husband didn't come. That made me sad, plus I think he got home earlier than any other night that week, on a night that I wasn't going to be home until late. Got to love 7am to 9pm days.
Anyway, when I finally got home it hit the fan. It really is all a blur to me, but the husband seemed to have a chip on his shoulder and read everything I said wrong and got very mad at me. He walked away from me talking under his breath. Needless to say I went to the bedroom and cried. The rest of the night we pretty much ignored each other. Me, because I was baffled, and him becasue I assume he was pissed at me.
I didn't want to go to sleep made so I tried to talk to him that night, but it was truly mind boggling. He said he thinks I am unhappy and that Ive been mean to him and he misses how things were before I was pregnant. Sooo, more hysterical tears from me. I was in aww, we tried so hard to get pregnant I just couldn't believe that he was saying all these hurtful things. He seemed to be only remembering the bad. Plus, up unto this point I was amazed at how great he has been. He has been my rock and he makes me feel great! I again was just in aww. Who had he become over these last couple of days. I didn't know this person I was talking to.
In the morning it continued. More tears! I barely could get out the door for work because my face was such a mess. I just really didn't know how we could get on from this and that scares me. But, we both at least got out that we love each other more than anything, but something is going wrong with our communication. (Which has always been an issue with him. He doesn't express himself well.)
At work I somehow had a great day! But I wasn't looking forward to going home. Unfortunately there was some insurance guy at work and I really needed to contact the husband so I gave in and texted him to call me....no response, that was at 12:30. Tried again at 1:30....no response. 2:30...no response. So I figured that he really is still upset and doesn't want to talk to me. I mean I know he is busy at work, but it takes two seconds to text back a resonse.
I started to get worried when I got home and still nothing. When it neared almost 5 I jumped when the phone finally rang...it was him.
He apologized and said his battery had died. He knew that it was a bad time for that considering all that was going on and let me know he really didn't know I called.
Anyway, he got home and the discussionn continued. More tears! But I think we finally cleared things up in a way that makes sense. I expressed to him that he hurt my feelings and made me feel that because of what he said that every other happy moment felt like it might have been an act. He said that this pregnancy has been very rough and it has taken it toll on him. I let him know that this worries me because things are just going to get harder when the baby comes. He said he knows and he can handle it. He just thought pregnancy was supposed to be a happy time and I am in a lot of pain a lot. Again, I said this worries me that you are not going to be able to handle it for the long haul because I could be layed up pretty bad after pregnancy considering all the things going on with my body. He said he knows.
What it finally came down to was that he has been very stressed and he needed me, and in a sense I wasn't there. He missed the happy, perky, full of energy me that isn't pregnant. He is thrilled to be a dad, and loves me a lot (which I really needed to hear), but by the time he gets home from work he gets the zombie pregnant woman that has no energy and is falling asleep in a chair. He knows this is life, but he misses the old times, and wishes this pregnancy was happy all the time.
I'm trying my best to be more positive around him, but I told him that we need to communicate. I'm going to let him know when my stomach hurts. He needs to know what is going on with me if we need to rush in to the doctor for any reason. Plus, I told him I will really feel bad if I bottle up all my emotions.
Things are better, but it was really scary. It scared me and shook me a lot.
I don't know what to say, everything seems back to normal, but I can't get the whole thing out of the back of my head.
He missed me and I was here the whole time, just a pregnant version of me. What if the mommy version of me can't give him the attention he needs? Hopefully the new evolved daddy version of him will be preoccupied with a new baby to love that he/we will welcome our new lifestyle.

[erika182]

9 more days of work!!!
Today went by very fast, just like Friday did. I love all he end of the year events and free time we have in the classroom.
I gave the kids math puzzles in the morning and finished all the girl report cards. I brought home the boys, bu I know I will have time to finish them in class tomorrow so why bother, more time to spend with the husband......if he was home!

I was going to take my 1 hour glucose test today, but then the principal moved our meeting from Friday to Monday. Oh well I thought, I'll do it tomorrow.

They had a DJ party for the kids that sold a lot in our fundraiser. My 5th grade team is so much fun, we all helped out and we were in there dancing and playing games with the kids. I am sure I was quite a sight to see, the 6 months pregnant lady grooving on the dance floor. But, the principal was s impressed that we were the only grade helping the DJ watch the kids and organize the games that she took our kids for an extra 1/2 hour after lunch that the party ran over and watched them on the playground while we continued the help with the party. But it didn't feel like help, it was just fun. Made me realize that when I start feeling better between growth pains I need to get myself more active and tothe gym.

After school we had our meetings and they got done earlier then I thought, 3:20. I realized that I hadn't eaten since 11:30, so I figured I should just haul butt home and still take the test. I know I don't need to fas, but I figured with no current sugar in my body nothing else would interfer with the test.

I was home by 3:50 an by 3:55 I had drank the drink and headed our the door. I was worried that it would be sooo sweet i would make me gag, but I was so thirsty and hungry when I got home that the drink actually tasted great!
So, all done, just have to wait for the results.

Husband is worried because barely anything has been bought off our registry and the baby shower at work is on Wednesday. I told him not to worry, some people wait to the last minute, or maybe they are getting us a gift card. I keep telling him we already get the best gift.....the baby!