I dont know if anyone really remember me but I was due Dec 11th but due to my high blood pressure and labor starting we had to deliver my little man. Here is my story that I posted in the Dec 07
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So today has been a bittersweet day. Having to leave Carson is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. But being away from Madeline for 4 nights was long enough and she had a rough time with mommy gone and she needs me as well.. So im torn both ways right now.
So now for how it all went down
Thursday night from about 6:00pm tell I went to bed I was having contactions and cramping fairly bad. We figured if I could fall asleep then if I were in labor if I woke up in the middle of the night and was still in pain I would go in. I woke up Friday morning and the contractions were pretty much gone but I still just wasent feeling right. I called the doc but they close early and never got back to me before they closed. So, I went to get some lunch with Noah and he drove me up to the hospital after. They got me hooked up and ran some tests. I was having contractions so they checked me but I was still very closed and not effaced at all. They decided to keep me over night and watch my blood pressure and because one of the tests came back with a small amount of protien then we would collect my urine for 24 hours and re-run the test on that to see how bad it really was. Well, by the next morning I was really not feeling well. My doctor finally came in around 11:30 and my blood pressure was 174/117 and my contractions were fairly reg. We decided that we just needed to deliever . B/c I ate we had to wait tell 4:00 to do the c-section. My contractions started to get pretty strong so my nurse decided to check me around 2 which was 24 hours after I had been in there and I was dilated to 1 and completely effaced. So, good thing I went in bc I was in early labor and as we know with Mad my labors go fast.
I finally got into the delievery room around 4:30. It took them a bit to get my spinal in and the moment they laid me down I got REALLY nausous. I ended up throwing up the entire c-section and remained really sick for several hours after. Carson was born at 5:00 pm on Nov 8th . He is 6 pounds 9.6 oz and 19 inches long. He has super long chicken legs and looong toes and huge hands with loong fingers..He looks alot like Mad did but his hair is a bit lighter and it looks like it may be curly.
His x-rays were showing fluid in his lungs and the doctors said sometimes it takes a few days for the babies to pull through that. He was breathing fine on his own but with him being a preemie his lungs were producing the chemical or whatever in his lungs that makes them not collapse. So that is why he was breathing so fast bc he was trying to keep his lungs open. They started Sat evening by putting him on a nose cannula(sp?) and a feeding tube. By Sunday morning he was needing more oxygen. Sunday evening they decided he just wasnt going to pull through on his own. They started an IV and took out his feeding tube. They wanted him to use his energy on helping his lungs grow rather then digesting food. They also decided to take him off the nose canula and put him on a C-pap(I believe its called) its just a stronger flow of oxygen so he dosent have to work so hard. He did well into Monday evening and has remained stable through today. He actually even had his oxygen lowered just alittle bit today. They started him on an IV feeding with a liquid of protiens and carbs and some fats the help him grow. As long as he continues to do well they will continue to slowly lower his oxygen level. His x-rays are all looking good and the doctor believes his lungs are mature he just needs help keeping them open tell his body produces that one thing that keeps them open and the fluid is gone. All his blood tests have been coming back good yesterday and today as well. So basically we are just letting his lungs finish developing and then we need to get him feeding ..and then he comes home!
There is NO way to prepare yourself for this! I thought I did and I tried atleast. I was strong and then on Sunday evening I broke down and had a good cry session. It is so hard to go in and have him cry and not be able to hold him and comfort him. I have only been able to hold him once. Then having to walk out of the hospital today without my baby was unfair. I know he is in getting great care but I want him home with us. Im happy he is doing well and seems to be improving . Really if he continues to go on the path he is on he could possibly be out by maybe next week sometime! Which would be wonderful but the doc said we could shoot for Thanksgiving as a realistic goal. Which I can do ..2 1/2 weeks is do able.
Thanks for all the T&P's they seem to be working
and now for the good stuff
Last belly pic a few hours before
He's here!
First bath
Mommy finally got to hold him!!
Daddy and Carson
and Carson this morning
