I am being a big baby I think, but I am a little down. One of the big things I was excited about when I started my "real" 8-5 job with the state was cool, now I am finally going to have more than like 3 days off at the holidays! And even with coming back from maternity leave, I just barely took any time off-I took 2 days at halloween to go see my grandmom, and I've taken like 8 hrs sick, other than when both kids went to the hospital within a week of each other.
So now I thought I was going to have 1/2 day Wednesday(which I screwed up.), then I get thanksgiving/day after. And I thought I was going to have XMas Eve off, and New Years Eve, and Jan 2nd. I was thinking well I am only asking to take 3 days off for all the holidays(plus the paid/given ones) so I am doing good. Come to find out today that I am going to be lucky to get ONE OF THEM. I am working all day this wednesday. Maybe will get 1/2 day for XMas Eve. As for the other two, maybe one of them if I'm lucky. It makes me sick!!! I know we have to provide activities and all, but its so frustrating when I know all the other professional staff don't have to come help,and can get their time with their families! The only days I asked off for are days I know DH doesn't have to work, and I'd like to spend some sort of time with him during the holidays. I think it won't be as bad as it seems right now, but I'm just having a big "its not FAIR!" moment. Why does the new girl get first pick at XMas Eve just because she's working the Saturday after XMas. I need to just grow up and face that it could be a lot worse. But I want to spend time with MY FAMILY not be stuck here with NOTHING to do, because I know from last year that there will be nothing going on...clients won't even be awake for me to provide any activity anyways.

Why can't my job be treated like all the other "professional staff"?! And really, how are 3 seperate days without a movie or table games going to hurt anyone, especially when nobody is going to watch the movie or play the games to begin with.
Sorry for my temper tantrum. I needed to get it out.