This is going to take me a really long time. Kennedi is a mega fussier so itll have to be edited and edited and edited..sorry!
Anywhoooo so August 30th I felt so narsty. I was just sickie feeling. My belly hurt, my whole body was achey and I was just over all not happy. I told my mom that night before dinner that I didnt feel well and she said Ohh I think that means tonights the night! I kinda laughed it off. All day that day I was having sparodic contractions starting that morning and going into the wee morning hours.
Around midnight the start of the 31st I was still having contractions but they were stronger than when they had originally started. Finally bout 3am I decided it was time to go to bed. As I walked to shut off the lights I felt this "gush", I knew it wasnt my waters breaking but I knew it was something..so I hurried to the bathroom and I lost most of my plug!!
I was too excited to go back to bed so I hopped online told my friend, then went to put a pad on and my mom woke up. I filled her in on what was going on..she decided that she shouldnt go to work that day. I was having contractions so we decided it was time to get the ball rolling and take a nicee walk around the block at quarter to 4am!
So we took our dog for a walk then after we got home I hopped on the birthing ball and did some good bouncing. I texted my doula and friend who was going to be with me during labor and told them I thought today was going to be the day. Im not real sure but it contractions started to pick up and by 7am I had called on call and was on my way to L&D to be checked. I was having horrible back labor, I didnt feel anything in my front it was soooo annoying to be hooked up to the monitors.
I had to go on for a full 20 minutes before they would even check me, I was in so much pain I could barely stand being in that bed! Finally it was over, the nurse came in checked me and told me I was only half cm 60% effaced..I was going home!
I was so disappointed, and then she ordered me back onto the monitors for another 10 minutes, I was super pissed and just talking maddd crap bout that nurse, who was pregnant as well due in 2 weeks! I kept saying how I wished when she was in labor it was all back labor as well and that they would make her be monitored like she was doing me! Yea I was mean..
So we got home around 8.30am and I decided it was time for me to try and get some sleep. I had barely sleep more than an hour and half total that night. Well I tried and tried and I couldnt. I was in to much pain to lay down and it only got worse if I did. So I went into my moms room had her timing my contractions and was moaning and trying to deal with the back labor as best I could..which was not very well. Finally at 11am I texted my doula and asked her to come over and help me through them. Steadily my contractions got worse and worse as the day went on. I was real hopeful that I was in full blown labor. Around 1pm my dad came over, I wasnt much of company as I was just walking around dealing with the contractions. Finally I decided I needed to lay down and really try and rest. I did for about 15 minutes. I would just breath and ignore the contraction as best I could. I got back up and about that time my Aunt Michelle came over to the house. I had had enough. I knew I didnt want to go back to the hospital bc I was going to be put back on the monitors and there was NO WAY that I was going to submit myself to that, so I had my mom call my doc and ask to come in and get checked.
That was HORRIBLE. For the first time I cried, I cried basically the whole way to the hospital. I was miserable. Im only 5 minutes from it but that whole ride was terrible. My mom dropped my aunt and me off at the doors and I stood inside writhing in pain. Im sure I looked great. She hurried in and we hurried upstairs to my docs office. I thought that they would just get me right back there, but I stood in the waiting room for a good 15 minute wait. The waiting room was FULL too! There were so many preggos, Im sure I scared them as I moaned and tried my hardest not to show how much pain I was actually in.
Finally they called me back. My mom came with me and I quickly got unchanged and hopped on the table. Dr.Tripp took FOREVER I sat threw probably 50.. well it felt like that many contractions before he finally came in. The back labor was HORRIBLE. So he came in and could right away tell how much pain I was in. I was having contractions every 2 minutes that were lasting anywhere from 45-60 seconds long. He checked me during a contraction which was HELL and told me that I was 2 1/2 cm and 100% and that he was admitting me to the hosptial!!
Even though I was in so much pain, I was escatic!!
We made our way back to the car cuz we had to drive around the hospital to get to L&D, and headed in. We got there and was taken right to my room. They upset me and I started bawling for the second time. I wanted to leave my pants and shirt on but the nurse gave me a hard time. Not like I was gonna get checked anytime soon anyway! So I really didnt see the point, and Im the type of person that when Im in pain just let me be Ill be fine, Ill make it through it just let me do it the way I want to. I was bleeding, and my plug was still coming out so I didnt want to be all gross in just underwear. But whateve, I left my shirt on anyways and I cried. And cried.
Finally the most amazing nurse ever came in! Beth
she was friggin AWESOME, too bad I only had her for about 3 hours!! Oh I was admited around 4pm on the 31st. She told me that I had to go on the monitors but only for 20 minutes and knew that I was only having back labor so she got me a glider. It was much better than being in that bed, I hate hospital beds. All I wanted to do during a contraction was really walk around, thats all I had been doing all day long. I would hop, sway my hips, whateve my body told me to do during a contraction I did and it was never sit cuz that caused so much more pain in my back than I already had going on. So I sat in the glider for 20 minutes while we listened to Kennedis heart rate and watched my contractions. She came back in exactly 20 minutes, bless her and got me right off and I was back to doing exactly what I felt I needed to do to get through them. They asked me about what I wanted to do for pain meds and I told them, that I would ask if I wanted anything but so far I was going on 12+ hours of labor, 6 of it hard back labor and doing great.
I believe it was around 7pm that I asked for something to help me sleep. I still hadnt had more than really and hour and half that whole day long so I really wanted something, I knew I was going to need my strength to push. I was told that they didnt want me to have Ambien but that I could have a shot of morphine. Dr.Tripp wanted me to really relax the hope was I would go to sleep at and wake up at 6 or 7cm! At that point I didnt even care, I got the morphine around quarter after 9pm, and I passed out almost instantly. I sleept for a bout an hour before I was up and realized how drugged I really was..now I dont member much, I know I was talking with my mom, aunt, and Leigh (doula) who was all with me..but I dont know what I was saying. I slept an hour on and hour off and hour on and hour off till 3am when I wasnt drugged anymore.
My contractions had completely stopped. I was upset about that, but Leigh got up with me and we walked the halls. I swear it felt like we had walked at least a mile, so then I asked for a birthing ball to bounce on. I really thought that I was going to be 5cm at least..I got checked around 4.30am and was told the sad news that I was 3cm!!
Thats when the talk of pit really started.
Around 7am my horrible labor nurse came in, and the PA came in. Both came at me strongly about the pit and I started crying all over again. It wasnt what I wanted, and I knew that I would be stuck in the bed on monitors with the back labor. I knew I couldnt do that. I cried and cried and cried. Finally I asked to walk around for another hour, they said no only 20 more minutes then they would recheck me and we would go from there..still no change 20 minutes later. So again they came after me about the pit, I cried even harder and asked to think about it for half hour. Not even 10 minutes later they were back in my room telling me I had 2 choices, either accept the pit or go home!
I got a little nasty as everyone in the room was on me about what I wanted to do. I finally told them I was going to do the pit, but I needed to perpare myself and to give me time! They backed off for a bit, and when they came back I cried my eyes out as I told them that, I needed an epi if I was going to do the pit. And I told them I wouldnt get the pit until I had the epi, I wasnt even going to attempt being in that bed without it. I was in so much pain already and the friggin contractions were doing nothing! I was so disappointed it just wasnt the way I wanted it.
Im not real sure what time Dr.Murphy came in to do my epi but I believe it was atound 9ish or 10am. Either way, I cried the entire time I mean cried uncontrolably while he did the epi. My nurse really sucked to, she kept getting in my face that I needed to stop crying that it wasnt going to end well with him doing what he was doing. He ended up going in to far with the epi the first time so he had to redo it, and it hurt so bad. Of course this was going during back labor which is not easy to sit still through as your crying your eyes out. And that friggin nurse going "honey what are you crying about? YOUR FINE!" AHHHHHHH I hated her, so much. Thank god I had my mom in there with me. They had originally told me no one was gonna be allowed in the room but the nurse, but I was too upset for that.
My epi started to work just about instantly. My legs went fairly numb as did my butt. I told him that it was perfect, I could still feel pretty much and I liked that. He wiped off my back and thats when I realized that I didnt have any feeling in it what so ever. It was amazing.
They helped get me situated in bed, and got me on the monitors. I had to get a whole bag of IV before the pit would be started. I was really out of it, and kinda nodded off for a while, Im not real sure how long but I woke up and there was no one in my room. I was a little nervous and I started calling for my mom. They came in and told me I should rest, I didnt want to, I just had.
I really wish I could member the time of all that. An hour or so later nurse from hell came back in to do my cathader, it wasnt bad cuz I couldnt feel it. I was upset that I had to have that, cuz the night nurse had said that I could try peeing on my own if I wanted in a bed pan, but nurse from hell said nope that I was just getting the cath and that was it. She really sucked and was rude.
An hour or so later she had me move to my right side and I realized that I was no longer numb on left side. I was feeling everything. Even the contractions in my belly. I had so much pressure too. I was in pain, and nurse from hell wasnt listening. I had a button for my epi but she told me not to waste it.
I was crying again cuz I was pissed that I had the friggin epi and I was in pain! The whole point of me getting it was so that I wasnt in pain, nurse from hell again was all "honey why are you crying"?
I believe it was 3pmish when they came back in to check me and I was 4cm!! That was it!! I was soooooo upset! Not to long after that though I felt all this unbearably bad pressure. I was telling everyone that I could feel something coming out and that I thought the baby was coming!! No one was really listening my mom was at my side telling me I was fine, and I flung the covers off me and was like NO LOOK there is something there I felt it come out!! They looked and I could tell that something wasnt right, they called for the nurse. She came in and was almost rude about it saying I was fine, until she looked down there and pressed the emergency button. People came flying into the room and again I was crying cuz I had no idea what was going on! Everyone was crowding me telling me I had done it and that Kennedi was coming, I started saying back off back off I needed space I was scared! Then the doc looked down there was like..thats not a head! Thats the bag of water! Turns out my waters hadnt ruptured like I had thought 1/2 hour earlier it was fully intact just sitting outside of my body. They all said that they had never seen it before, so they broke it and realized that Kennedi had already had her first bm. Of course I freaked out and I was a mess all over again!
That stupid b**** nurse kept telling me to calm down, but there was no way that was happening. Thankfully my doula was awesome and she helped calm me down as did my mom. So once they broke my bag the PA checked me again and I was 6-7cm!
Before that point my mom and I were perparing me for a c section. I had really lost hope of having her vaginally. But once my water broke things really started moving. My water broke at 4.30pm and 45 minutes later I was telling everyone that I could feel Kennedi moving down that I needed to push!! No one was listening I just kept saying it and with everyone contraction they would say one more contraction, oh yea and by this time I could feel basically everything! I got my nurse and told her I needed to push, a few times my body was just pushing on its own. Finally the PA came back in and told me that I was complete but that I had a lip.
Everyone kept telling me wait wait wait, that I didnt need to push. But the urge was unbearable. She wanted out, and I wanted her out! Finally at about quarter after 6pm Dr.Tripp came in and man was I glad to see him!! He had he push the lip out of the way and he gave me the go ahead to start pushing!!
Nurse from hell really pissed me off at this point. I didnt want to be touched and I didnt want to hold my legs. I wanted the bar to push with but she told me no. Finally I gave in and my mom and Leigh held my legs while I just touched under my tighs cuz Dr.Tripp said it was fine and to leave me alone. Then she came at me with the friggin finger thing for my heart rate, which I DID NOT want on. She told me I needed it, but Dr.Tripp told her not to worry about it cuz he could see the baby it wasnt a big deal. Apparently she didnt like that, but I was a bit busy pushing.
I was sceaming like you wouldnt believe. A contraction would start, I would start to push and would do 3 pushes before it was over. The last push was generally not even me, my body would just take over it. It was pretty amazing. I kept saying I think I gotta poop, Im sorry if I poop!! LOL Dr.Tripp told me it was fine that he would wipe it away and I wouldnt even know. Then I really felt her coming and fast! I told Dr.Tripp that he needed to get his hands outta my vagina cuz it hurt to bad but he told me it was the baby and to keep pushing that I was doing good!! And then it got really loud with everyone and Kennedi was OUT! Born at 6.34pm after just 17 minutes of pushing!! My mom cut the cord and even before that was done Kennedi was crying. I was crying cuz of this but only bc they didnt have a chance to really suction her and I was worried that she had swallowed some of the bad stuff.
Then I realized I was going to faint. I kept telling them that but no one was taken me seriously. But I knew I was going to. I have a history of fainting..they must have realized I was serious cuz they had those nasty smelling stuff in my face but it was too late, I passed out. Dr.Tripp was in my face when I came to thats all I member, I have no idea what he was saying though. I was later told that my bp dropped to 43/29!! A couple minutes after I came round I realized that I had a oxgyen mask on. And I was asking when I got that on!
Then 15 minutes later I realized that I really couldnt see..I didnt have my glasses on!! haha I couldnt even really tell that. I kept saying that I wanted to eat. See it had been well past 12+ hours since I last ate, and 3 hours before delivery they werent even letting me drink water or have ice chips bc everyone really thought I was going to have a c section.
Dr.Tripp stiched me up, I needed 4 total which felt like it took forever. I was scared to hold Kennedi bc I was still very weak from fainting but finally my baby girl came to me. It was announced at some point that she was 9lbs even and 22in long, a biggg girl! No one could believe that she came outta me!
Even I couldnt, but I had guessed her at 9lbs5oz and 21 1/2 in long just hours before her birth.
I looked at my placenta at some point and couldnt believe how bigg it was..oh and delivering that was soooo easy. I didnt even push Dr.Tripp just kinda tugged a little and it just fell out. I guess compared to getting Kennedi out that was an orange when she was a watermelon!
It was one hell of a delivery. After I was cleaned up Kennedi was passed around, and I ate and ate and ate. I got a whole dinner thing and a half of a sub and I chowed it all down. Everyone thought that was so funny.
So even though my birth story is over, its truly not. 7pm I got a new nurse and she told me about 9pm she was gonna come and get me up to pee.
I was scared. She came I told her I was probably gonna faint, so she got another nurse and a wheelchair just in case. They got me sitting on the end of the bed, then had me stand up. I stood for not even 30 seconds before I said, Im going to faint. And boy did they listen to me that time!
I was back in bed and they were telling me I was getting a cath and I wasnt going to be getting outta bed till the moring.
I had already been in bed for 12 hours at that point too!! And most of that time I had had a cath as well! I was worried about getting the cath that time bc before I had her an epi I didnt even feel it, but not this time. And let me tell you I was swollen so they had to root around before they could get it and OMG pain like you wouldnt believe!!
So the next morning at 5am they came to take my blood. Then at 6am they were back to do the same thing. I guess my levels were wayyy lower than what they were supposed to be. I went into the hospital with levels at 31, they consider normal to be 34-38 but they werent concerned with mine when I came in, but at the 5am draw the next morning I was at 18!
The 6am draw came back at 19.6 so it went up a little but not anything where they wanted it or even enough to attempt to get me back outta bed. I got 2 blood transfusions that day. And the entire day I spent in bed. I was in bed for a good 30+ hours and my back felt every bit like I did. But Ill tell you what when I finally peed at 9pm that night it didnt burn. And I liked that..I even showered quick after my first pee.
It was all worth it to have Kennedi, but I will enver have another child. She is wayyy more than enough for me!
Congrats mommy! 
She's adorable hun, congrats!
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