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March 31st, 2013, 06:19 PM
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I figured I'd do a journal to keep me busy and write down all my crazy, too impatient to want to WTTC emotions.

So, let's start. I'm Melanie, 27 and DH is John (32) we have one son Frankie who is 4 months old. We have decided to start to TTC our second baby at the end of Sept beginning of Oct. My cycles are pretty irregular and I want to try for a July baby, so depending on when AF is here will determine if it's Sept or Oct. We got pregnant with Frankie on our first try and I'm hoping the second happens just as easily.


My baby fever is out of control lol. It started when Frankie was only a month old, I must be crazy. I am dying to be pregnant again and to have a sibling for Frank. Up until this month we've been just pulling out, not very safe, so I've tested close to my period the last three months, just in case. Now we are using condoms. There are few reasons we are waiting till close to Frankie first Bday. First, I have him via c section and really want to give my body enough time to recovery. I don't know if I'll be able but I'd like to maybe try a vbac and there needs be some time between babies. I really, really want a summer baby, I have a winter Nov baby so now I want warm summer babe. I want to lose some more weight. Also, our wedding is in May and I want to enjoy that and not be pregnant. And I want to enjoy the first year of Frankie's life focusing on him and his milestones and I don't want to take from him. I keep reminding myself of all this and why I'm waiting. But it's so hard sometimes, I have pregnant facebook friends and their pics and updates make me miss being pregnant sooo bad. But I will wait, it's only 6 months, it will fly by.

Anyway, I guess that's it for now.
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April 5th, 2013, 11:03 AM
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April 5, 2013

5 months 3 weeks till TTC!

Maybe...about to get a little TMI. While DTD the other night, we didn't use a condom, we did the withdrawal method. DH claims he did nothing in me and pulled out in time. Well, I went to the Bathroom after and "plop", stuff came out, I don't know if it was from me or if it was semen. I don't know when I ovulate, my periods are still pretty wacky since having Frankie, so I guess I'll wait and see what happens.

I think I got some of my baby fever under control, for now, I feel like after our wedding it will be bad again. I really want to add to our family and I think if it wasn't for having a c section, I'd want to try in June. But I maybe I'll be able to have a vbac, it may not be possible but I'd like to maybe try. I know they won't let me if the next baby is also big.

I'm so happy it's Friday! My parents are coming down tomorrow and Sunday we may check out the farmers market! I want to get some more fruits and veggies for Frankie. I'm making all his baby food, so far I've made carrots, rice cereal, apples, peas and sweet potatoes.

Thats all for now...
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April 5th, 2013, 12:13 PM
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Oh, yeah, wanted to add. Not saying I'm having pregnancy symptoms, because it's too early and I'm sure the one incident isn't going to lead to pregnancy. But I have been having weird, realistic dreams, one's where I wake up and have to really think if it actually happened. All these dreams are about pregnancy, mostly getting a positive test..it's so weird. lol. I wonder if maybe someone around me is expecting again..I know some are trying.
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April 9th, 2013, 01:04 PM
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So, DH and decided that we would use condoms and make sure we are safe. As bad as my baby fever is, having another baby right now scares me. Would you know it, the other night during DTD, the condom came off. Awesome. Now, I'm worried. 5 months 3 weeks till TTC. I am really looking forward to Oct, I'm excited to TTC. Honestly, if I ended up pregnancy by accident, I will be disappointed that I missed out on the TTC process.
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April 11th, 2013, 07:22 AM
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So, I sent an email for a Cherri22 free reading. According to her, my target month is June, so I'll either find out, conceive or be due in June and she see's a girl. Honestly, if she's right about the month, I'll be happy. If she's right on gender, there may be some gender disappointment, but maybe not. She may be right with her prediction, since we made a little decision about TTC. So, we are still TTC starting in Oct as of right now. But we are going on a two day honeymoon at the end of May and during that time we will not prevent, no pulling out or anything. If we get pregnant, so be it. If I do end up pregnant, I'll conceive at the beginning of June and probably find out at the end of June. Now, I have no clue what my cycles are doing or if I'll even be ovulating during that time. You never know and it would be pretty cool to have a honeymoon baby. We will see! Hey, thats in like a month and a half!
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May 5th, 2013, 08:58 AM
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4 months and 3 weeks till TTC#2! I can't wait.

My wedding is at the end of this month, followed by a 2 days, fun, protection free honeymoon! If my cycles keep doing what they are doing, then I'll be ovulating then. I'm excited to see if we will be lucky and end up pregnant. If not, 4 months isn't very long. My baby fever has really calmed down, probably because of all the wedding stress. Also my dress JUST fits, so if I would have ended up pregnant before the wedding, I would have been screwed lol. Thats all for now.
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Can't wait to hear if you're pregnant or not Make sure you let us know!
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June 5th, 2013, 07:47 AM
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I will for sure let you all know! I'm hoping I am but had some spotting today, hoping its implantation but thinking early AF. We will see!
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March 11th, 2014, 01:54 PM
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I'm back! I can't believe that baby #2 is here already! I feel like I just left this board. Frankie is 15 months and Ronin is almost 3 weeks already. We plan on eventually having baby #3 but not for a few years. My body needs some time to recover after being pregnant twice in 2 years. We are looking at ttc in the fall of 2017.
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April 18th, 2014, 01:00 PM
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There's been a change to our ttc date! We have moved it up to late summer/early fall of 2016, so 2.5 years from now. I really want a late spring/summer baby this time, I said that last time but I mean it now lol. It was so stressful being due in winter. When the baby is born the boys should be 3 1/2 and 4 1/2, I think that will be a good age gap. I honestly would be ok ttc'ing next fall, The boys would be 2 1/2 and 3 1/2 when the baby is born and I think that would work too but can't get dh to go for it. So as of right now, it's a 2016 date but may change!

So my crazy self has some baby fever right now. I am not ready to be pregnant right now, I have a newborn but I miss being pregnant. I just remember how hard it was being pregnant and caring for a baby/toddler and I don't want to do it again. I'm also looking forward to watching the boys grow up together. Also I'm working on losing weight and we are paying off all our bills before ttc. I'm excited for 2016 but not really in a rush for it.
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April 24th, 2014, 07:34 AM
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So, the baby fever is gone for now. Having two so close is rough and with Ronin's colic, I'm super stressed. I need to make an appt to get my paragard placed. I'm not sure when I'll do it, I'm afraid to but also I can't take the boys and I have no one to watch them. I tried talking to dh about changing our ttc to next fall (2015) but he says that's too early. I actually think it will end up happening next year. I don't want them too far apart and Id like to be done having babies in my early 30's. It will really depend on how the boys are, if I think I can handle another, so it's hard to say. I want to be pregnant right now but not ready for another baby, If that makes sense lol. I just love being pregnant
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April 29th, 2014, 08:56 AM
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I think we may have pushed ttc up another year. So right now, maybe trying next fall!! Of course it can and probably will change again.
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May 1st, 2014, 11:24 AM
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After the few days I've had, I'm not sure I want anymore kids. I'm thinking of having dh set up an appt for a vasectomy and just stop at 2. I'm not enjoying motherhood right now and I'm very unhappy and that breaks my heart. I might be suffering from depression at the moment . I've always wanted 4 kids, and would like to have at least one daughter so I experience raising both sexes but I don't know it I can handle anymore. It's so hard. Ronin's colic and Frankie's hitting, tantrums and not listening, I find myself yelling at Frankie and i don't want to yell at him. I can't play with Frankie because ronin cries if he's not held, why am I on my second colicky baby, why can't I have happy babies who don't cry all the time, what am I doing wrong?? I feel like a terrible mother. I just don't think I could deal with another colicky baby. I think my pregnancy days are over. I'm heartbroken. Just needed to vent..
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September 5th, 2014, 08:10 AM
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^ wow, I forgot I wrote that post. It was rough and as it turned out I was suffer from some pretty bad ppd and ppd with rage. It was a scary and bad expirence. I've since started meds and taking time to myself each week (90 min yoga class) and I'm doing so, so much better! We are back to wanting to ttc again, next year.

So I've had baby fever off and on in the last few months, doesn't help that two of my really good friends are pregnant and due in March. Both with their first, one is a high school friend and we talked about how we wanted to be pregnant together but it didn't work out that way. I'm excited for them and to celebrate their babies and can't wait to meet their squishy newborns in March. I have to keep reminding myself why I'm waiting. I had two babies in two years and need to recover, I had ppd and still on meds, we need a mini van and won't have the money saved until the summer on 2016. So we have to wait. I also want my youngest to be at least 2 when the new baby is born. Oh and the weight loss, just got back on track, I want to be a healthy weight before getting pregnant.


But....less than a year before ttc now!!! Yay! Still over a 11 months but still, it's going to fly by.


Oh and I've decided that after we have our third I'm going to be a surrogate (hopefully)! I meet the requirements. I think we will be done after our third but I love being pregnant and can't imagine not being pregnant anymore after our third, even though we don't want more than 3 kids. So, I love being pregnant and I enjoy it and I'd love to be able to carry a baby for a couple who needs help. I can't wait to do this for someone!
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