so i decided to join chat at my '
pr' last night cuz i was actually free...and i always wanna chat, but i never have the time, or i am at work...so, i join in. i start talking. they're chatting. i start talking about how we've been finding all these fakers and yadda yadda yadda...when i suddenly felt like i had the runnies...and so i logged off my computer (i had it without the plug...so after 5 mins my computer goes on stand by mode...to save battery...) well, when i came back...they were all a little hostile towards me. but i didn't catch on until after i logged off and went back to the boards. there, i got this
mar 08 pr and i read it and read it...and it finally all made sense!
it was all a freakish coincidence that i out all days, happen to have free time...and two newbies go on there too. so, they thought i brought them along...and blamed me. well i was infuriated by that post that i im'med the chat host on msn...and we got to talking. and apparantly some of the ladies in that group don't like me because i was NICE to a mommy there...who THEY didn't like.
***?!
i get punished for being nice to someone? what are we, in middle school?? i don't know the girl that they don't like, and they all ASSUMED that i was HER pretending to be ME!
eventhough some of the girls have me on their myspace and all.
well, i told the girl that i am a friendly person, and i talk to everyone. and apparantly they were mad at me because when the girl decided to leave the
pr i was the ONLY one who said good bye to her! hmpf! ***?
seriously, i am 27. (well, almost) and i try to act my age. so, when i mean i am friendly, i mean i am friendly. i don't believe in that stupidity of taking sides and not liking someone because they talk to someone I DON'T LIKE!
so...after a long talk with the chat host...i find out more excuses and reasons of why they don't like me! they're biased against me, and they are just picking at me...i dunno why! i guess they're just bored? i wrote back to that post...the first one i was really angry and hurt and got caught blindsided...and the second reply was after i talked to the chat host...but still...she kept saying that i was being overly graphic with pics i've posted! i've only ever posted pics of avi! and i posted one of me breastfeeding her, but i didn't even show my breasts! avi was just eating and that was SOOOOO long ago! they really do know how to keep things in memory there holding things against one i guess...
now, i really don't feel welcomed. even after we had a group msn chat. they basically want me to be more 'open' about my life! they've had quite a few fakers there too, so i understand them not trusting me and being weary...but, i just know that they really just don't like me, and they aren't going to give me a chance.
and what sucks, i know not ALL the mommies in there feel that way. but still...they really seem to get girls together...and try to out the ones that they don't like. and i'm not an oldie like some of them. i've barely joined their
pr in late jan...but they just don't like me...but they expect me to open up more.
i dunno what to say.
jm is SUPPOSED to be a friendly community...yet, we have these moms who are just so mean, hostile, and immature!
i emailed the co-host telling her how i felt. i don' think it's right for someone to have to leave a friendly group, just because they don't know her enough, and because she is friendly to everyone! i am not going to be siding with people. i make my opinions about people on my own personal experiences with such individuals, and if i don't like them, its because they said, or did something to make me feel that way...not because someone said 'hey gracie, we don't like such and such, and if you do...you're banned' BAH!
thank you girls for accepting me here. i hope you like me. i really hope you do.
and if i ever do or say something to offend someone, i would really appreciate it if it was brought TO MY ATTENTION instead of talking behind my back. i like to be here with an open mind...
sigh.
im thinking of quitting there altogether now...and that is why i've been lurking there mostly...i just KNEW something was up...
i am so hurt. it won't leave my mind.
i hope it gets resolved. i really do like most of the ladies in there...kwim?? but i've become so attached here...that this is where i come to ya'll to vent and what not...and with all that's been happening here lately, i feel even more closer to you girls...
) but you havent, you have made me feel welcome and part of this group just as the others have!
Hopefully everything will be okay now that know you're you and not whoever they thought you were. 
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(which weren't graphic by any means as you describe them)
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