[katinagj]

Nayomi I just noticed that I had missed your post from the other day. I'm glad that you liked the song! I absolutely love it! I think she puts her music in the rock genre but she is Christian and I believe at least most of her music is Christian based. I especially love her song "In my Arms". It's going to be my song for my babies, whenever God decides its time for them to come

Yes I've realized the key ingredient is God! I know that if I just drop all this nonsense trying so hard that it will happen in time. In fact the first month I put it all up to God was the month I got pregnant. It's so hard to do sometimes though, even though it shouldn't be. Me and DH have started reading "the purpose driven life" together. I started it when it first came out when I was in high school, but never finished it...I just wasn't dedicated back then. Me and DH really needed a study and I thought it would be a good start. But I need to find another book to read on my own, because it's hard to get DH to do a study every night when he is so busy with work. He just needs to work up to it. I'd love to do some sort of study daily on my own

[Im.Nayomi]

a book that I really enjoyed was Supernatural Childbirth by Jackie Mize........ its for every stage of wanting to be a mom, while you are pregnant and during your labor...it uplifted my mood and let me know that it is God's will for Women to be mothers.

[katinagj]

Thanks for the suggestion! I will definitely look into getting it! Dh just got a raise so hopefully he will buy it for me since all my money goes towards some bill or grocery list every week!
I really am addicted to books. I guess I got that from my mom. There are probably thousands of books in my parents house. lol. I have about 100+ and I've only bought 3 of them myself, the rest were from my mom!

[katinagj]

hmm...AF still hasn't actually shown up... ?? Where oh where did she go? Not that I want her to come but I need the I'm positively not pregnant sign so I can move on! lol.

[hopeful3853]

hey katina! really like your scrapbooking pages! what a beautiful pooch that maya is. i'm sorry about your temp drop. hopefully it will go back up...

[katinagj]

AF showed at about 3:30 am this morning. Worst AF ever as well. I'm cramping worse than I did during my miscarriages. It probably doesn't help that my body already ached before. I've been living with a heat pad on my stomach all morning. Had to skip work again, because it took me 4 hours just to get myself out of bed. Posting this, but I think I'm going to go back to bed, and just watch tv or something all day. I feel nauseous. Still having weird vivid dreams too...

[katinagj]

WORST AF EVER!

Luckily DH brought home my favorite snacks to cheer me up. But these cramps are still horrible, and nothing will make them ease up!!

[Im.Nayomi]

sorry that af came. What do you nomally use to manage your pain?

[hopeful3853]

i'm sorry katina.

[katinagj]

Originally Posted by B.F.P. 2010

sorry that af came. What do you nomally use to manage your pain?

Well I've tried all sorts of different over the counter pain meds throughout my life, nothing works good. If anything I will get an hour of relief from some of them but you can only take them six hours apart, so not that helpful. lol. Cramps easing up a bit today, but I'm hoping this AF is a short one, cuz I've been getting nauseous. Not normal for me.

Originally Posted by hopeful3853

i'm sorry katina.

It's okay! I had a dream that you got your BFP! I was online and you were posting pics. lol. Hopefully my dream comes true!!

[katinagj]

Random but I've been reading 1 Samuel this week, and I think if we have a boy I will name him Samuel. It fits well, Hannah's story really speaks to me. DH thought it had good meaning behind it, but wasn't sure how he liked it yet. I think its the first boy name I have found that I really feel fits. Samuel Jacobson, no clue what middle name would be. But maybe God was giving me the name? I'm not sure, I am just getting a very strong feeling for this name. I also like the idea of Biblical names. My brothers names are Jesse and David. Funny, because these stories are connected in the Bible.


ETA: My relationship with God is changing, I feel like a stronger person, and I finally feel like I am going somewhere. I think it helps that I finally started reading the Bible daily. TTC turned me all around, but I feel I am on the right track now. It's all in God's hands, and I know I just need to stop worrying so much about trying so hard to get pregnant. I think we will be NTNP from now on.

[Im.Nayomi]

katina I so loved the last couple of your posts..saying that you had a dream that Hopeful got her & the one saying that you have been reading your bible lately and relate to Hannah( so do I !!!! ) Something tells me that we are all suppose to be content with life right now......and ask God how to be patient while waiting for our babies.....cause he holds all the answers to our How,why,when& where......... when we start answering those questions ourselves that is when we start getting frustrated with life....and that is no kind of life to live........welcome to the NTNP team.....you might want to go to the NTNP to meet other ladies that may be going through what we are going through...so you dont have to feel so alone.

[katinagj]

OH MY GOSH!! I am SO excited! So I've been waiting to start training to become a groomer since August when my cousin told me that she was opening a new shop and she wanted to train me. The place is called Purdy Paws, I came up with the name for her, it's in a city called Purdy hence the name purdy paws! Anyways, She called me today to tell me we are opening shop on Tuesday!! I go in Monday to start training!! Which means, I will never have to work at my in-laws ever again!!! WOOT!!! You can't even imagine how much stress this takes off my shoulders. My mother-in-law is not the type of person you want to be around when you have to work, let alone working FOR her. She likes to make comments about things, and has a tendency of bringing me down so that I don't like hanging out with DH's family at all. Well that stress is gone, and I already am thinking, you know I have bsolutely no problem going over there to hang out anymore. I won't feel like she is watching over my shoulder anymore! YAY!! God is great. I thought none of this was going to work out, and its so funny the timing of it all. I finally decide I need to get my life straightened out and there God is straightening it out for me! Today....is a GOOD day

On the down side. Today my dad told me that he will most likely be getting layed off in April. So please keep him in your prayers.
My moms work is also doing layoffs soon, though the chances of her getting layed off are as of yet, unknown. Just keep them both in your prayers!

[Im.Nayomi]

I will be praying about your parents...hope your new job continues to lift your spirit.

[hopeful3853]

congrats, katina!! what an awesome name - purdy paws. love it! will also keep your parents in my prayers.

[Im.Nayomi]

I just remembered eat a lot more fiber...it will help ease up those cramps ( i need to remember this for myself )

[katinagj]

Sadly, some issues came up with the business. Drain is messed up and something wrong with the water. Hopefully it will get fixed today. I won't be training. But hopefully tomorrow I can if the drain gets fixed(can't exactly wash a dog with no drain!). If not either way I will be going out to see the shop. It's a 45 minute drive, and this will be my first time going out to see it. Still super excited even if we don't get to start training tomorrow! Hopefully this drain issue won't hold up opening too much!
All I know is I am happy I don't have to work at my in-laws tomorrow! haha.

[Im.Nayomi]

I hope that drain problem gets fixed soon...

nice to see you over @ the NTNP board

your af is almost done. I always like when mine is done.

[katinagj]

Yup you were right! AF is OVER! YAY!!! Good timing too since I have to drive out to the shop today. I am excited to see it! I will try to take pics and post them!

[katinagj]

About to leave to go to the shop! I'm excited, only problem is I can't get a hold of my cousin. I just hope I don't drive out there to find out she couldn't make it since this has been canceled so many times! Basically she's been trying to find time for me to come out and see it since October, and now things are finally coming together and of course the drain got screwed up, so who knows what could happen last minute! Just don't want to waste my gas!
Well, anyways, I'm out! Oh and DH is very excited that I'm off AF, hahaha.