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June 3rd, 2010, 03:44 PM
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First off, hello everyone. I'm new, but I see a lot of support on here.

I'm trying for my second baby. Just started trying in April after coming off of 1 round of Depo. NEVER SHOULD HAVE tried that stuff. Now everytime it comes close for me to ovulate I begin spotting and it seems as if my period is coming on. I'm really anxious and getting depressed. I have an appointment with my doctor on the 10th and I hope they can help me and comfort me with some good news. I really want to have another baby and this is really getting to me.

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June 3rd, 2010, 06:23 PM
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I have a friend that I talk to all the time...that also was on depo...and she heard that it takes 3 months to get the depo out of your system if I heard her right...... do you temp and use fertilityfriend? and you might want to have your hormone levels checked by your doctor and see what your doctor suggests... and thanks for stopping by my journal....I was thinking even before I read my journal just now...that everyone is going off and getting pregnant...I was preggo but had a recent lost....Im stuck between mourning for my baby....and not wanting to be rude to that one to think about the next...but no matter...I am very sorry about what you are going through...but yea...you are someone new for me to pray for. so i am guessing that you have a son? nice to meet you by the way.
if it is true that you have a son, my friend that i was talking to you about also has a son...
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6 babies 1baby Niece L
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May Charlie 7 Lorenzo 7 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 1 Jaylah 8 mos
June Charlie 7 Lorenzo 7 Tamara 4ys Jakaira 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 1 Jaylah 9mos
July Charlie 7 Lorenzo 7 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 1 Jaylah 10mos
Aug Charlie 7 Lorenzo 7 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 11mos
Sept Charlie 8 Lorenzo 8 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 1ys
Oct Charlie 8 Lorenzo 8 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 1ys
Nov Charlie 8 Lorenzo 8 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 1
Dec Charlie 8 Lorenzo 8 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 1
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May7 47mos 1 mos til she is 4
June 7,2016 48mos Jakaira is 4!!!!!!!
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June 3rd, 2010, 07:32 PM
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S.uperWoman |:| Your whole entry really touched me a lot. And thank you for adding me in your prayers. I'm glad I found JM. I love it here already. Some how it's comforting to see all the success stories. It gives me something to look forward to and new hope. And yes I have a son. I dont really understand how to temp, but I've tried tracking my cervical mucus, and that hasn't worked out well either. I want to try out some OPKs but I dont know which ones to try. {sighs}


Tonight, I've decided to take some time out for some deep prayer and talking with God. I know what doctor's may tell me, but I know for a FACT that God is bigger than the problem that I'm facing. I'm trying not to break down and let this situation get a hold of me, but each day it gets a little harder. Next week Thursday can't come any faster. I pray that my doctor has good news for me and we can establish a plan that will work effectively.My husband seems to find things to fill his time and take his mind off of it all. I wish I could just relax like him, I know that it'll make the process go by much easier, but I can't help the deep yearning in my heart that I have about bringing another joy into my family. Hopefully tonight after prayer I'll get some rest. Until the morning, Lord willing, the best wishes to us ALL. -
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June 3rd, 2010, 11:11 PM
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I am so happy that my entry is touching...... so how old is your son? if you do not mind my asking. I hope prayer helps you& you get your baby ASAP..... I dont know where or who I would be without prayer& God that is for sure!!!!!
I hope depression leaves you as well......replace that depression with faith......&& see faith move you closer to that baby in your arms.....(im speaking to myself too believe that)
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May Charlie 7 Lorenzo 7 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 1 Jaylah 8 mos
June Charlie 7 Lorenzo 7 Tamara 4ys Jakaira 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 1 Jaylah 9mos
July Charlie 7 Lorenzo 7 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 1 Jaylah 10mos
Aug Charlie 7 Lorenzo 7 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 11mos
Sept Charlie 8 Lorenzo 8 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 1ys
Oct Charlie 8 Lorenzo 8 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 1ys
Nov Charlie 8 Lorenzo 8 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 1
Dec Charlie 8 Lorenzo 8 Tamara 4ys Arielle 2 Lillian 2 Jaylah 1
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May7 47mos 1 mos til she is 4
June 7,2016 48mos Jakaira is 4!!!!!!!
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June 4th, 2010, 06:42 AM
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Hmm, maybe I should give a little of my life story. My name is LaToya. No, I dont like my name never have. {sighs} My mother should have NEVER let her aunt name me. I'm 23 years old. I'm married to Leroy he's 24 and we've been married two years, known each other for six. Our son's name is Jamel, he's 1 and he'll be two in September. It was such a joy to find out when I was pregnant with him. My mom and I feared I wasn't going to be able to have kids because I could NEVER seem to have a period. I started having periods when I was 14 years old. My first year of cycles I only had maybe 1 or 2 real ones. I didn't become regular until trying the Ortho Evra patch when I turned 17. I stopped with birth control when I was about 18 years old and had a regular cycle ever since. It took me 22months to conceive my son. I had given up all hopes in ever acheiving pregnancy at one point. A lot was going on with my mom, a lot was going on with my sister and my friend had just had an abortion (her second one) which seemed to rip me to shreds. How could she? I kept saying. Yes that was her personal choice, but I just couldn't understand it. With all that happening I just decided that me and Leroy should wait. He ended up proposing to me in October of 2007 and I conceived in December. WOW was all I could think. I wasn't even trying anymore and I definetly wasn't thinking it could happen that month. Leroy was in shock when I told him, but happy. Now we're trying for our second one in hopes that it'll be a little girl this time. A lot of things look messed up because I just stopped using Depo Provera in April and my cycle is EVERYWHERE! I guess it's just my hormones trying to get under control with the Depo leaving my system. I'm glad I only had ONE shot of it though. Some people I know LIVE by Depo, but my experience on it was horrible. I bled from the last week of January all the way until April 15 about a week after the shot was missed. It interferred with a lot of me and hubby's intimate time and kind of split us apart, but since the spotting has mostly stopped its easier to deal with.


Prayer has gotten me through most of this. In 2008 about a month or two before I had my son me and my husband received some AMAZING information about God. We were attending a non-denominational church called Bibleway, but neither of us were getting much from the pastor's teachings. He never spoke about God, Jesus, Sin, Or the message of Salvation. So when we received the study packets and seminar's from a family friend we were amazed. We attended their church Ephesus which is a Seventh Day Adventist church. And we fell in love with the Power of God. We got re-baptized into the Seventh Day Adventist church and now attend a church called North East. I LOVE my church family. I never felt so welcomed and close to others at church. Since really getting to know God, I've been able to talk to him about my situation and I have FAITH that he'll bring me through this. He blessed me with my son and I know he'll bless me with another baby.

Hopefully he'll bless us ALL soon!
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June 4th, 2010, 03:44 PM
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Hey. just read your intro...nice...... the best part of it...is how you got to know God (personally) then your husband & son......awesome!! now if it is true what my friend said...that it takes about 3 months to get depo out of your system....you would be looking @ the end of July or Aug. but I am going to be praying that you get that out of your system much sooner........Im sorta in the same boat....needing this old hcg to leave my system.....so i can get my body back.......you just do not know how much your being here in such a short time has impacted my life positively...like I think it was yesterday that I was saying to God....that I really needed someone new to join Ttc....cause a lot of the girls have been either staying away or newly pregnant.... and then you came to the scene. by the way both of my sister in laws had conceived their sons dec 2007 (just like you) then they gave birth to their sons sept(2008) just like you....but neither of them are talking about having baby #2.....I am glad you are though.......the funny thing is...I am wanting neices really bad....so i hope you really,really get preggo with your daughter soon..... depo leave her system!!!!!!! (nice new title) You go girl!!!

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June 5th, 2010, 04:19 PM
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|:| Thank you Nayomi, Please keep me in your Prayers and I'll continue to pray for you and everyone else on JM. I heard it takes a while for Depo to leave your system too, but I know God is BIGGER than a shot of Depo Provera and HCG...I know we'll both get our prayers answered soon. Because where there are two or more gathered in his name there IS POWER!!!

So the bleeding that I started on June 1st finally ended some time this morning. I'm GLAD. It was kind of getting to me to see that my period or whatever it was, was back again. Seeing that my last period JUST went off two weeks ago. Boy I've been doing some praying. Soon I know God is going to bless me, just when I least expect it. I've been much calmer about things since I've been coming to JM. Seeing all the other ladies going through similar things, I have people to share my feelings and deepest thoughts and emotions with.

Yeterday I thought of purchasing some OPKs. Then I thought--I didn't want to stress myself out with all of that. Then I thought--it would be comforting to know IF my body was even ovulating. Atleast if the OPKs couldn't help me much in acheiving pregnancy I would atleast be comforted by the thoughts of my body functioning properly.

Lately I've been seeing A LOT of pregnant women. I just smile in hopes of one day that being me again. Although, it is painful to see sometimes. I just wonder, how do these woman get pregnant so quickly? (the ones that I personally know) What is it that they're doing so right and that I'm doing so wrong? There are women I know that get pregnant, call it an ACCIDENT, and then terminate their blessings. Only if they could feel what I'm feeling at this moment. I think some women take fertilty for granted. I NEVER thought it would be hard for me to get pregnant. I thought that whenever me and my husband were ready it would happen. It sure isn't anything like I've thought.

It's been a blessing to find JM. To have a place to come and put out all of my thoughts without anybody judging me or thinking I'm CRAZY. I'm thankful for Nayomi whose prayers are reaching up into Heaven for me and all the other TTC ladies on here. And hopefully, in God's speed...and perfect timing without error all our prayers will be answered.

May God be with us ALL.
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June 5th, 2010, 10:47 PM
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Hi MommaJae and welcome! I'm sara. i'm on a little ttc break, but i'm still here to cheer you on and keep you in my prayers! so glad that you have joined us over here, and i hope your prayers are answered REAL soon!
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June 6th, 2010, 09:57 AM
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Thanks Sara. I'm just waiting until my appointment thursday to see whats going on. Hopefully its NOTHING MAJOR. Thanks for your prayers!!!
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June 6th, 2010, 10:29 AM
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Post # 7 makes me want to cry because it is so true.
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June 8th, 2010, 09:21 AM
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I'm so excited!!! So SO excited

Yesterday I woke up kind of crampy. "Oh Gosh." I thought, "Here we go again." So I got up turned in a job application, took my DH to work, and then went to hang out with my little sister. When I went to use the restroom I had (which I NEVER HAD BEFORE) ABUNDANT EWCM all over the toilet tissue. I was like "OH MY GOD!!!" Then I bit the excitement because I was like maybe it's just a trick or something.

Today I have the SAME THING. So hopefully things are turning around quickly. Yay, Can't wait until DH comes home from work tonight. LOL I'm just so excited. Maybe my prayers did get answered.
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June 8th, 2010, 11:15 AM
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so hope you are correct...it sure sounds like its your O time.... do you track your cycle with Ovulation Calendar and Ovulation Chart - Fertility Charting
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June 8th, 2010, 01:58 PM
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I hope it's correct Nayomi. The only thing that has me is, The day that I was supposed to ovulate thats when that bleeding started. And it ended on the 4th. Then yesterday on the 6th was the first time I seen all the EWCM and still at this moment I'm having it. {shrugs} Im at a crossroads. All I can do is pray and try, if it doesn't happen I ALWAYS have next month Lord willing.

So today I'm just sitting here really in deep thought. Not really about TTC or anything. Just how far me and Leroy have come in our relationship. I really love him and there are those moments where I feel like something is trying to tear us apart, but we somehow find the strength to pick up the peices and continue to love one another. A lot of times I dont know where I'd be if it wasn't for Leroy. He's my strength...definitely and he is my clearity when I can't seem to think straight. I look at my son, (like right now) while he's sleeping and smile because he reminds me so much of his dad...they look alike. LOL he looks like a midget version of Leroy. Jamel is my pride and joy. I love my son...I LOVE him. My days wouldn't pass by so easy without him. I'm glad God saw fit to send him here.

Well. I'm logging off now. May God Bless us All soon!!!
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June 10th, 2010, 11:33 AM
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So today was the day of my appointment. I went with hopes that everything was okay with my pap smear. {sighs} My doctor chose not to do a pap smear and just do the SAME EXACT pelvic exam EVERYONE has been doing on me within the past month and a half or so. He says the reason he didn't do it, is because he'd rather send me out to some specialist because he FOUND something. Something like what? I asked and he couldn't explain it. {sighs} The other three doctors didn't FIND ANYTHING. So what is REALLY goin on? I'm tired of doctor's offices and doctor visits and NOBODY is telling me ANYTHING that I'd like to hear. It's like I'm always getting bad news.

On the ride home from the doctor's office a quiet voice was in the back of my head saying that the doctor didn't know what he was talking about, because he's the same doctor who told me I had two Urethra's. (rolling eyes) My gyno said that there was only one down there...lol. Don't know where he got that one from? So I'll go to the specialist like he recommends, but for some reason I'm doubting his word. Or either the other ER doctor and my Gyno was wrong about not seeing anything down there. I just want my Pap Smear done. I haven't had one this year and I NEED IT DONE!! Everyone is giving me the run around suddenly and I'm getting pissed.

(taking a deep breath) Other than the doctor not doing the exam that I ASKED for today has been a pretty good day. I'm excited to see what this weekend is looking like. My church is going to Atlanta and I love Atlanta. So this should be fun. Until next time....God BLESS!!!!!
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June 10th, 2010, 11:55 AM
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Praying for you a new Gyno that will give you that much needed pap smear....so you can rest already and to know what to pray & believe for.... && I use to think that a pap smear was not a big deal(for a gyno to do it) I mean.......
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June 11th, 2010, 06:37 AM
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Nayomi I have no idea whats going on with my doctor's not wanting to give me a Pap Smear. I figured that they'd give me one especially since I've been having so many issues lately, but to them I guess it's nothing big. I'm just taking it one day at a time and my oppointment with my new Gyno is in July on my sister's birthday the 16th. So I hope I get some good news that day. Thank you once again for your prayers...time for me to get to cleaning!!!!
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June 11th, 2010, 10:26 PM
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ugh. i can't believe they wouldn't just do the pap smear! such a routine procedure! that is so weird and i'd be pretty annoyed too. just like nayomi said, i think you should try and see a different obgyn.
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June 13th, 2010, 05:58 PM
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Thanks Sara, I'm annoyed and it is weird that they wouldn't do a procedure thats IS SO IMPORTANT TO FEMALE HEALTH. I don't understand what was so difficult about him doing it.

So I'm sitting here watching Toy Story and thinking about the first time I ever seen it. I still enjoy the movie like I did as a kid. I'm also sitting here thinking about the joy of my family. I'm so calm and at peace right now. I'm not letting a thing get to me. I've been so stressed out these last few months that I had began to see physical signs developing. After prayer and quite a few changes, I've found that life has become a whole lot easier than it's been in a while.

This morning I frantically woke up out of a disturbing dream, but quickly calmed down when I realized that I was wrapped in my husband's arms. I nuzzled into my pillow ready to go back to sleep when he whispered that he wouldn't mind having a daughter. That the experience of holding his 3 month old neice and cuddling her the day before had confirmed how much he really wanted to have another baby with me. I couldn't go back to sleep after that...lol. It was a nice morning which led to a beautiful day.

We went to the gym today and after doing a few abdominal work outs and some hip and thigh work outs, I found myself staring in the large mirrors at my reflection, laughing at the thought of me having a big belly again. Then my mother's words rung through my ears..."After the second baby, your body wont ever be the same." I grimaced for a second because I've always been generally thin...size 7 and 135 until after my son and I went up a size, but she scared me. Lol. But I don't care as long as I'm healthy and the baby is healthy, I'll just have to work at it. I'm still young.

Everyone is in the bed and I'm sitting and pondering about my spiritual life. The wind was blowing so hard outside, causing the branches of a tree on the side of our place to scratch up against it, so I opened the back door and looked up into the clouds. They were dark gray almost black and moving really fast as the warm winds blew and all I could think about was, what if this was that moment that Jesus came back to recieve his into the clouds with him. Would I be one? Or would I be one of the many slain in his wondorous glory?! I pray that I'll be one of HIS recieved into the clouds with his band of angels. I'm going to pray tonight that God keep me in perfect peace and perfect submission. Because at the end of the day, I just want to be a great example of his Son Jesus.

Well, I'm goin to enjoy the rest of the night, and focus on all things GREAT. Talk to you ladies soon!!!
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June 13th, 2010, 06:51 PM
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I loved a couple of things about your post....the part where you dh talks to you about not minding to have a daughter, and being caught up in the clouds with Jesus..... so do I, so do I!!!!!!

& about your shape...my mom had 9 kids and is 50 and kept her nice shape(just by walking a lot and keeping the house tidy.......so it is possible to have more than one kid and be in shape.
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June 14th, 2010, 08:23 AM
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Thanks for the story about your mom. My mother and some of her friends had me HORRIBLY afraid. But my mother has BAD habits. Really bad habits. Nayomi, we'll be caught up together sweety, as long as we keep HIM first.
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